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MammaMia 12-04-2010 01:25 PM

Kahlia, we were writing at the same time, big cuddles.

nicole94 12-04-2010 01:46 PM

hey everyone *hugs*

helen-how you feeling today hun?

JK-*handes a basket full of positive energy*-there you go lol

MammaMia 12-04-2010 01:56 PM

Breathless. Hopefully it'll pass soon :S

You? *cuddles*

nicole94 12-04-2010 02:01 PM

*hugs* aaw. why you feeling breathless hun? im good, bit nervous cause i've got DBT today and i hate it, but i'll be fine lol

MammaMia 12-04-2010 02:12 PM

I don't know. I'm not surprised you're nervous. Hope it goes well. What time is it at? :)

nicole94 12-04-2010 02:13 PM

oh ok lol. it's at 3.30. not looking forward to it :/

Scarletdreamer 12-04-2010 02:23 PM

I spy a Helen!! *pounces* Hehe... *holds and rocks some more* You'll be okay, sorry to hear that you're not feeling the best right now though. Is the breathlessness gone yet??

*hugs Nicole* Best of luck with the DBT, I've heard that it can be difficult so I don't blame you for being nervous about it. But I'm sure it will go fine. :)

I just got back from breakfast, and then going & buying stuff from the uni bookstore. Got some books by an author that I really like (Linda Hogan), whom I just discovered, and a "sweatshirt blanket" (made out of sweatshirt material) with my uni's logo on it. Woohoo... :) Spent too much but oh well... :-X

Feeling shitty but was really open with my SW. She's pretty much a counselor, so Hels, it wouldn't really be that much different from your nervousness about your counseling appts. I can't believe how open I was actually, it surprised me. :-/ I don't know if that's good or not...


nicole94 12-04-2010 02:29 PM

*finds april and hugs her* thanks for the good luck :D sorry you're feeling shitty, but well done for being open with your SW

nicole94 12-04-2010 02:42 PM

urgh. sorry to ruin my bout of positivity, but my good mood just dissapeared :( my friends just been rushed to hospital with a burst appendix.........

Scarletdreamer 12-04-2010 02:52 PM

*holds Nicole and rubs her back, if that's okay?* I'll be keeping your friend in my prayers and thoughts today... hope s/he will be okay. Try and stay positive though... because things are rarely as bad as they seem. I'm so sorry about your friend though... that has got to be very scary. :(

I'm doing okay... triggered though... I have to keep a food log and I'm scared about that, scared that the prof might think I eat too little or too much and judge me because of that. :( I mean, I could always lie, but... :crying: I HATE THIS...

But only 3 weeks of school left. :D That's a happy...

*hides again*

nicole94 12-04-2010 02:55 PM

thanks :( urgh. now im really triggerd too. i dont wanna do DBT! :'(

CrazyHayley 12-04-2010 03:11 PM

Hey my fellow lovely inmates! *GROUP HUGGLE!*

well there's been 10pages since I last posted, so I've read through most of them to get the jist of whats been going on whislt I've been under the floorboards hiding. Still PMDDin, but I'm due on on saturday, so just a few more days to struggle through. I'm not feeling well today though but I'm determined to go to spiritualist development circle tonight. That may be a bad idea when not feeling well and not being sane, but I'll hate myself more if I miss the opportunity.

Anyhoo, lots been going on in my family whilst I've been hiding under floorboards to stress me out and worry me, especially my 23year old brother. I fear I am watching him waste away before my very eyes. The difference that I noticed in his weight loss in just the 3weeks since I last saw him is scary. I've posted a thread on the ED forum 'can you be sectioned for an ED?', so if any of you think you may have the strength in you to read it, it would really mean a lot to me. I so need to update my journal but I'm just feeling to overwhelmed with it all at the moment.

*goes out to smoking shelter - some chain smoking is needed*

Doikers 12-04-2010 03:24 PM

I'm back from my ENT appointment , I had my ears sucked out with a mini vacuum cleaner ,it's an odd sensation , and super noisy.
April I have played Runescape a little but I don't "Get it" anymore I used to play for hours on end .hmmmmmmm
*Squishes group*
Oh and JK you look very pretty :)

CrazyHayley 12-04-2010 03:36 PM

*huggles mark* thanks for reading thread and your comment. Ears getting sucked out does indeed sound noisy and odd, lol I hope that its helped!

Time for my afternoon meds. Going to get in the shower and hope that that helps to revive me.

MammaMia 12-04-2010 03:44 PM

*cuddles everyone*

Hayley, hope the shower helps, good to see you around :)
Mark, I've had that done, it hurts like hell doesn't it?
Nicole, hope your appointment goes well & that your friend will be ok.
April, keep going sweetie

*cuddles everyone again*

Have had a shower, feeling alright today after all :D Going to try make some phone calls that I've been putting off for months & months :| I *have* to do them, I just have to...but it's not easy :S

Scarletdreamer 12-04-2010 03:59 PM

Awh Hayley... *cuddles* I'm not up to reading the thread, I don't think, as even some of the titles of threads in the ED section can trigger me... but my thoughts & prayers are with you and your brother and family. How else are you doing?? And have you gotten to level 20 yet on WoW? :)

*cuddles Mark* What's wrong with your ear(s)? Sorry if that's a dense question, just never heard of that procedure before. I bet it was loud and uncomfortable though!! I'm glad the appt went alright. Hehe, I love my WoW... played a bit this morning. What I like about it (versus other games that I've heard of/seen) is that there are other things than just quests that you do. Like you can fish, or leatherwork, or gather herbs (you can only have two professions at once, like herbalism and alchemy, or skinning and leatherworking, or mining and blacksmithing), or cook (you can fish, cook, and do first aid as well as your two main professions)... it's crazy, lol. But I love it. :) There's a new expansion coming out in November and I'm hoping to have at least 3 level 80s (max level) before that time... I currently have a 80 death knight, 72 paladin, and 61 priest that I am planning on bringing up as fast as I can. :) Sorry for all of the WoW talk, it's a good distraction!! :o

*huggle Hels* Glad you're feeling alright!! That's awesome. :D I hope the good mood continues throughout the day... *more cuddles*

*cuddles Nicole* Why are you triggered, hon? what triggered you? *holds you gently*

I am so tired... am having a s/f decaf latte right now (at least, I HOPE it's decaf...)... it's really good, hehe. I'm trying to watch more what I eat now so I don't get too triggered doing this food assessment, and also so I can lose weight and wear a string bikini for my husband at some point in time. :P Without being all bulgy and nasty. :-/

*hides* :(

MammaMia 12-04-2010 04:19 PM

Why does making phone calls have to be so hard :(

Scarletdreamer 12-04-2010 04:20 PM

I don't know, Hels... I have to make some phone calls myself and really don't want to either... although one pertains to my internship. :-S Am scared silly about that.


Just updated my r/v thread... it's a kinda long entry though.


MammaMia 12-04-2010 04:24 PM


Mine are important ones too. Made this one on the wrong day, silly billy me. Got to phone about my phone contracts, try get doctors appointment, sort out my counselling & jobseekers stuff. Plus a possible phone call. ARGH ARGH ARGH!!

Scarletdreamer 12-04-2010 04:30 PM

Awh... I'm sure that we'll both get them done though!! And damn it, I just remembered that there are 2 bills at home (in my name) that I have to pay... but I don't remember where I put them!! :'( I'm so stupid... and the apartment is so cluttered at the mo from the kitchen being fixed, so it's going to be a chore to find them. DAMN IT!!!!!

*hides* :crying:

PoisonedApple 12-04-2010 04:39 PM

*huggles everyone*
Sorry for no individual replies... 6 pages since I last looked.
How is everyone?

Scarletdreamer 12-04-2010 04:45 PM

I'm doing pretty shitty. :'(

How are you, Crimson??

And I spy a Mark!! :D

PoisonedApple 12-04-2010 04:53 PM

Not bad so far but I've only been awake an hour and a half.

CrazyHayley 12-04-2010 04:58 PM

well shower revived me slightly....I'm clean and dressed ready for development circle later. Serious amounts of caffiene I think will be needed. But I am NOT letting my PMDD win, I AM going. *stamps foot to emphasise point*

I've had a headache all day, at first I thought it was just due to my M.E, but now I think about it, its a different type of headache....the one we all know so well....the holding back the tears. But I don't feel justified for the reason I want to cry, I want to cry about my brother and his situation. But surely thats just selfish and by crying putting the attention onto me?! Oh and April, don't worry about the thread, I knew that there would be a few people who it'd be too much for, if not all of us in here as we all struggle so much.

On distracting WoW talk (so skip ahead if it bores you, lol) I have indeed made it to level 20 and got my first mount! I've not played on it in about 4days though due to PMDD and family stuff. You need to get a toon in Darkspear and then come and help me, lol!!

*goes out to smoking shelter...again*

Scarletdreamer 12-04-2010 05:00 PM

Hehe, sleep is amazing... :) Wish I could've slept in that late... I love my sleep. Except when I have nightmares. Like last night's.

The following content has been hidden - Reason : might be tmi (female stuff) :P

I dreamt that I was going to get my hair styled for the first time, but the "hairdresser" was my dentist, Dr K, and she said that oh sorry, she doesn't know how to style hair, but she can do pap smears. So she did two pap smears on me!! (and IRL I've never had one done, much less two, one after the other!!)

My mum thought that that dream was hilarious but it was rather scary whilst I was actually dreaming it!! heh.

Anyway. Sorry, that was totally a tangent... :o

Doikers 12-04-2010 05:00 PM

Sorry April , I'm just lurking , thoughts racing around the subject of food . I don't know the food posting rules so I wont risk posting any details right now . I can be very obsessive and my obsessive side has decided to focus on food intake :S

Scarletdreamer 12-04-2010 05:03 PM

Hayley, grats on making it to level 20!! :D You have a gnome, right? so you got a Mechanostrider? Hehe... those are cool. Hope you're enjoying yourself. :P And since you're on a EU server (right?) I can't come and help you... otherwise I would. :( It takes me like 3 or 4 days to make it to level 20... lol... although that's intensive playing. My priest reached exalted with Darnassus and now has all of the fast mounts (she's level 61) and is a shadow priest, so her mount looks all shadowy and awesome, just like I knew it would. :D Now I'm working on Ironforge so she can get the rams... :P

*group cuddles*

Scarletdreamer 12-04-2010 05:05 PM

Awh Mark, I'm sorry that your obsessive thoughts are focused around food at the mo... if it "helps" any, mine are too... :( Bingeing and all. It really sucks. I posted a little about that in my r/v thread, about how I need to revise my diet and avoid bingeing and all... ****, I'm sorry if this is triggering. :( How else are you doing? any plans for the day? *big cuddles*

nicole94 12-04-2010 05:14 PM

*hugs everyone* april-i was triggerd because of my friend being in hospital, and being scared about my DBT appt. just got back from DBT. wasnt that bad.......still triggerd though :(


Doikers 12-04-2010 05:17 PM

My "plans" for today are to make it the first 2 consecutive days without S.I. in a while , it's in the balance atm . Not wonderful "plans" I know :S I'l be on here on and off for tonight . Also don't worry April you didn't trigger me :)

Scarletdreamer 12-04-2010 05:19 PM

Awh Nicole *gentle cuddles* I'm glad that DBT went okay, but I'm sorry that you're still triggered. Anything I can do to help??

Mark *cuddles next to* Those are FANTASTIC plans. :D I hope you manage it... and if you don't, please don't beat yourself up over it, okay? One day without SI when you've been going each day with it for a bit is fantastic. :) You're an amazing guy and you can make it. :)

*hides again*

nicole94 12-04-2010 05:23 PM

*cuddles april* i dont know. i cant think of anything but cutting. i hate it :'(

MammaMia 12-04-2010 05:25 PM

*cuddles everyone and sits with April & Nicole*

I didn't make all my phone calls. But have finally finished my complaint letter, they best read it this time :@

Scarletdreamer 12-04-2010 05:27 PM

*cuddles Nicole* Try maybe taking a warm bath, or reading a fun book/mag that you enjoy, or having a cup of tea and lurking here for awhile!! :) *more cuddles*

*cuddles Hels and sits with* Complaint letter? to whom? Sorry if that's a dense question, I feel very stupid today. >_< Anyway, I do hope that whoever "they" is, the letter gets read!!

I spy an Oliver!! *cuddles*

I'm so sick of life... :'(

nicole94 12-04-2010 05:34 PM

*cuddles helen and april* i am supposed to be staying at my cousins tonight. i dont want to. i feel scared of leaving the house and having to socialise. but then.....i know once i get there, i will stop being so triggerd and start enjoying myself. gah.

Scarletdreamer 12-04-2010 05:37 PM

*cuddles Nicole* Is there any way for you to get out of it? or do you think that going there and HAVING to be social will keep you occupied and away from thinking of SI? Just a thought. :)

Am updating my journal - paper one IRL - right now... feels so good to have pen in hand. :)

*hides again*

EDIT - ah sorry, you said that already... I say go and feel better. It's worth it in the long run, right? xx

Doikers 12-04-2010 05:38 PM

I haven't shaved in 3 days .
I'm fairly fair so it doesn't show too much but...
I need to shave .
I just don't want to be close to the razor :S

Nuts I'm stuck.

nicole94 12-04-2010 05:40 PM

it will distract me, i will be better, i will have fun. but-i am scared. i dont want to have to talk to people and play with a 3 year old and do stuff. i want to hide in my wardrobe and cry! :'(

frenchhorn 12-04-2010 05:40 PM

Hi all, I'm hacked off at the moment, jsut got an email from uni putting me in rehearsals, when I am already in rehearsals with uni for different ensembles, communication is obviously not their strong point.

*cuddles April, Nicole, mark and Helen*

MammaMia 12-04-2010 05:41 PM

*cuddles everyone* Posts are going way fast, I can't keep up :(

It's to a mobile phone company and the fact they're refusing to cancel my contract & thus are breaking the law etc =/

*hides where she can't be found*

Scarletdreamer 12-04-2010 05:42 PM

Lol, sorry, Mark, your post made me smile. "Nuts I'm stuck." Hehe. But anyway, back to being serious - you could wait another day maybe? to see if you could get through today without SI'ing... because getting close to a razor is temptation indeed, especially if it's a rough day for you. And anyway, most girls find stubble on guys pretty attractive. ;) I know I do on my husband... until he kisses me on my shoulder etc. and then it's like OWWWW... lol. :P

I feel like such an EPIC FAIL. :'(

Scarletdreamer 12-04-2010 05:44 PM

Well, I'm off for a bit... the posts are going way too fast for me to keep up, heh, so GROUP CUDDLES and there are some calorie free cookies on a plate over there. *points to her right* (which is actually a wall IRL, oops :P).

CrazyHayley 12-04-2010 05:45 PM

*huggles and snuggles everyone*

I'm so glad that even though people are struggling today, that we're all manageing to be productive in our own ways and achieve things - keep up the good work guys *hands out party poppers to all who want them*
Use them to celebrate - whether its what you've already achieved or save it for a next milestone, even if its just getting through the next 15mins with out SI etc.

I've got superchick 'stand in the rain' playing on repeat at the moment - it helps.

Oh and April, level 20 in 2-3 days?!! As in play time? or real life days?! I'm not sure in play time how long its taken me, but its taken nearly all of my 60day time card lol, though there have been times when I've had a week of not playing at a time. But I'd say a good 2weeks worth its taken me and that was with help from the 'battle chest guide' and some fellow guild members! Its scary that people ask me for help and I still feel so clueless!! Oh and what a shame that you can't help or just play along, I forgot about the server things. I'm glad that RYL is worldwide, I'd miss a lot of you guys if we weren't all able to join in together.

Sorry I'm not being very supportive, I feel like I'm just waffling about me or WoW....*shakes head* so sorry guys but I feel like I'm an ass-hat right now....

edit: OOh i sound bitchy - "I'd miss a lot of you guys" - that makes it sound like there'd be people I wouldn't miss. That is not the case. I'd miss ALL of you, you are ALL part of my life and help me sooo much. What I meant though is that I wouldn't miss all of you as if there was different servers I wouldn't need to miss the ones on my server. Does that make sense?! Gosh, I really am an ass-hat.

*goes back under floorboards to take head out of own arse* (no one needs to see that, hence going under floorboards)

nicole94 12-04-2010 05:46 PM

*grabs a cookie, blanket and teddy and curls up in corner*

SoMuchMore 12-04-2010 05:52 PM

wow! so many posts... almost 4 pages since my last one yesterday.

*cuddles everyone and places some snacks on table* Sorry for my lack of individual replies.

I'm still not doing great. Very bad thoughts/urges all day yesterday and a little bit this morning. I almost wish someone IRL would ask me not to do any of this.. ask me to stick around... b/c then maybe i would be able to for them.. not for myself (which i know is bad) but maybe it would be better than nothing.

nicole94 12-04-2010 05:58 PM

*hugs laura*

MammaMia 12-04-2010 06:00 PM

*cuddles for everyone*

I've been feeling good but it's fading I think :(

nicole94 12-04-2010 06:03 PM

*cuddles helen*

Scarletdreamer 12-04-2010 06:32 PM

I spy a Laura and a Mark!! :D *cuddles*

Hayley, I mean 2-3 days as in IRL, not game-time. That's if I can play a lot (A LOT)... like on weekends when I don't have a ton of schoolwork. :) I think that over break we're going to get a Refer-a-Friend account (well, make one) and whiz up some other toons to lvl 60. Hehe. Actually, it would have to be 2 RAF accounts... but that way my hubby's and my shamans (lvl 32ish), rogues (45ish), and my mage (28), druid (28), and warlock (41) could be whizzed up to level 60. :D And then we might give away the other accounts to someone who wants their own account... with toons already at 60. Lol. Maybe not. I don't know. Anyway... :P Do you have any other toons besides your lvl 20? Oh, and what you said about missing people made complete sense. :) *cuddles*

*cuddles Hels* How are you doing now, sweetie?

*cuddles Laura* What's up, hon? how're you feeling?

*squishes everyone else*

Just walked down to the public library to see when their booksale is (books that go for $0.50 to $3)... next Monday. Woohoo!! hehe... I love that sale so much, look forward to it every year. But walking back up, my legs hurt soo badly, because I've pulled some muscles on the sides of my calves and they ****ing HURT. I hobble they hurt so badly.

Am... well, not going to say what I'm planning on doing as that wouldn't be encouraging recovery. :( I just am near a tool... and want to use it... :-S


Doikers 12-04-2010 06:41 PM

*Hugs April* I hope you don't use that tool , You are worth so much more than that .
That booksale sounds AWESOME !! *jealous* :P

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