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cuddles everyone, and curls up
sorry mark for not answering back. hope your feeling less weird today. squishes |
*Hugs Laura*
*Hugs Crimson* *Hugs Jill* |
*hugs mark* you're up early. you okay?
*hugs jill* how are you feeling now? *hugs crimson* yeah, it has been really quiet in here. Don't know why... i think everyone is struggling a bit, unfortunately. I hope you are feeling alright. Sorry that you have to start over, but its just a slip up. You can do this! :-) I'm not good right now. Really fighting my head :-/ |
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I ****ing Hate feeling like this .
Called my Mum , Got told off for spending so much money and that I need to save up to visit Felicia , I SOOOO want to visit her , I am making a stand , No more frivulous spending , no money on games and alcohol , I hate myself sometimes . Also does ANYONE know how to or if I need a VISA to visit the states?, My life is unravelling and so many people are holding me together on and offline . I need to regain control .RIGHT NOW. ACK! I'm so angry at myself! |
From what I understand you should just need a passport for a short term visit. you would need a temporary visa to get a short term job, go to school or be working on immigrating but for visiting i'm pretty sure it's just a passport you'd need. I can double check..?
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I am really trying not to lose it. Really I am trying. I am really emotionally unstable so bad right now at work, but my coworkers don't know I think. Thanks to my messed up family and others I want to self harm so much. But I can't, cause then there would be questions and I have already been in trouble before. Fudge. Don't know what to do now
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*sits with Matt* Sorry useless for anything else right now.
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Thanks *hugs back* its okay. I hope it will be all okay. What if its not though?
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we can only try to believe it will be. What's happened?
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Hi,
I guess I'm not sure what to say...I'm a mess and kinda fit the definition of this thread i guess.... |
Welcome *hugs if ok* I'm Crimson.
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thanks...hi I'm Jay
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Crimson could you a million check ?, I'm so nervous.
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are hugs okay Jay?
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I'm just fine with virtual hugs....thanks for asking
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So really want to jump out a window right now...pretty low...
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*hugs Jay* Do you know why you're low?
*cuddles Mark* Do you know why you're nervous? *hugs Matt* |
Hi jay * waves*
* waves at everyone* Hope you all are ok |
not really...i was just listening to some tunes and all of a sudden I'm just sitting here looking out the window....
Hi "Dark Asylum". *waves back* |
*waves at Jay and hugs*
Recently I have become more and more emotionally fragile. I don't take emotional hits very well. I always get run over by family and friends because I can't say no. I am just tired of resisting what the voices tell me to do because its very draining |
*waves at Ella*
Jay, if the music makes you down have you tried other music? Mark, I'm pretty sure you qualify to visit with only a passport... this is the linky though to the info i was looking at -specific to the uk even:) - hope that makes you less nervous. *hugs* I totally understand that, Matt. *sits with* *hugs Matt and Jay* |
Yeah,....I have now...but its already done its job you know?
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*cuddles laura and anyone else who wants*
love you guys <3 |
*Hugs Jay*
*Hugs Crimson* I have Never travelled internationally since childhood and never alone. *Waves to Ella* *Hugs Matt* *Hugs Heather* |
I have an update from Oliver , I guess I'll just type out the texts
"I'm not good ,saw the Doctor yesterday and she wasn' happyas I ran away again yesterday and she said if I do it again they will put me on a secure unit. Then I got angrywith her over a different matter and she told me to leave so I did then I was punching walls and she told all the staff to just leave me and not intervene. I've just been lying on my bedever since crying and scared cos now my name isn't on the board with the other patients so I'm scared they are moving me. But no one is telling me anything . Sorry for the ramble" and "I know the urge to run away is so strong but I'm trying not too. Trouble is I have shower gel etc in my room and want to do stuff with that just want to die but I'm too scared to talk to the staff cos I'm convinced they all hate me" I'm sorry I'm not the bearer of better news :( |
Oliver Sends cuddles and says he misses the ward :)
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*Night time hugs my wardies*
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*sends cuddles back* tell him we miss him too!
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curls up small, cant do this today crying my eyes out right now. just really suicidal and extremely low.
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*Hugs Crimson*
*Hugs Jill* What happened hun? |
*hugs Mark and Jill and anyone else wandering around in here*
I'm starting to feel like a yoyo. It's dizzying. I think I actually prefer all being low or all being ok. This up and down and up and down is driving me crazy. *runs off to write while I'm not feeling thoroughly uninspired* 27750 words btw :) more than half way through my word goal for a month of working on my novel (it's day 21 of 30, goal is 50k words) |
Want to cut ...really not so good right now
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hugs everyone
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*hugs Louise and sits with Ella*
Wanna talk about it? |
50k word , wow thats a lot but you can do it crimson hun *Hugs*
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Thanks!
I probably could have already if I just didn't get so low periodically that i can hardly think... I've skipped writing 11 days of the 21 so far. :( It helps that I know where I want this part of the story to go and wrote myself out prompts so if I forget what's going on I can look at my notes... *hugs* How are you tonight? *update* up to 28882 words. |
Just To Let y'all know , Lindsay is inpatient for her exsema and is thinking of us all :)
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Hi guys....
don't know what to say but...*hugs* |
*Hugs Jay*
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Gave in today...
feel so worthless.. |
*Hugs Jay* You're not worthless hun :)
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*hugs everyone* sorry I'm not on here much right now. I've been so busy getting ready for my graduate program to start next week. Sorry to hear that so many of you are struggling. Always here if you need an ear, or shoulder, or hand lol.
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*Hugs Laura*
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Worthless: without worth
Jay:without worth therefore Jay=worthless |
*Hugs Jay* Not Worthless :/
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Hi am Morpheus one of Ella's alters.
Though i would post here and say hi How is everyone doing ? We have to go out soon and go to Ella's mums see how she is doing Will be back later |
Hello Morpheous :) Nice to meet you :)
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Hello Ella and Jay, I don't think we've met. I'm Lia :)
I just wanted to sit in here tonight. It hurts. It just really ****ing hurts, like all of the time. Daily, even if it's not all day. I want it to stop hurting. I hurt and feel empty all the time, does that make sense? And angry. I'm so angry. |
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