*huge hugs*

*hugs*

*hugs emma*

Thanks for the hugs and offers of cuddles.

I'm feeling really messed up right now. My hallucinations are getting really lucid .... I can't tell the difference between the hallucinations and real life. I just want to destroy myself. All I can think of is destruction and the many forms that I could take to end my life. The weird thing is that I'm not depressed. I am terrified firstly that I'm going to do something that if I lived through I would seriously regret, and secondly that if my close friends find out exactly how I'm doing they will put in a request for assessment on me and land me in hospital. I don't know what to do.

* curls up in the corner and starts rocking back and forward *

*jumps on Emma and gives her lots of hugs* You know we're here twinny and I'm sorry about this morning :(

*hugs everyone else if they want them*

I'm helpless for advice this morning, but am happy to give hugs and to listen!

Hugs for any and all who want them, I'm not stable enough to deal with triggers right now, but I'm calm enough to offer hugs and thoughts to all of you.

*leaves assorted hugs at everyones feet, or within very easy reach for all who need them or want them.*

hugs everyone.

*sighs and hides in her cupboard and wonders who will worry*

*hides from the creppy man*

*hgs Soph*

I am so so so so angry, upset, worried and sucidical...oh yeah I'm in lots of pain as I threw up and sallowed it, and then was sick yet again tonight:crying:

aww *cuddles lots*

I am dying to cry my heart out and as per ****ing usual I can't. Plus wrote a ranty post in my thread!

*cuddles Soph lots* You okay hunnie?

i'm better now. wasnt so good earlier. have a look at the latest post in my journal if you like.
*cuddles*

I just realised what you mean about that creepy man- jess' thread thing.

I'll go read your journal sweet.

*cuddles*

I have a confession to make. I really really really miss Mand but we're not talking :(

*cuddles* i hope you guys start talking again soon *squishes*

*cuddles* I hope so too, I was probs a bit harsh in my pm, but when you're angry and hurt, you have to say some things to defend yourself.

I'm dying to cry my heart out over everything actually :(

*squishes*

Hi all. * hugs to everyone who wants and needs them *

Got in touch with my doctor and he was concerned. Also managed to worry one of my friends who is currently in hospital. Am having a medication change (read increase) and the pdoc will look at things again on Tuesday. Fingers crossed I start to improve.

On a positive note (because I need all the positives that I can find right now) I managed to complete the uni work that I would normally have done in a practical this morning *finally* this evening.

* lays teddybears at the feet or within reach of everyone who wants something to cuddle up with *

I'm ill :( Got a stomach bug.

*gives you hugs*

Well done on talking to your doctor and getting your uni work done x

*hugs Zowie* Feel better soon x