they are talking about going to a theraputic community argh

Feel like i am completely alone after the end of a two year relationship at the begining of july. Doesn't matter whether im surrounded by people or not, it all feels wank. And I do not want to go back to Uni because he was the only thing that got me through, knowing when I could get away from it and visit him for the weekend. And now thats all ****ing gone and all the horrible depressed thoughts that faded when we were together have come back with avengence.

Well done Zowie!!!

*Leaves big hugs for everyone*

I need to just, give this all up.

Thanks Alexx and Miss Angelus :)
*Joins in the party*

Looks like some of us are doing great, so i say we have a great big party!!! no booze, just lots of fluffy pillows, sweets (and these ones won't go to your hips, so eat up!), cozy snuggly blankets, and lots of loving friends. any ideas for party games?

*opens the door of the new SAFE party room*

CONGRATS Zowie!!! *bakes a special cake for you* you should be proud, i know i am! =)

man, i have sooo much energy. being home, in the fresh air, with my four-legged family, it makes me feel so alive =D

Well done Arwen

*leaves hugs for everyone*

*hugs Shayne* Glad your home and sounding happy

*hugs Kahlia*

*hugs zowie* Great job!!!!! :-)

*leaves hugs for everyone else*

Thanks for the hugs Laura

*hugs everyone with gentle bear hugs*

Awww, I love all of you guys :) xxx

*hugs everyone*

My mood is slipping down and I don't think there's any way to top it. I'm just going to curl up in a corner and cry.

*hugs kahlia* Can I join you? =[

*hugs Kahlia and BigBear* Hope you guys are feeling better.

How am I ever supposed to function in the real world if I can't even make phone calls or go ask people questions or answer questions in class? I hate that I'm like this... I HATE IT... Yet I still talk to people like I have all these plans for myself and part of me does believe I could do these things.. but... Oh nevermind... sorry for the rant.

*hugs Katie* ~ You can join me

Actually I'm slightly manic at the moment after a really down night and day.

I HATE RAPID CYCLING

I should feel hungover after all that booze.
But I'm just tired.

Thanks.. but not really. Not sure how I am. Trying to pretend I'm okay because, lets face it, who wants to deal with my crap? So you know, paint on a smile and forget whats wrong and I'll be fine :)

Don't be sorry for ranting, let it all out *hugs* I know how you feel.. PM me anytime you want xx

*hugs Kahlia*

Arwen- so should I LOL. Oh well..hope you had a good night :)

You know you've got issues when you've downed a full bottle of archers and some pills and you still don't feel numb enough.

*Curls up in corner and crys*

*tight hugs for everyone*
Stay strong guys.
I love you all

not feeling too great so going to hide in the corner :(

Things are a bit mad at the minute and not sure how to handle it all. i thought i was ok after coming out of hospital but now im not soo sure :'(


*cris and hides in the corner*

KATEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I've been thinking about you so much recently *squishes*



(Oh and I'm back everyone ;))

*squishes back* HEY!!!!!!!!!! how you x