im so scared...my brother is drunk...
 

he took my modem earlier and i havent been able to get online.
hes now home and hes drunk. hes smashing things.
and the worst part is he beat our dog.:crying:
for no reason, not that there is EVER a reason to beat a dog. i was screaming for him to stop. the dog was laying on floor.
i wanted to call the police but hes my brother. i can see my father all over him.
im so scared.:crying:

I'm not sure what to suggest. Is there anywhere you can go to be safe until he calms down? With the dog?

i dont have a vehicle and i dont know anyone close to pick me up. plus its 3am here. he woke me up when he came in. when hes drunk hes very loud. i have the dog in my room with me so he wont hurt him. ive seen him like this before but hes never hurt the dog before. i dont know whats going on.
but im having terrible flashbacks. when he was beating our dog....i saw my father. i'll never sleep until i know he has passed out.
i want to move out but i dont have the money right now. i feel so helpless.

How are things now?

Its understandable you'd be having flashbacks. Try and stay as grounded as you can.

hes finally sleeping now. but im a ball of nerves. i want out of this situation so bad. hes starting college soon and i thought he would appreciate me helping him. but he is oblivious to the fact that he couldnt live here if i wasnt here because he has no money.
i think im a reminder to him of what my father did and he takes it out on me.
i feel sorry for him.
my sister is coming in a few hours when she gets off work. i hate bothering her but shes just as much his sister as i am.
sorry to keep going on and on about this.
im just really anxious and afraid to go to sleep......nightmares.
i may stay awake until my sis gets here.
thanks katie for your support.
much love.
xx

this is going to drive me mad.
what if all this drama keeps me from going to see Keith????
im freaking out.
*panics*
im not that well in the best of situations but when i start flashing back to my father......things get out of control.
my mind feels like mashed potatoes right now.
im sorry for posting again. i said in another thread that i wasnt going to post for a while and i meant it when i said it. but i was just so scared. and you guys are my safety net most of the time.
please know that i love and appreciate you all.
xxxxxxxxx

I hatedit when i was living at home with my brother. he was a nice drunk, but a violent, nasty b*****d when he was sober. In the end we called the police.
If he does it again, call the police. I know he's your brother, but that does not give him the right to treat you, and the dog, that way.

Call the police - they won't just get him out of the situation, they should also get him some help too.

Take care,

Loz x

yeah, call the police rach. you have enough **** in your family that hasnt been dealt with according to law. if for no other reason that to be physically safe with the dog. mand x

Oh hunni I'm so sorry...
I agree with the others though...I know it's hard but you should call the police if it happens again...

thank you guys...

my sister came over this morning and it all started again. lots of things happened but i dont feel like getting into it. he took the modem again. we had to physically get it from him and it wasnt easy. things are so messed up. he started crying. hes sleeping again right now but when he wakes i dont know what will happen.
tomorrow i am going to dogsit for my sister. im going to be at her house for a week. it will be a good break. and she has cable tv!!! and, of course she has internet access. Michael is going to stay with me because i dont want to stay in a strange place by myself.
my brother has an extreme hatred towards me. he brought up my father this morning sarcastically. he breaks me down mentally. he uses keith against me all the time. i cant take much more. i hope this break will help us both.
thanks again.
xx

You brother really needs to grow up. I know you said he's 18 but this is the time when he really should start thinking about others and not only himself. I hope when he goes off the college things will get better. Maybe any time apart will do you guys some good but I think he really needs to get himself together before talking about you. You can call the cops on him...even if he is your brother if he's scaring you like that. If he is getting violent and you call the police (when he's drunk) they will take him to the police station and put him in the drunk tank where he can be a danger to no one. The worst he would be in trouble would be for minor consumption which I think is just a fine and a substance abuse class...which is sounds like he might need considering he is a violent drunk. I hope things get better and that some time in a differnet place can help you. You really do need to be away from him though...he's just way too negative.