I'm a waste of breathing space.

It's no problem sweetie, don't forget we're always here and my pm box is always open to you <3

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

*hugs to everyone that needs them*
my brain has decided to run out of words tonight, sorry =[

*hugs to everyone*

Yesterday was horrible... who knows what today'll bring.

Basically my boyfriend told me he wants to be on a break for a couple of years, but not see other people. I made him promise me he wouldn't see anyone else and made the same promise to him. People have said this is unfair, like he owns me but I get nothing good out of it.
Well, the other night, I was ridiculously drunk and ended up sleeping with someone else. I told my boyfriend straight away and he said it was partly his fault for 'breaking up' with me and not sleeeping with me for a long time.
I'm not sure if he's angry, he's probably angry at the guy because he's good mates with him and to be honest, I think he should have known better. He took advantage of me because I was really drunk. Not saying he raped me, but there is no way in hell I would have done that sober.
I've had four baths and still don't feel clean. I can't stop crying, I feel like I've ruined everything. I love my boyfriend so much it hurts.
Even worse, we didn't use protection (I'm on the pill, so pregnancy isn't going to be an issue) but he's been with some real skanks so I reckon I'm gonna have to get myself tested.
Oh this is so horrible. Hugs please? Not that I deserve them.

*cuddles Zowie tightly*

*cuddles Zowie loads*

*cuddles Zowie hard* we all make mistakes honey especially when we're drunk *more hugs*

*hugs Helen* whatsup honey you know my pm box is always open *more hugs* that goes for anyone here

Thank you for the cuddles. Feel awful, just texted my boyfriend to see if he's okay. I hope he is. x

Been increadibly suidical, ill and stressed :wow: Such a loser cus I od'd :blink:

Oh Helen sweetheart. I know just how you feel, I ODd earlier just so I could sleep through the day. Have you taken a lot? Do you need to get yourself checked? x

*snuggles Zowie* I haven't taken a lot, really want to though. I probs do need to get checked. Everytime I've come close to it since my last one (which was pretty big) I've always wondered if I'd get the same effects as I have done when taking this amount before or would it be worse because of that od. I dunno....probs don't need to get checked, I have no idea...

Helen please get yourself checked...
better safe than sorry...
*cuddles*

Nobody would believe me.
Well they would.
I don't know.
I feel my gp doesn't take me very seriously at times :blink:

well then hunni...
maybe it's time to find a new gp?

*Snuggles Helen* Let us know how you're doing? x

To have to explain it all over again would topple me again I think. I don't know. :blink:

*snuggles Zowie* Not doing great cus I'm already ill anyway...so thinkg its just that and my stomach hurts :wow: but might be cus of being a female...and its late again >.<

*hides in a hidey hole*

*joins you in said hole*