Nothing in particular, Kitty. I just feel lonely and worthless and stupid. And it's making me urgey... but I don't even know where these feelings are coming from.

heh
i lonely =[ and feel disgustingly fat and ugly and unloveable and scared bout starting up at a proper uni again and apparently the uni's really homophobic and =\ and just... =s
and deserve to cut =\ just dooooo

Awe, well I definitely don't see you as worthless. And you definitely are not stupid. -hugs felicia-

*fixes felicias car*
:P

-hugs heather- I don't understand how people could be homophobic. Could you possibly go to a uni that is not so homophobic? I know the uni I go to is really accepting. And I'm sure you are not fat, ugly, or unlovable. We all love you here.

i wish i could but its gonna be free as mum teaches there... and cant afford anything else >.<

Awe, I'm sorry. Well, hopefully you will find some non-homophobic people to hang out with and be friends with. -hugs heather-

thankies

Welcome.

hi Rhayven how you be?

heh. ifailatlife >.<

How do you fail at life, Heather?

heh. cuz im weak and ended up cutting >.<
and hope dont gotta go clothes shopping anytime soon >.>
and f*ck have gp appointment next week... frick

-hugs heather- I'm sorry that you ended up cutting. :( Do you need medical attention? Please look after your wound(s). What kind of appointment do you have next week, if you don't mind me asking?

nah its fine. not deep enough ><
and its just to check how meds are working

I hope your appointment goes well.

I think I scared one of my online friends away. Go me. I suck. -sighs-

*Hugs Helen*
*Hugs Kitty*
*Hugs Kahlia*
*Hugs Sarah*
*Hugs Heather*
*Hugs Ian*
*Hugs Felicia*

I'm sorry I was so angry at myself last night guys , thankyou all for your support :)

-hugs mark- How you be?

I'm feeling okay thanks Kitty , if only these urges would go away it would be nice.... How are you Kitty Hun?

*hugs mark*

*hugs heather, kitty, and mark*

*Hugs Heather* How are you ?

*Hugs Laura* How are you?

I'm not doing too well tonight. At all. Sorry. Hope your urges go away. -hugs mark-

-hugs laura- how you be?

*Squishes Kitty Tons*

I've gotten up pretty early an hours nap is in order I think *Hugs Ward*

Thanks Mark.

I just really suck. I don't deserve a baby. I deserve pain. And death. Sorry.

-curls up-

im alright. getting sleepy.. 1:23am here. should go to bed soon. trying to get rid of anxiety so i can relax :-/

*hugs mark* how r u?

*hugs kitty* im sorry you aren't doing well hun. Always around if u need to talk.

*snuggle* you dont deserve pain or anything bad :( you's so nice an caring mhm

*huggles all*

finished the assignment. just got to be proofread and finalised then submitted. :|

-hugs laura- Thanks hun. I don't want to burden you with my problems. Especially when you should be going to bed soon. I don't want to possibly upset you right before bed. I don't want to upset anyone..

-snuggles heather- Thanks, but I don't agree.

I'm sorry. I'm just so low tonight. I found out that I have scared off one of my online friends...a really close one, at that. She used to call me 'auntie' but now she calls me Kitty. She doesn't even get on facebook anymore or messenger. At least, not when I am on. She is in Australia, so the time zone is way different. She might get on later when I am not on. I don't know. But she doesn't talk to me anymore. The only reason I was able to talk to her today was because I logged into the game where I originally met her and saw her on it. Started talking to her. She talked to me a lot different than she used to. Then another "friend" called me a slut.

I try to help people the best I can. But why is it that when I turn to people for help, they turn and walk away? I don't understand. Why do I have to suck so much? I should just die. The world would be such a better place without me.

Kitty, the world wouldn't be a better place without you, and you shouldn't die. Believe me, I know how you feel. My best friend did that to me once. She turned on me and said all sorts of things about how I was an attention seeking bitch, I messed up her life etc. I know how you feel about thinking the world would be better off without you. But it wouldn't. I believe you make it a better place :)

I'm off to school now anyhow. Just thought I'd drop in and say hi before I went.

*huggles everybody*

so over the rain. we got woken up at midnight last night by a freak rain storm. now its raining again. we've had rain and thunderstorms on and off for the last few days. the weather is extremely unpredictable which makes it hard to plan activities.

because of the rain storm we almost slept through having our groceries delivered this morning :( and my housemate almost missed his GP appointment. I have a GP appointment to look at my CT scan of my back to find out if my spine is okay and discuss my suicidal urges and depression :-( really not looking forward to it *sigh*

*leaves hugs and well wishes for all wardies*

Well I over napped , But I got up in time to go out and meet my friend , it's raining :( I am pretty nervous about meeting him , We haven't seen each other in months and months .

Best of luck with your GP Appointment Kahlia *Hugs*

God luck Kahlia and Mark.

*Hugs Lindsay* Thanks Hun , how are you feeling today?
Shaun , My friend only stayed with me for 45 minute counting the time I met him in the cafe and we walked back to my flat , Hmmmm:S

*hugs wardies*

I didn't go college or the dentist today. Mum thinks it's convient I'm ill (feeling sick and bad headache). Meh >.>

Mark, why do you think your friend didn't stay with you longer? How are you feeling?

Helen, i'm sorry you're unwell. Hope you feel better soon.

I'm not too bad so far today but the evening has yet to come.

*Hugs Lindsay* we will be here for you this evening :) I'm sure people will be about.

*hugs Helen* I hope you feel better soon hun :)

Glad you're not too bad so far Lindsay :D

*hugs Mark* Thanks, I hope so too. Am starting to feel better...

*hugs everyone*

*Hugs Louise* How are you Hun?

*hugs Louise*

*hugs mark* I am not great at the moment.

*hugs helen*

Whats the matter Louise?

feeling really low and not sleeping due to things.

Awh I'm sorry you are feeling low , I hate that , Is there anything you can do to make yourself feel better? Like erm.... Take a relaxing bath , Light some candles, Listen to a favourite album watch a favouite sit-com or movie?
Why can't you sleep hun? Try putting lavender oil on your pillow or drinking camomille tea they are supposed to be relaxing .

I hate uni, I just want to cry...

*Hugs Sarah* I'm sorry :( It must be hard to study something you don't reallly want to be doing instead of what you really love. Are there any good points about uni? Maybe it provides a distraction, or is good to get you out of the house. Perhaps you have friends there, is it ever a laugh? List the good things about it. Sorry, I have an annoying 'look on the bright side' trait.

*Hugs Mark* How are you doing?