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shadowedsoul 06-09-2011 09:04 PM

cuddles everyone, and curls up
sorry mark for not answering back. hope your feeling less weird today. squishes

Doikers 07-09-2011 05:22 AM

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Crimson*

*Hugs Jill*

SoMuchMore 07-09-2011 05:31 AM

*hugs mark* you're up early. you okay?

*hugs jill* how are you feeling now?

*hugs crimson* yeah, it has been really quiet in here. Don't know why... i think everyone is struggling a bit, unfortunately. I hope you are feeling alright. Sorry that you have to start over, but its just a slip up. You can do this! :-)

I'm not good right now. Really fighting my head :-/

shadowedsoul 07-09-2011 02:05 PM

...............................

Doikers 07-09-2011 02:16 PM

I ****ing Hate feeling like this .
Called my Mum , Got told off for spending so much money and that I need to save up to visit Felicia , I SOOOO want to visit her , I am making a stand , No more frivulous spending , no money on games and alcohol , I hate myself sometimes . Also does ANYONE know how to or if I need a VISA to visit the states?, My life is unravelling and so many people are holding me together on and offline . I need to regain control .RIGHT NOW.
ACK! I'm so angry at myself!

PoisonedApple 07-09-2011 07:04 PM

From what I understand you should just need a passport for a short term visit. you would need a temporary visa to get a short term job, go to school or be working on immigrating but for visiting i'm pretty sure it's just a passport you'd need. I can double check..?

YodaBearInterrupted 07-09-2011 07:09 PM

I am really trying not to lose it. Really I am trying. I am really emotionally unstable so bad right now at work, but my coworkers don't know I think. Thanks to my messed up family and others I want to self harm so much. But I can't, cause then there would be questions and I have already been in trouble before. Fudge. Don't know what to do now

*sits in the corner and rocks*

PoisonedApple 07-09-2011 08:57 PM

*sits with Matt* Sorry useless for anything else right now.

YodaBearInterrupted 07-09-2011 09:20 PM

Thanks *hugs back* its okay. I hope it will be all okay. What if its not though?

PoisonedApple 07-09-2011 09:38 PM

we can only try to believe it will be. What's happened?

broken and used 07-09-2011 09:43 PM

Hi,
I guess I'm not sure what to say...I'm a mess and kinda fit the definition of this thread i guess....

PoisonedApple 07-09-2011 09:49 PM

Welcome *hugs if ok* I'm Crimson.

broken and used 07-09-2011 09:49 PM

thanks...hi I'm Jay

Doikers 07-09-2011 09:54 PM

Crimson could you a million check ?, I'm so nervous.

Doikers 07-09-2011 09:55 PM

are hugs okay Jay?

broken and used 07-09-2011 09:56 PM

I'm just fine with virtual hugs....thanks for asking

broken and used 07-09-2011 10:06 PM

So really want to jump out a window right now...pretty low...

PoisonedApple 07-09-2011 10:08 PM

*hugs Jay* Do you know why you're low?
*cuddles Mark* Do you know why you're nervous?
*hugs Matt*

Emo 07-09-2011 10:10 PM

Hi jay * waves*
* waves at everyone*
Hope you all are ok

broken and used 07-09-2011 10:14 PM

not really...i was just listening to some tunes and all of a sudden I'm just sitting here looking out the window....
Hi "Dark Asylum". *waves back*

YodaBearInterrupted 07-09-2011 10:45 PM

*waves at Jay and hugs*

Recently I have become more and more emotionally fragile. I don't take emotional hits very well. I always get run over by family and friends because I can't say no. I am just tired of resisting what the voices tell me to do because its very draining

PoisonedApple 07-09-2011 11:09 PM

*waves at Ella*

Jay, if the music makes you down have you tried other music?

Mark, I'm pretty sure you qualify to visit with only a passport... this is the linky though to the info i was looking at -specific to the uk even:) - hope that makes you less nervous. *hugs*

I totally understand that, Matt. *sits with*

*hugs Matt and Jay*

broken and used 08-09-2011 01:48 AM

Yeah,....I have now...but its already done its job you know?

risenfromperdition 08-09-2011 01:56 AM

*cuddles laura and anyone else who wants*
love you guys <3

Doikers 08-09-2011 09:22 AM

*Hugs Jay*

*Hugs Crimson* I have Never travelled internationally since childhood and never alone.

*Waves to Ella*

*Hugs Matt*

*Hugs Heather*

Doikers 08-09-2011 04:52 PM

I have an update from Oliver , I guess I'll just type out the texts
"I'm not good ,saw the Doctor yesterday and she wasn' happyas I ran away again yesterday and she said if I do it again they will put me on a secure unit. Then I got angrywith her over a different matter and she told me to leave so I did then I was punching walls and she told all the staff to just leave me and not intervene. I've just been lying on my bedever since crying and scared cos now my name isn't on the board with the other patients so I'm scared they are moving me. But no one is telling me anything . Sorry for the ramble"
and
"I know the urge to run away is so strong but I'm trying not too. Trouble is I have shower gel etc in my room and want to do stuff with that just want to die but I'm too scared to talk to the staff cos I'm convinced they all hate me"

I'm sorry I'm not the bearer of better news :(

Doikers 08-09-2011 08:50 PM

Oliver Sends cuddles and says he misses the ward :)

Doikers 08-09-2011 09:02 PM

*Night time hugs my wardies*

PoisonedApple 08-09-2011 09:03 PM

*sends cuddles back* tell him we miss him too!

shadowedsoul 09-09-2011 07:48 AM

curls up small, cant do this today crying my eyes out right now. just really suicidal and extremely low.

Doikers 09-09-2011 09:38 AM

*Hugs Crimson*

*Hugs Jill* What happened hun?

PoisonedApple 09-09-2011 08:15 PM

*hugs Mark and Jill and anyone else wandering around in here*

I'm starting to feel like a yoyo. It's dizzying. I think I actually prefer all being low or all being ok. This up and down and up and down is driving me crazy.

*runs off to write while I'm not feeling thoroughly uninspired* 27750 words btw :) more than half way through my word goal for a month of working on my novel (it's day 21 of 30, goal is 50k words)

Emo 09-09-2011 08:41 PM

Want to cut ...really not so good right now

Louise 09-09-2011 08:43 PM

hugs everyone

PoisonedApple 09-09-2011 08:59 PM

*hugs Louise and sits with Ella*

Wanna talk about it?

Doikers 09-09-2011 09:43 PM

50k word , wow thats a lot but you can do it crimson hun *Hugs*

PoisonedApple 09-09-2011 10:07 PM

Thanks!
I probably could have already if I just didn't get so low periodically that i can hardly think... I've skipped writing 11 days of the 21 so far. :( It helps that I know where I want this part of the story to go and wrote myself out prompts so if I forget what's going on I can look at my notes...
*hugs* How are you tonight?

*update* up to 28882 words.

Doikers 10-09-2011 05:49 PM

Just To Let y'all know , Lindsay is inpatient for her exsema and is thinking of us all :)

broken and used 10-09-2011 08:11 PM

Hi guys....
don't know what to say but...*hugs*

Doikers 11-09-2011 09:11 AM

*Hugs Jay*

Margo 11-09-2011 04:04 PM

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broken and used 11-09-2011 11:31 PM

Gave in today...
feel so worthless..

Doikers 12-09-2011 03:36 AM

*Hugs Jay* You're not worthless hun :)

SoMuchMore 12-09-2011 03:42 AM

*hugs everyone* sorry I'm not on here much right now. I've been so busy getting ready for my graduate program to start next week. Sorry to hear that so many of you are struggling. Always here if you need an ear, or shoulder, or hand lol.

Doikers 12-09-2011 09:43 AM

*Hugs Laura*

broken and used 12-09-2011 09:27 PM

Worthless: without worth
Jay:without worth
therefore Jay=worthless

Doikers 13-09-2011 10:33 AM

*Hugs Jay* Not Worthless :/

Emo 13-09-2011 11:12 AM

Hi am Morpheus one of Ella's alters.
Though i would post here and say hi
How is everyone doing ?
We have to go out soon and go to Ella's mums see how she is doing
Will be back later


Doikers 13-09-2011 01:23 PM

Hello Morpheous :) Nice to meet you :)

FlyingNy 13-09-2011 10:14 PM

Hello Ella and Jay, I don't think we've met. I'm Lia :)

I just wanted to sit in here tonight. It hurts. It just really ****ing hurts, like all of the time. Daily, even if it's not all day. I want it to stop hurting. I hurt and feel empty all the time, does that make sense? And angry. I'm so angry.


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