*gently hugs everyone in the ward*

*hugs shadowed*

I'm better guys :D :D :D :D *runs around and gives hugs to all*

But my mood sure as hell hasn't picked up, oh well, I don't care. My shitty peroid came early again today, or maybe it was on time, I'm being very bad at keeping track of them at the moment....hmph!

Oh & just found I did fail my entire year of uni, hahahahahaha I suck!!!!!!

*hugs Kahalia* how are you doing honey?

*hugs MamaMia* you dont suck your just having a tough time at the moment

The tough time that never seems ending *sighs*

i know that feeling well *hugs* but it does end eventually

*Hugs everyone*
I'm hungover. Even a panini and a diet coke didn't make me feel better!

To make matters worse, all of my year have passed, well my 'friends' :'(

But I have no right to get upset, I'm the one who ****ed every assignment I did hand in bar one. I was the one who didn't hand in a few assignments and missed an exam. I'm the one who ****ed it all up by myself.

yep but suppose you can repeat it next year just get ya work in on times and go to exams and shizzle...

I've actually had a good day no nasty texts and i'm going out tomorow so yay :)

I did actually get my work in on time and attended all exams bar one actually but yeah :) Hoping they'll let me repeat as it's been planned between me another member of staff, because at the moment they want to know if I've withdrawn or going to re-sit in the summer.....Making me want to withdraw so much, hmm!

*Friday huggles*

:crying::crying::crying:

I did something silly last night.. :crying:

*knocks on door* I'm finally getting the courage to post in here... so hello.

*hugs bigbear*

hello fallinstar big hugs

cud do with a hug. really struggling

*hugs Cheryl* we're here if you want to talk

Hiya Fallinstar *waves* welcome *offers tea and banana bread*

*hugs Katie* how are you feeling today?

*hugs Helen* sorry to hear about uni, hope you can get it sorted so you can re-take the year

*hugs Arwen* hangovers suck hope you have a good weekend :)

*hugs Shadowedseraph* are you feeling any better today hun. Do you want to talk about it?

*hugs Lolly* I hope you have a good time going out

*hugs Kahlia* hope you're okay

*hugs everyone else too*

I have to dash I have a million and one things to do before going to a party this evening, which i'm slightly nervous about due to having to socialise with a lot of people I don't know, must not drink too much or else I could be in trouble, had a shitty week :P

Thanks fallinstar *hugs back* and hello :) Hope ur ok x

*hugs cheryl* take care

*hugs hannah* hope you have a good night :)


im ok.. i dunno really.. my arm hurts and ive decided to stop drinking for awhile.. doesnt do me any good for now :/ sorry helen bout last nite :/

*hugs all*

Hopefully I get my cast off on Monday. *crosses fingers* Then I just have to worry about my shoulder. It's 1am and I can't sleep. Think I'll put a movie on and hope that I fall asleep while watching it. As for my mental state, I'm fine (f*cked up, insecure, neurotic, emotional). Oh well.

I'm feeling really ill. My dad says it might be because I've been drinking a lot, but it doesn't feel like a hangover. Bleeeeh.

hmm i feel bleh, it seams like im taking 1 step forwards and 3 steps back. noithing going right, just want to cut, and it getting harder and harder to resist it. i know im going to regreat it if i do,. hmm might just hide in corner under a blanket. sorry guys.

Feeling better today. Didn't sleep well last night and had horrible dreams, but I think/hope the illness has passed. xx

*hugs everyone*

Am feeling very triggered at the moment. :(

Hannah is very very stupid, didn't cut but still am very stupid, why can't I just repect myself eh? :P

*hugs everyone* more replies later, am being called

*offers cuddles to all*

I think I'm still ill after all, buggar!! But not like how I was before, but some of the symptoms and stuff are still around and getting worse to be honest. Oh well, got to try get an appointment to see my GP about a few things anyway and this will be included. Going to be so much fun.....not!!!!

*huggles wildly insane* its hard to respect yourself

*cuddles MamaMia* do see your GP as soon as possible, being ill is not nice!

*hugs Kahalia* Whats up sweetie?

*hugs zowie* glad your feeling better

*hugs shadowedsoul* i think i know exactly how you feel

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I'm on team one forwards three back, the only thing i have managed to do right is not cut and thats becoming a struggle

*Hugs Kahlia* How are you feeling now sweetie? Did you get past feeling triggered?

*Hugs Hannah* You're not stupid. Well done for not cutting.

*Hugs Helen* Hope you feel better soon hun, hope the doctors goes okay.

*Hugs Seraph* I know it's a struggle, but try to remind yourself how well you're doing by not cutting. Try to focus on that, treat yourself to something nice to cheer yourself up.

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I have almost a full bottle of wine which needs finishing, and I just ate some take away cheesey chips. Too many calories for ol' fatty here. I really should stop over-indulging. I can't afford it, and I can't stand being so fat :(

*hugs zowie* we all need to overindulge once in a while :) be kind to yourself

*hugs Shadowedseraph* thanks for the huggles, I know it's tough when you feel like it's one forward and three back but you have to keep trawling through the mud and you'll reach firmer ground eventually

*hugs Arwen* mmm cheesy chips, yummy, but I know what you mean. I did slip, just a little, later on :(

*hugs Helen* hope you get better soon hun

*hugs Jill under her blanket* look after yourself, be kind

*hugs Kahlia* hope you managed to fight the triggering

*hugs Katie, Todlich, Kat, Jem, Cheryl, HannahBanana, Hayley, Vicki, Secrets and anyone else hiding*

meh :(

*hugs all*

I was triggered by my parents but that issue has now resolved. Uni starts back next week and I just have to stay in control until then, and it will distract me. Especially as I'm looking at studying full-time.

I'm almost 11 months SI free and i'm trying to hold on until I reach that mark.

Right now I'm waiting for the nurses to come and give me a shower. I think I spend far too much time waiting...

I'm eight months free today.

*hugs zowie* Congrats! Good job!!!

I haven't been feelin to good the last couple of days (mentally)... wish i could talk about it w/ my boyfriend but, i always have issues talking to him. I guess i don't want to make him mad.

Congrats, Arwen :)

I'm back.

Things are so, so busy and my heads all over the place. I shall try to pop in again later but atm I don't know whether I'm coming or going.

*leaves hugs*

congrats Arwen

*hugs everyone in the ward*

Have to keep my cast on for 2 more weeks then should be relieved from the burden of carrying it.

*hugs zowie* congratulations thats a massive achivement, you should be so proud!

*hugs fallinstar* you can always talk here, we'll all listen

*hugs secrets* good to see you back

*hugs wildly insane* Thanks for the positive vibes, hope you feel a bit better soon

*hugs Todlich* how are you doing?

*hugs Kahalia* good news on the cast front!

:) Thanks everyone! xxx

Kahlia, oh good news on the cast front and yay for you being nearly 11 months :)

Arwen, congraultations sweetie

*leaves cuddles for everyone*

my head is banging...
i want to go park... head wont let me...
gahhh....

Try go Laura, might help your headache (assuming that's what the banging was referring to...) :)

*hugs MammaMia* how are you today sweetie?

Struggling, but I can't, got two best friends & a close friend who need me to hold together to help them through, one best friend in particular. I'm fine :) It's all fine!!! Bahahaha! >.<

*snuggles and offers calorie free chocolate* hold together out there but feel free to collapse in here, thats what here is for!

Thanks for the snuggles and chocolate :) *gobbles it all up haha* I know, well one best friend wouldn't mind me falling apart and in a way I am in front of her everytime we talk, but I try not to. I'll feel more comfortable after a difficult anniversairy has passed, well the date is tomorrow but today also has a significant effect, if that makes sense??

yay i went park!!! :) had a laugh got chucked into the paddling pool and yay

*silently crying and bleeding inside, outside a mask with no tears, no words*

*hugs everyone* sorry it's not more

*Hugs anyone who's struggling*
I'm really thinking of you all xxx

*checks in for the first time*
I've never been on a psych ward (besides working there for a horrible month) so this is my first visit to the virtual one.. anyway I'm messed in the head. I need help but I'm too scared to ask.

Hiya Bex, This is a safe place, say what you want, we're here to support *offers a cuppa and a comfy chair*

Hi Bex, welcome. Feel free to ask us for help, we're a nice bunch :) xxx

Realy struggling lol. I'll be fine though haha?

Hannah, am here for you honey if you want to talk, we all are x

Arwen, how you doing today honey?

*offers cuddles for all*

*Hugs Helen* What's up sweetie?
I'm fine thanks, we're having jacket potatoes for dinner which will be nice :) I'm huuungry!
xxx