hun, please be careful...you should be taking up something cos you enjoy it, not cos it hurts *hugs*
and i know what you mean about the small things adding up. suddenly they all seem so major...

*sits in corner with her 'box'*

Oh I do enjoy it...
I love the danger...
the adrenaline rush...
Maybe I'll cheat...and buy them early...

I feel under SO much pressure NOT to cut though...makes me want it more...

Another random question (sorry)...
what's the difference in being "tired" and being "sleepy"?
is there a difference?
are they the same thing?
(I am trying to figure out if I am "tired" or "sleepy" right now)

i think you should keep it as an 8 month marker - it helps to have a goal in sight.

I'm gonna leave the ward for tonight I think.
You can help each other better without me getting in the way.
Might be back tomorrow.
*waves*

IMO....sleepy is that feeling...JUST before you fall asleep...
tired is when you think "damn..i need to go to bed..." and your body feels achey and dull

ku stay please

can't not do it anymore :(

is it possible to feel tired AND sleepy at the same time?
Cuz I think I do...

*hugs for you all*

Sorry i havent really been around, but im not doing so good expecially tonight explains why in my thread well kinda.

xxxEmmaxxx

I think so..I feel like that all the time

it burns... a lot. am contemplating whether or no to ring the hospital and ask if i could still get it stictched... i dunno... argh. i don't think they can. edges and sof and yucke.d oh dar.

I slipped big time. This afternoon I get to go and explain to my friend what happened ..... this particular friend has put me in the local psych ward before so I'm a little nervous. I know that what I did was .... wrong (I guess that's the word) ... I didn't want to do it. But what's done is done.

Does anyone mind if I just sit in the corner and cry for a bit?? I need to regain a little strength *before* I go and "let the cat out of the bag". Please ??

yay!! how's it going today?

it's all good.

how u?

I'm gone for 15 hours and all this happens?

To me tired is whole body and brain. Or sometimes one and not the other. Tired is my system saying go to sleep.

Jeff, if you are my daughter's uncle, does that make you my brother? At 5'3" (and if you want to know how many pounds, send a PM,) I may be a short stuff, but honest my shoulders are broad and strong. Do me a favor, and don't pound on my shoulders, but if you need a shoulder to cry on, your big sis is here.

I had a bit of a screaming fit up in the dirt road among the sequoia trees. Exhaustion. My frustration with my hearing problem, which is right in the range of human voices. Besides, trying to get my husband to remember to do the few things that will help me. Get my attention first, face towards me. Enunciate a bit. I don't want to miss what people are saying or have to ask them to repeat it.

And more memories, but those will go in my other thread.

The sequoias are beautiful. The mountains and cliffs and canyons are awesome. Driving through the crop lands is nice too, pistachios, oranges, cherries, olives, corn, and cotton that we recognized.

If a cow is hamburger on the hoof, cotton is a t-shirt on the vine. No, this is not a new thought.

*wonders whether or not to believe jess*

me? tired. fed up. want to see my psych so i can just collapse somewhere and not have to pretend. just for that one hour a week i can be myself and be safe.

i'm fine. really. onest. yeah.

*cuddles everyone*

*goes to nest to guess what, sleep*

I really should be asleep...

*hugs her RYL daddy*
good to see you too
are you feeling better than last night?

Awww Daddy...
*hugs again*

I wish I could encourage you, but I don't wanna BE either
*runs flat side of shiny metal thing up and down her wrist*

no...can't be weak... must be strong
*bangs head*
snap out of it... damnit

I wasn't telling you to snap out of it... I was telling myself to

we will know anyways. it will grieve us more to have nothing fo ou left. don't do it. it's better to be ehre.

i am fine. deleted my post cause it was taking up space.

*goes back to cupboard and curls up in the dark*

wake me when the pain stops.

*find and cuddles jess*

Hope ur ok there, take care of urself there :-) xx

*wakes up jess and carries her into vets general to remind her of the good times*

tghanks for tyring guys. but i'm nto really fleeling all that great. hurting inside and out. nothing is really funny. i'm tyringt hough. really am.

I am doing quite a few self defence routines for my martial art at the mo (lots of getting beaten up and thrown about) one of the teachers said "god whats your fasination with pain?"...I laughed and changed the subject but has got my paranoid and worried.

i wouldn't worry about it!

But what if they find out about the way I am? I wouldnt be able to handle it. Ragh!

Gotta chill and go to work soon. Should be quite today.
Thanks jess I wish I could take your pain away.
*Leaves a beanbag for you to flop on*

they wont! just... chill? you enjoy your workout, that's all there is too it *nods* if anyoe asks just tell them you get really into it!

have fun at work. *hugs*

*drags beanbag into cupboard and curls up on it and goes to sleep*

Back under the care of the crisis team temporarily.

i'm glad you're under the care of the crisis team zowie.

and jeff.... i dunno. it's harder to stay than to go. so you're being incredibly strong. if i was more with it i' sure i could come up with something better to say. but right now i've got nothing profound. i'm sorry. i'm just glad ur still ehre.

hi all was fine when i woke up this morning now i really wana......well you know

Does anyone besides me use an alarm clock on vacation/holiday? My husband is in bed behind me, snoring.

Last night, he asked me where I want to go today. I don't know. Someplace pretty. Some place quiet. Some place where the elevation is higher than the population.

*Hugs everyone.*

The sunlight is orange from the smoke from all of the wild fires up in the mountains.

Yet again, i'm going to end up using caffeine gum.

*yawns like a gizzley bear* RAWR!!!!
I'm tired!!! I went to bed at like 6:45am,
and was wide ass awake at at 7:15,
tossed and turned and tried to go back to sleep
until I said "**** this ****" and got up at 7:30...
WHY ME?!?! I am beyond exhausted, and feel tired
but yet I can't sleep :-/

I understand. The reason my "I am currently" says "dizzy" is because I get lightheaded when I get this tired.

I can sleep but I don't think I'm sleeping well. My husband snores and tosses and turns. Slept 8 hours last night.

Yesterday on the road I slept for two hours at least.

Someone asked me not long ago if I can sleep in the car. I can but only if my husband is driving.

Yeah... my hubby has major jumpy legs... he was kicking me all night last night... and when he wasn't kicking me, it was making the bed move like hell and ****... and it makes me feel bad because he doesn't know he does it and I know he doesn't mean to so I usually don't say anything. I know he can't help it.
*sigh* it really sucks

Jeff, I think I found the pattern to make your magic shirt. Check it out and take a look at the "envelope back" to make sure it will be big enough for your 6'4" self. View B I think.

http://www.simplicity.com/index.cfm?...c=9&startrow=1

then we can go to www.denverfabrics.com to get some nice cotton fabric.

oh wow... are you really making him a real shirt Susan?!
I thought ya'll were talking about a "virtual" shirt... lol

Wow work was really boring. Closed up early cos of lack of customers.
I am farly tired but thats cos i have been inside with warm air, make my breathing restricted.
Well i will be off to my martial arts class soon.
Stay safe everyone!

Have fun at martial arts!!!

I hope I do! No doubt I will be back on later!

Okies!!!
More than likely I'll be here...

Just doing my daily poke head out of the corner...........
Not ready to come out yet but feeling a bit stronger

Not that anyone noticed my absence but i'm back home again.
This weekend was impossible and I've managed to somehow screw myself over things I shouldnt have even contemplated. I'm going to sit in the corner of the ceiling. If anyone cares to acknowledge my existance thats where i'll be, but it's not compulsory.