Hi everyone. Want to snuggle under my Hello Kitty fleecey blanket?

*Cuddles up with blanket on sofa*

*Hugs Shattered1* Thank you your very kind :)

*Hugs Megz*

*Waves to angel* I'm sorry your feeling low, if you need to talk we are here for you.

*Hugs Lindsay* How are you?

*Hugs Tiff*

*Hugs Ian*

Thanks Mark :) *Hugs mark back* How are you mate?

Tired Ian , *Hugs*

I'm still here. Just lurking. x

*Squishes MJ*

*hugs all*
*swipes a blankie from Tiff and hides under it*

*waves to everyone*

Feeling any better Atlantica?

Just got back from counseling, guess went alright. I went bye bye for some of it. Just because he was reading my journaling and asking about what I wrote. Yeah, got feeling all small and stuff, When started coming back I SI'ed right there only half aware of it..granted no weapons of any kind of any kind allowed on premises so you can imagine was not bad..but felt stupid none the less. so ended up sitting on hands so wouldn't happen again.

goes and curls up in corner with pillow her blanket trying not to feel like an idiot and trying not to cry.

*Hugs Shattered1*Keep safe hun.

*Huggles Crimson*How are you hun?

I dunno. I feel ok but yet a here but no one home thing going on. Hiding away till it all makes sense. *hugs* how are you today?

Not really Shattered1 but its only a cold il be ok eventually. I trying to not let it get me down but it hasnt really worked. Wow i sound pathetic as usual!

*hugs all who want hugs*

*waves to all others*

Ian you are not pathetic at all.

I have really bad urges to OD again

*Hugs Oliver* I'm sorry your having strong urges to od. Can you try and distract yourself? Maybe do something to keep you busy?

*hugs Ian* i'm trying to distract myself, talking to some people online and listening to the Archers, but still got strogn urges

Oh im sorry oliver :( im here if you need to talk. Your welcome to pm me anytime :)

thanks Ian *hugs*

looks up from her spot in the corner

Sorry you not feeling better yet Atlantica, and no you not sound pathetic...can feel really miserable when have a cold

Oliver sorry to hear you feel like OD'ing

Now that I awake, (I have found the really bad disassociation makes me exhausted and I tend to fall asleep for awhile) I got flashes of stuff going through my head of what happened with ex-boyfriend's when i was a teenager...not good. Not helping

*wraps blanket around herself tighter and starts rocking...gonna put movie in Ironman to try distract myself, but if not work don't know what i gonna do...already have physical symptoms of the urges

Sorry for the long break... hey everyone! I just am feeling like a disappointment and like I shouldn't be here like alive.......... *looks down dejectedly*