I can't... I can't keep hold of my dreams... if I can't drive a ****ing car, how the hell can I hope to fly a ****ing plane? I just... every ttime I've flown recently, it's been too tempting to fly into the ground. I want to even now,ad I'm not in the air. I don#t want to be hereanymore. Nothing else for me.

have you spoken to people about how you feeling because with the right help i think it could really help hunnie
hugs

I tried. Uni counselling kicked me out after my "quota" of 6 weeks, and then kept telling me to go talk to my doctors, doctors told me to go talk to uni counselling. Stuck in a neverending cycle. tried talking to different doctors, they just say there doesn't seem to be anything wrong. Given up bothering. More stress than it's worth.

Sorry...

It's stupid that they only give you 6 weeks of counselling, specially when the doctors won't do anything. Could your uni speak to your doctor and tell them that they need to do something to help you?

*hugs hana*
sorry I'm useless tonight hun, but take care, yeah?

Thanks Ku, I understand. You ok? I'll try and take as much care as I can.

I've tried talking to uni counselling, get them to write to my doctor, they won't. Tried getting doctor to tell uni counselling to extend the 6 weeks indefinately, they say they're not qualified to deal with self harm. Why bother with the last 6 weeks then??? I'm beginning to think people are trying to trivialise everything, make me feel worthless. well they've done a damned good job there. Doctor down here says there's not much point starting anything down here if they're not going to continue it once I go back to uni, and I kind of agree with him actually. There is no point. Get through this on my own. Again.

You're not useless, and you've got us.

I'm getting by hun.

Would like a padded cell
 

Checking in for a few nights with my 24yr old rag doll for company. shes missing a leg and is a bit tatty but she need me to hold her hand. I'll try and remember to sign the register tomorrow if i'm well enough

hello =)
your rag doll sounds adorable, what's she called?
*hugs*

*hugs hana*
*hugs wildone*
*hugs ku*

I'm waiting to see if there is any word on my friend.

*hugs everyone*

You ok Susan?

*sobs*

*hugs everyone*

sucks. still feling light headed. still not okay. still don't want to be here. waiting for my nan to go out. i feel like i should ike.... do something terrible to myself.

This is just one of those situations where you wait, and sometimes you cry. I'm hurting but i'm in acceptance. Not triggered though. So I guess okay.

*hugs everyone*

someone... anyone? why am i trying so hard ot stay alivez/ what is the point?

I'm here Jess :) *huggles* i don't have much advice but sending loads of hugs your way.

I've gotta ring an ambulance but i can't :( i feel sooo ill and i just can't ring for an ambulance, am i stupid or what. xxx

ring. please sweets... ring... please

RING!!!!!!! PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!11

I don't know if i can Jess :( sowwy i just can't keep focused on anything right now so i'm going to go to bed i think and if i still feel bad in the morning i might go i don't know yet :( well thats if i can sleep my eyes are really heavy but i'm in to much pain but oh well :(

*huggles* stay safe Jess xxx

ring.... please... just irng and tell them... please. :'( please

*hugs Emma and Jess*
Please go to the hospital, Emma, get this sorted out, please?

Don't have any other words at the moment, sorry.

*hugs*


*retreats to corner and curls up*

Yep..i agree with hana

BOTH of u get ur self checked out there...emma and jess !! plz :-(

*hugs everyone*

How you feeling, Jem?

And yeah I agree, both of you get yourself checked out. Please?

Errrh, i could be better but i'm not an emergency case atm :-P

Urself?

Could be better, could be worse I guess. I'll survive though :) Probably, lol.
Gonna see if I can get some more sleep now, though. half five in the morning and I'm going to the cinema later, don't want to fall asleep while I'm there!

*cuddles*

hehe...nps

Nitey nite there..sweet dreams hana xx

can i please just go now.... leave forever and ever..... *cries* oh man my head hurts so bad!

*sigh* sleep didn't happen :( Ah well.

Please don't Jess? Please stay here? *hugs* Get yourself checked out sometime, yeah? Try and take care of yourself sweetie?

i taked another little od.... neurofen this time... there's a pkt of panadol here too... i can so do this.

Please don't do this Jess? You can get through this sweetie. Can you go and get yourself checked out? Please?

no if they find out now i'm doomed. they'll stick me in hospital for sure. i'm so screwed.

Plz get urself checked out jess :-(

took so panadol. i'm so shitted now. oh well. don't care.

Like i said in ur thread...go get urself checked out!!!

Please, go get checked out, sweetie, please?

nah, i'll be okay. if i'm not then it's meant to be. you know?

my doctor siad not problem muhc cuse of weigth. shud e fne.

hmmm, i dunno what to say really *looks confused*

Im wildones ragdoll cindy. Shes doing ok but hasnt been a good girl. she is now starting at day1 of no harm... Nothing else involved 'this time'.

I hope those who are not doing good over the past night sign in *im worrried*

*hugs all her fellow ward friends*

*worried wildone is going down instead of up*

*hugs Jess, Jem, Cindy and Wildone*

Glad you spoke to thedoctor Jess. Stay safe? Please?

Wish I had words for you Cindy and for wildone, but I... can't right now. Give wildone a hug from me though, yeah?

massive hugs to all!!

i'm not really in a good place myself. soo really sorry cannot offer help

but i can offer fluffy pillows and an ear to rant at :)

x x

I'm sorry everyone. I don't have anything to offer. I'm going to be needy for a while. Chances are slim that my friend will survive. My heart physically aches. I'm sobbing without tears.

*hugs you all*
*goes off to do the necessary things to help others help our friend*

*huge gentle hugs Susan* Take as much time as you need sweetie. Your friend's in my prayers, and you're both in my thoughts. Don't worry about being needy, you're just reaching out for the help and support that you need and deserve, take as much as you need sweetheart.
I'm so sorry about your friend, truly, deeply. Feel free to PM me whenever you need to sweetheart.

Although, I should mention, to everyone in here, that my parents booked a trip to Turkey today. Leaving 4am tomorrow morning, so I won't be around for a week. I'll post again before I leave, but my thoughts and prayers are with each and every one of you.

xxx

Awww hope you have a good time hana and stay safe!

Very angry today, just want to punch a wall till i bleed, kick a tree till my toes break or just crash my car
its so stereotypical bloke i hate it!

*hugs everyone who needs it*

sorry that's all I can give...

*hugs everyone*

-sighs-

I'm sorry.

*hugs Helen, Ku, Susan, Jess and anyone else who's around and wants*

You don't have to apologise, Helen. *squishes*

Don't have much I can say at the moment, but wanted to leave hugs for you guys.

Thanks for the hugs.

When is this ever gonna stop *cries*