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MammaMia 24-07-2009 05:06 PM

Arwen, I'm sure you'll look fablous chick and that you don't have a pregnant belly <3

emo-fairy, how are you honey? Haven't seen you in here for agggggges (Used to be Hells)

realflifefaerie 24-07-2009 06:45 PM

*hugs those who'd like one*

Am really finding things hard but don't dare talk

alliwant 24-07-2009 11:34 PM

hugs to everyone sorry haven;t been around been having toughie at the moment

Hugs secrets hope you find someone to talk to. here if you need to chat k.

Things are so screwed up at the moment

Kahlia1981 25-07-2009 01:09 AM

*hugs everyone*

My sling needed a wash so I'm almost completely back to touch typing.

Think I'm going to hide out in the smoking shelter for a while.

Damnation. 25-07-2009 05:17 AM

Can hardly be bothered to move. Can only just be arsed to type. \kept going spacey today. Want to hibernate til sept. Urges to cut my neck

Kahlia1981 25-07-2009 08:59 AM

*hugs Dayna/Todlich*

*hugs everyone she can find then goes and hides in the smoking shelter*

PapaBear 25-07-2009 09:18 AM

went to the docotr today to get some test results back. found out the HIV is progressing/mutating far faster than expected. I have virtually no white blood cells left, they've all died off, so I'm to expect to come down with virtually any contagious illness/infection over the next little while. they also figure that if this pattern or progression continues, it will become full-blown AIDS within the next 2 years.

I'm numb. beyond numb actually...

realflifefaerie 25-07-2009 04:24 PM

*hugs everyone*

Just to let you know I'm thinking of you

shadowedsoul 25-07-2009 09:11 PM

hugs papa bear, sorry its not more, im suck at this type of thing.**** i feel like crap, just want to scream and not stop. everthing was going great. now its all turned to ****. and im so damn angery. i just want to do something badly

Kahlia1981 25-07-2009 10:16 PM

*hugs everyone*

MammaMia 25-07-2009 10:28 PM

<offers hugs to all>

Soryr it's not more. On my way to drunken state. Yay.

shadowedsoul 26-07-2009 12:08 AM

ARG!!!!! i give up,why the hell do you always pick fights with me. you came into my room and started one me, then you think im talking to someone online, and when i dont show you, you think im hiding something. just fu!k off. you have just made my day worse, i want to cut shreds out of myself, and i really dont give a *****. mabye i should in future i should just keep things to myself, would be a hell of alot easer. sorry guys for this rant.

Kahlia1981 26-07-2009 02:50 AM

*hugs Helen and shadowedsoul*

SoMuchMore 26-07-2009 04:41 AM

*hugs Secrets*
*hugs MammaMia*
*hugs shadowed*
*hugs Kahlia*
*hugs everyone else*

I know that I'm quite new to the ward, so you guys don't know me very well at all. But I wanted to say thanks... just knowing that ppl are reading and bothering to give individual hugs is amazing

~Kaytee~ 26-07-2009 04:53 AM

Does anyone feel like they lose time? Half an hour passed between posts and I don't even remember what I did >_<

Kahlia1981 26-07-2009 05:55 AM

*hugs Fallinstar*
*hugs BigBear* ~ I have the same problem

I feel so guilty. My housemate overdosed last night because I didn't wake up when he got the urge to do so. I logically know that it wasn't my fault but it feels like it is.

MammaMia 26-07-2009 12:26 PM

Katie *cuddles you tight* Love you

Kahlia, it really isn't your fault that they couldn't wake you up and they wouldn't want you to blame yourself *snuggles gently*

*hugs everyone else*

I'm in so much pain lol!! From cuts (boo) and blisters on my feet :S

Kahlia1981 26-07-2009 12:32 PM

Helen ~ thank you. My flatmate has told me straight out that it was not my fault that I can't change feeling guilty.

*hugs everyone on the ward*

shadowedsoul 26-07-2009 01:09 PM

hmm would it be okay if i just hide out in here. i just be in the corner, you wont even know im here.today is going to be ****, allready feel like cutting. *goes to corner hugs knees rocks*

MammaMia 26-07-2009 01:09 PM

I'm glad he did!! *cuddles*

Kahlia1981 26-07-2009 02:04 PM

*finds shadowedsoul in the corner and offers hugs*
*hugs Helen* ~ I'm glad he did too, but I can't stop feeling guilty.

Nicole [mouse in darkness] wants me to offer you all hugs and says hello to all.

shadowedseraph 26-07-2009 02:17 PM

*hugs to all the ward smoking shelter and denial tent* i hate my life it sucks ass *hides in a corner and rocks*

realflifefaerie 26-07-2009 03:15 PM

*hugs shadowedsoul* I'm sorry things are so tough today.

*hugs Helen* hope you had a good night

*hugs Kahlia* you shouldn't feel guilty, and I'm glad your flatmates told you not to.

*hugs Fallinstar*

*hugs Bigbear* I swear I must fall to sleep sometimes, i'm forever losing time.

*hugs shadowed seraph*

wildly insane 26-07-2009 03:54 PM

*hugs everybody*

I slept for 12 hours!!!! I must have needed it, meant that the morning didn't even exist today though.

The interview went okay, not sure I want to move to liverpool though, I'm not a big city kinda person, but I may just be making excuses.

*hugs everybody again*

shadowedseraph 26-07-2009 05:03 PM

*hugs secrets* how are you doing today?

*hugs wildly insane* i can understand not wanting to move into a big city

Damnation. 26-07-2009 07:11 PM


Originally Posted by wildly insane (Post 1772690)
I slept for 12 hours!!!! I must have needed it, meant that the morning didn't even exist today though.

Sounds like an ordinary night to me >_>

wildly insane 26-07-2009 11:19 PM

haha I wish, problem was I didn't go to bed until midnight, so it was midday!!!! I usually average 6-7 hours a day :P but I've been really lethargic for the past couple of weeks, so I guess I just needed some re-cuperation.

How you doing Todlich?

*hugs Shadowedseraph back* hope your day went better than expected.

*hugs Helen* how are you doing hun?

*hugs Secrets* hope you are okay

*hugs Shadowedsoul* I hope it wasn't **** and I hope you stayed safe

*hugs Kahlia* hope you're feeling less guilty now. How's the laptop palaver?

*hugs Katie* oh I know what you mean, hope you had a good day

*hugs Arwen* did you have a good night out?

*hugs Fallinstar* anytime :)

*hugs papabear* we're here for you

*hugs alliwant* welcome back, sorry to hear you're struggling, if there's anything we can do.

*hugs Purplesmurf* cute bunny, hope you're okay

*hugs Kat, Jem, Nicole, Cheryl, Vicki, Hayley, HannahBanana, Oly and anyone else in the ward* take care of yourselves, I'm off to bed :P

Kahlia1981 26-07-2009 11:47 PM

*hugs all*

My laptop should be returned by the end of this week. In the meantime I'll be borowing one from the DRC or AcessAbility Services as they now prefer to be called. I'm trying to ascertain where to pick it up from as my first lecture is 3pm this afternoon.

Just sitting around waiting for the blue nurses to come and give me a shower. I hate not knowing when they'll show up .... it frustrates the hell out of me.

PapaBear 27-07-2009 06:34 AM

been sleeping on and off for over 18 hours now. severe staph infection through my respiratory system. not fun. stuck in bed with a humidifier to keep the dryness of the air conditioner's air down. i think i'll go back to sleep now...

*curls up in quarentine corner and dozes off again*

SoMuchMore 27-07-2009 07:10 AM

*hugs PapaBear* :-( that sucks. Sleep well and feel better soon!

Anxiety levels are on the rise and I feel more stupid by the second.

~Kaytee~ 27-07-2009 10:16 AM

*hugs papabear* hope your better soon =[

*hugs fallinstar* im with you.. anxiety on the rise here too. started uni today ughh dont know how ill make it =[

*hugs hannah* hope you slept well :) 12hrs, sheesh, i was lucky to get 3 last night grr..

*hugs kahlia* hope uni is going ok for you :)

mouse in darkness 27-07-2009 10:22 AM

Hello everyone
I have missed everyone in the virtual psyc ward.
In the past few months I have moved across the country and miss all my friends ecspecially Kahlia. Well I thought change would make a differenceeven {well a little one} I was sooooooo wrong.
Hope you get well soon PapaBear
*Hugs everyone*

*Gentle hugs for Kahlia*

zowie 27-07-2009 12:14 PM

Sorry I haven't been around recently, had two parties two nights in a row. The first was a nice, quiet evening with nice people. The second was mental - It was all my dad's punk friends, and we kept drinking from 4pm - 6am! Me and my dad cycled home and I fell off my bike (though he fell off a lot of times!) now my back really hurts. Slept through pretty much all of yesterday and last night, and still don't feel 100%
I'll do individual replies when a few pages haven't gone by!
Thinking of you all.

Kahlia1981 27-07-2009 12:16 PM


Originally Posted by BigBear (Post 1774735)
*hugs kahlia* hope uni is going ok for you :)

Thanks Katie. I had my first lectures today and got through okay. Three more days of lectures then I am finished for the week. I hope Uni went well for you.


Originally Posted by mouse in darkness (Post 1774748)
Hello everyone
I have missed everyone in the virtual psyc ward.
In the past few months I have moved across the country and miss all my friends ecspecially Kahlia. Well I thought change would make a differenceeven {well a little one} I was sooooooo wrong.
Hope you get well soon PapaBear
*Hugs everyone*

*Gentle hugs for Kahlia*

Thanks for the gentle hugs Nicole.

*offers hugs to everyone on the ward*

shadowedsoul 27-07-2009 12:49 PM

big bear hugs for papa bear, that sounds horrible hun. hope you feel better soon.argh!!! damnit i feel like cutting again, heading of for a week, im not sure i want to, allready being told not to cause any agro, when im away, yeah like its me causeing it. feel like **** and being hurt by my mum, but cant say anything because it will start argments again. i just want to hide and not deal with this. no choise in the matter, just have to take my mums crap for a week, great. =[

Steel Maiden 27-07-2009 03:31 PM

Thanks all. I posted in my supported accommodation post about the update on it.

MammaMia 27-07-2009 04:33 PM

<offers gentle cuddles for everyone>

Sorry I'm not posting much at the moment...

Good to hear from you though Nicole!!!

Steel Maiden 27-07-2009 04:39 PM

Ty Wildly Insane, the leave is going ok but my Mum is depressed.

*hugs all*

I don't like my olanzapine any more but my haloperidol rocks....my haloperidol gives me insomnia but my olanzapine sends me to sleepy land.

Louise 27-07-2009 04:46 PM

*sends hugs to everyone*

then hides in the corner

zowie 27-07-2009 08:30 PM

I've got my outpatients appointment tomorrow afternoon, hopefully they'll be taking me off the medication.
I really hope they do, because my GP said that it'll be much easier to lose weight once I'm off them. And, to be honest, I don't think I need them anymore (y)
Drinking with my sis tonight. Already had a couple of pints to get rid of the hangover...

youonlyliveonce 27-07-2009 08:32 PM

hi just to let u all know im going on holiday in the morning for a week scared but ill be ok thanks for everything the last few weeks xxx

Kahlia1981 28-07-2009 12:38 AM

*hugs everybody in the ward*

No individual replies I'm afraid because too many pages were passed.

I had my first lecture yesterday and have lectures running until Thursday so I might not be around all that much.

Damnation. 28-07-2009 02:06 AM


Originally Posted by wildly insane (Post 1773888)
How you doing Todlich?

Still been getting spacey a bit, so have been resisting the urge to go void today <_<;. Other than that, a bit on the lonely side, and rather down *shrug*

*Hugs everyone*

Kahlia1981 28-07-2009 07:58 AM

Dayna/Todlich ~ That doesn't sound too good hon. Thinking of you

*hugs everyone on the ward*

I had my second lecture today and the lecturer for that subject is a friend of mine. That subject should be a breeze for me as it is an Introduction to Information Technology and I wouldn't be doing it at all if I didn't have to but they wouldn't bring over any of my OT subjects because they didnt fit with the joint Business/IT degree. Oh well.

wildly insane 28-07-2009 09:59 AM

I got the job, I can't really believe it, so damn typical, I just start seeing this really lovely guy and a spanner gets thrown in the works in that I'm going to have to move to Liverpool - 4 hours away!!!! :(

*hugs to all* Don't know where I've been but it seems to have been busy here

*hugs Todlich* sorry to hear you're feeling lonely and down, loneliness to me is so diffficult

*hugs Arwen* good luck at the GPs

*hugs Kahlia* good luck with all your uni stuff, try not to stress too much

*cuddles Louise* hope you're feeling better today

*hugs Oly* sorry to hear about your mum but glad the leave is going well

*hugs Shadowedsoul* I can sympathise hun, if you ever want to rant fell free

*hugs Katie* hope you slept better last night

*hugs Nicole* friends are difficult to leave behind, because they mean so much, but they are still there, and still friends.

*hugs Fallinstar* hope you anxiety is lessening

*hugs Papabear* hope you get well soon

zowie 28-07-2009 12:46 PM

Ugh. My Pdoc has cancelled the meds review until Thursday. I'm not too pissed off, I'm just going to be honest and tell him I stopped taking the fluoxetine a month ago, and have gone four days without the other two. He may still want to reduce them; but I'm hoping he'll say that because I've gone without and felt fine, I can just stop now.

I know I haven't been doing individual replies for a long time, and I'm so so sorry. Just been busy, feeling sick, and usually checking in when there have been too many posts to wrap my brain around.
I do read all your posts though, and I am always thinking of you guys.
Love you all xxx

shadowedseraph 28-07-2009 02:20 PM

*hugs to everyone on the ward* sorry no individual replies but the place has been busy!

Spoke to my psyche and he's increased my meds which is a good thing, im now able to sleep, hurrah!

[Fog] 28-07-2009 03:01 PM

Hey guys, sorry I haven't been around for so long. I've changed meds and been struggling to cope with side effects/ withdrawal from my old meds. I'm doing ok though, I'm still here I guess! I really hope you are all doing ok, I've missed you all xxx

realflifefaerie 28-07-2009 03:11 PM

Hi guys,

really sorry I haven't posted for a few days, there's too many posts for individual replies.

*hugs everyone*

CrazyHayley 28-07-2009 04:25 PM

Oh my goodness!!! I seem to have stayed out in the smoking shelter for 2whole weeks!! How on earth have I lost that much time?!!!! Hmmmm..... there are just over 10pages since I toddled out for a fag, a bit too much for my brain to cope with on catching up at the moment and to do individual replies, but I want you to know that I have been thinking of you all and was aware that I needed to post, but really, 2weeks?!!! hmm...

I'm still in my good place, I wouldn't say I'm excstatic anymore, I just weirdly feel what I think could be described as 'normal'. I vaguely remember this feeling but haven't had it in over 4years. I haven't been discharged from my psych as she says I still have a lot of issues and she wants to make sure my mood doesn't slip back as quickly as I went from suicidal to angel happy. So I guess thats ok, better safe than sorry right?

Anyway, I've not SH in a whopping 26days!!!! And just to share the positive progress and light of hope, yesterday was the 11th 'anniversary' (urgh) of my rape. It was a normal day....well I was babysitting to keep myself distracted, but its the first time since that I haven't fallen apart, cut and wanted to die. Its weird, but I think I've finally accepted what happened to me and made my peace, I won't be a victim any longer. I hope for those of you who are reading this who have been through the same or similar, this will bring you a ray of hope. It takes time, a long time, but we can get past what has happened and learn to live for the future again.


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