*Waves to everyone from quarantine*
Thanks for the hugs and get well messages guys, it really means a lot and makes me feel heaps better :)
Sorry I'm not doing individual replies, can't really manage sitting at the computer much longer, need to curl back up on the sofa. I have read everything that's been going on though and my thoughts are with you all.
I've been taking all sorts of painkillers, flu remedies and cough syrups as well as the Tamiflu and still don't really feel much better. Barely slept at all the last couple of nights because I couldn't stop coughing, and have had a pounding headache for two days straight now. It's an absolute nightmare! My dad and sister are being really helpful though. My little sister, bless her, keeps putting on a nurse costume and asking if I need anything :)
Right - Back to the sofa.
Love you all <3
xxx

i screw up everything that is good in my life. so sorry i dont mean 2.

>__< I'm so sorry he got away with it, but please don't hurt yourself *hugs muchly* pleaaaaaaaaaaaase try and stay as safe as possible

*big hugs*

I hope that you start feeling better soon Arwen.

Please keep yourself safe. I'm sorry that he got away with it but please don't injure yourself as that's just another win for him.

*hugs you tightly*

*hugs Dayna*

*leaves big hugs for everyone*

My physio is unhappy with the swelling and pain in my thumb after having the cast removed. She got the hand specialist to have a look at me. And he wasn't happy either. They've given me this stuff that I have to put on my thumb every day which is kind of difficult to do because it's on my dominant hand. It's supposed to help with the swelling. She said and so did the hand specialist that it could mean annother trip upstairs to fracture clinic if it doesn't settle.

*leaves more hugs for all and bit pats and so forth for Puppy SinClair*

*checks self in again*

Hey everyone. It's been a little while...

I don't think I'm safe right now...

I feel trapped at the moment.

My brother (14 years old) has been in this mental health unit for the last few weeks... he's bipolar and ADHD, or we thought so... the doctors on the coast say they don't think he is... but we know it. He's a manipulative kid and he's smart. He knows how to get what he wants. And right now he wants to be out of there. We've just been told that basically he's a "normal kid with a disability" but that's utter crap. He makes everyone in our house sick, literally. We've been told that he's coming home in two weeks... He hasn't even been taken off all his meds so they know what he's really like... It isn't fair!

My mom is super upset about it, but she's expressing it by being a bitch to me... I can't handle the stress.

I'm trying to work right now as well now, I'm going into grade 11 this year, and I don't have a math class set up because I was going to do it over the summer, and didn't end up doing it because I didn't pass the test to get into the summer course... I'm trying to work and be social with my friends and do all the housework Mom wants me to do and work through my feelings about Chase coming home and not hurt myself at the same time.

My parents are thinking that when Chase gets home they're basically going to send him into foster care if he can't get along with everyone. And I'm going to lose my baby brother.

I'm just sitting here crying my eyes out trying so hard to keep myself here and not go cut again. I've been free for almost 3 months, I don't want to mess up now and prove that I am a failure.

My supposed best friend can't help me because she's got her own stuff to deal with, and I think I'm losing her as a friend anyway, because I'm growing up so quickly, and she's not growing up at all...

This week alone I've thought about suicide at least once a day...

I need help and safety...

*hugs Ashley* That sounds terrible hun. Feel free to cry in here there's always someone around to pass out the tissues.

Thanks Kahlia.
I really need some support right now...
*cries, trying to hold self together*

*hugs Ashley tightly* *passes over a box of tissues*

*offers cuddles* That's so sad, I hope something can be done to help real soon :(

Kahlia, how you doing sweetie?

*takes tissue box and accepts cuddles*
Thank you so much.

That's okay Ashley. I hope the hugs help. *hugs Ashley again*

Helen ~ I'm surviving. Still in pain and still fighting because come hell or high water I'm going to make it to the 25th of August and 1 year SI free. *hugs you*

Wooooooooow :D I know you can make it sweetie, am sooooooooooo proud of you ^_^ I'm nearly two weeks free lol. Hope the pain is better soon :(

Thanks Helen. I'm proud of myself, I never thought I could give SI up. Congratulations on being nearly two weeks free. I hope the pain improves soon too ... It sucks being in pain all the time.

*runs around the ward hugging people at random and waves to Arwen in quarantine*

*hugs everyone (as much for their comfort as for my own)*
I just realised I havent taken my meds. Im waiting for the crash back down to rock bottom. Oh well.

Stupid. Stupid. Stupid.

*hugs Alexx*

thankyou :'(

No worries Alexx - would you like the tissues ? *hugs you tightly*

*sniffle* thankyouuu.
I dont even know whats wrong with me. I have a fake smile pinned to my face because my grandparents are here

*hugs Kahalia back* thank you everyone is down at the moment it seems not just me, which sadly makes me feel less alone *hugs to all on the ward, even zowie in quarantine*

ahh crap, im not doing good again. everthing has truned to ****. just want to hide untill it goes away. crys hits back of head hard againts wall. ****