*hugs* im sorry that you injured. I bet not taking your meds could be making you feel off today... sometimes people just forget though... don't beat yourself up about forgetting, it was an accident. Hopefully, getting back on schedule with them will make you feel better.

I'm... well.. not good, but okay... i won't do anything too bad. Just very overwhelmed and feeling under appreciated at both of my work places... plus my social anxiety stuff is getting worse, always replying situations that have happened throughout the day that nobody even would normally think anything of, but of course, i work myself up into a very embarrassed state. stupid.

That's not stupid Laura , I do the exact same thing , mountain out of a molehill yep all the time . Please try and stay safe , you said "i won't do anything too bad" which sort of implies that you might do SOMETHING so please be careful , I'm a little concerned for you :S

I hate that i do the mountain out of a molehill thing. It makes things so hard, i'm sorry that you struggle with it too :-/ And don't be concerned. I just dont know if I will SI or not. Ive been having battles with myself about the decision. It won't be anything worse than usual though, and i'm always okay. Sorry, i didnt mean to worry you.

Don't be sorry Laura , I know Exactly the battle with myself over S.I. , it's tough *Hugs*

*hugs mark back* while im glad that someone can understand this.. i'm also sorry that you do. Also, i think i kind of hijacked this conversation with stuff about me when you said you were triggered, i didnt mean to... hope you arent upset about that. If you need to vent about anything I am here.

*glomps helen because i spy her*

Helen!*Spots and hugs* How was your day with your friend ?

Laura , I'm not upset with you at all , really , don't worry about it , I don't even know what to vent about I just WAS triggered and it built up all through yesterday and today it was just too much .....

It wasn't just a day Mark, I'm stopping with my bestie til next Monday remember?

*hugs you and Laura*

I'm good, not very well, AGAIN!!!! >_< Hopefully will be improved enough to get out & about tomorrow.

*glomps Laura, Hels, and Mark, 'cause I spy all of you!!* :D

*sighs*

*curls up & hides out of sight, because after all, "out of sight out of mind," right?*

OOh Of course Helen!! :) I hope you have a great time and feel better soon.

*cuddles helen* im sorry that you arent feeling well, i hope that despite that you are having a fantastic time with your bestie!

*hugs mark* ok, i just wanted to make sure you werent upset that i started on in about myself heh. And the build up of stuff can be so hard to deal with sometimes, i can definitely understand that. You can beat those urges though, as can i. Its tough but we can both do it right? :-)

*hugs april* i dont want to keep you out of sight or mind. Are you okay?

*Squishes April* You okay hun?

Yes , We can both do it Laura:)

Out of sight, doesn't always mean out of mind honey :( *cuddles tight* Don't hide. *returns glomp*

I will thanks :)

*cuddles Laura* I am having a fantastic time with the bestie. She is rather amazing after all :woot:

sorry guys feeling crapy again. trying to distract myself, got way too many thoughts running through my head. just want to do something really stuiped. how can i be mad at this person also sad at the same time. sorry heads screwed up again. curls up.

*Hugs Ya Jill*

Feeling crappy at the moment the devil keeps telling me to kill myself
trying to drown them out

*Hugs Ryuu* Thats good that you are trying to drown them out , keep going you don't have to listen to them

*Hugs the ward night night* Stay safe everyone :)

hugs mark back, goodnight stay safe.

G'night Mark, sleep well, pleasant dreams!! *cuddles* <3

I'm... okayish. Dunno, started the day out weird but I'm feeling better now. Heh. But kinda lowish at the same time, I don't know. I just want to lie down again... and yeh... I did lie down today because I was so freaking exhausted, and was also cold - we still don't have heat in the apartment. So I was in a hoodie, sweatpants, and under a sheet and a really warm blanket. Haha. I stayed warm & listened to the radio. :P Didn't really sleep but rested which is almost as good. :)

But the lowish bit... could do without... ugh. :(

*hides again after cuddling everyone some more*