I feel so lonely.
 

Kind of having a rough time at the moment. Life doesnt seem worth living. Im dirty, un-clean and i feel like, im the only person in the world. I just want to wrap myself away from the world. Im getting to the point were I don't like going out, because i feel people are staring, knowing what a dirty little whore I am.

I seem to talk to people at the moment, and feel like i have to scream at them to listen. I was thinking about my sexual abuse today and i just know the sentences from the abuse that make me cry, cringe, and cut.

"You want to see my kittens?"
"I want you to be my girlfriend"
"I knew if i touched your boobs, they'd get bigger"
"Your too tight"
"Im going to tickle your mummy now"
"You've got a lovely bum"

Makes me cry. Makes me feel crazy, did it happen? Or did i let them? Did i encourage it!?
The man at the train station touched my little sisters belly! HOW COULD HE!!!!!! HOW ****ING COULD HE! DIRTY BASTARD! I let him, i didnt protect her! Im a failure of a big sister. I give up i really do.

I feel so lonely at the moment. Like no one really likes me, like they are giving me pity.

honey youre not dirty, not at all

i just texted you but it said 'unknown recipient'.. I don't know why

you're not a whore, and nobody will think you are, although I know how you feel. You never encouraged it, and it wasn't your fault in the slightest, any of it

I'm sure you're a great big sister.. you would never let him have hurt her

xxxxxbobbi