Still no assignments. Only written 12 words. I am nothing but a failure. Charlie is sitll poorly, he hasn't thrown up yet but debating whether to put him into his bed (he's having nightmares so can't move him yet anyway) and go to my bed. Or stay downstairs to keep an eye on him....

Feeling quite **** here. Housemate had to go to hospital today. Had some tests done. ...She's...got cancer. It's early, thank ****, but still :/. It's what killed both her parents. I dunno how I feel, really. She's confident that it'll all be fine, isn't scared/worried/whatever at all. I just feel more...upset, I suppose? She's gotta go to hospital again tomorrow morning, so I'm going with

*hugs Todlich* sorry to hear that hun, I hope your housemate isn't in denial or secretly supressing her fear, hope the trip to the hospital goes okay.

*hugs Helen* whatever you do don't panic it makes everything a whole lot worse, hope th dog feels better this morning

*hugs Lost Girl* you are worth a lot, unfortunately people end up hurting us and we don't understand why, don't stop letting people in, I know it's hard but it's the only way we get anything back.

*hugs everyone feeling low and lonely, hiding in corners or curled up in balls, anyone wanting to cry or to scream or anyone silent or scared*

I didn't get much sleep last night so am a bit tired, but am determined to be positive today. I will care about the people that turn up tonight, not the people who don't. Last day temping moving back in with my parents tomorrow due to lack of funds. So to treat myself I've just reserved to gorgeous baby girl rats I'm picking up tomorrow, am so excited.

*hugs Mammamia* How are the essays coming along this morning? Aim to do them in small chunks and see how you go. Poor charlie, give him cuddles it'll make you both feel better.

*hugs zowie* I hope you had a lovely time with your sister, sounds like fun.

*hugs alliwant* would your friend understand how your feeling? try to be as honest as possible with your cpn and psych.

*hugs wildly insane* i can sympathise with the job applications at the moment, I've been turned down by so many but unfortunatly it's the economy right now you aren't doing anything wrong. Rats sound like fun and a lovely treat!

*hugs lost girl* you're worth more than you think.

*hugs Damnation* your feelings are naturally, going to the hopital with her is really kind.

Things are spiralling downwards, I thought I'd realised but I can't accept it. Ah well revision beckons

I had a nice night. But I became really spaced out, the weird kind where my eyes roll up, and couldn't concentrate. It was really annoying.

The assignments are not going to get handed in, I don't care to be honest, I have to re-take the whole year. Charlie's feeling much better or seems to be. Didn't throw up last night :D So he *should* keep his lunch down today. We don't normally give him any but as he hasn't been eating much (we starved him til 7.30 last night), he gets to have some. Though he does still seem to want to sleep lots....

she does but shes got her own problems. i was in such a hyper today due to lack of sleep and pro plus. my mood is dropping rapidly and i dont want to fight against it i know i should its just hard. just want to run away back to uni. everyone says im looking better but all i can think about is dying :( could do with a hug

*hugs alliwant* maybe sharing them together would help? Have an afternoon nap, it may help your mood.

*hugs Mammamia* is there anyone you could speak to before the deadline to let them know you won't get them in on time?

It's too hot today.

I think I've just about given up

Why do I sleep so much??

right ive come back from uni for the weekend or appointments etc and i find out mum has moved most of her stuff out o the house and into the her fiancee house. and was like yeh i want the house up for sale asap i was like ok then i knew it was happening but it was allways in the future not now. means ive gotta move out of the house ive lived or all my life yes i have extremely bad memories their but that was my house. it all seems to be going at 100 mph i know i am at uni and it wont affect me much apart from holidays. dont get me wrong im glad we are moving but god didn't expect it so quick. my mood is really low and thinking about the future i cant see one for myself. everything is soo hard now even seeing my friends and playing the sports that i love. im panicking and i don't know what to do

I hereby declare 'blah'.

And I want a cigarette. Even though I don't smoke :thumbup:

*hugs cheryl* upheaval is always stressful, not sure what to suggest to you but try to stay calm, sorry im not more help but my head is all over the place
*hugs to anyone else that wants them*

*hugs Mammamia* don't give up, uni wrk won't be forever honey.

*hugs zowie* sleep i good, especially naps. Sometimes your body needs the rest.

*hugs cheryl* I can imagine thats bittersweet, have you spoken to your mum about how you feel about it? hope your appointments went/go ok.

*hugs damnation* blah isn't good, though I do agree today. Its just too hot to do anythin.

*hugs Eclectica* have a lovely week away! And your birhtdya i the day before mine!

I just want to scream right now.

Uni work may not be forever, but life is.

*Hugs back*

Ech, you and me both. Well, with the cravings, anyway. Phantom smoke smell's back =D! So my mind's been like 'getafaggetafaggetafaggetafag' <____<;;;;;;.

You has fun in Bristol with the Blankinator though, yes?

And as for Vetis, do your best to control him. You're better than he is, just you keep remembering that <3

I'm home, and I have decided that I am safe enough to check outta here.
I'll drop by de temps en temps, but I think I'm good to go, for now.

Thanks everyone.
*leaves huggles for all*

:'(

I can't

friday night/early saturday morning hugs for everybody

The evening went well, I was surprised at the number of people that turned up, although was rather stressed at worrying that people weren't enjoying themselves and I couldn't talk to everyone all the time. I'm not the best conversationist so it was difficult to try and keep every one happy. I really hope they had a good night. I did which is good as was really quite worried about it.

Hugs Kat, hope you have fun in Bristol :)

*Hugs Todlich*Hugs Helen*Hugs Secrets*Hugs Arwen*Hugs Shadowedseraph*Hugs Cheryl*Hugs Alliwant*

Sorry I don't have the words right now, I would love to say something to make you all feel better, but I can't, so I can just hope that things get better for you soon, take care, hugs :)

Sounds like you had a good night Han. If you want to talk to Jade, she'll be back in a bit. Fancy chatting on msn though? I'd like to talk to you more :) xxxx