Hunni-stay as long as you want :)

Hana-*gives you a pillow for when you fall asleep* I hope you start to feel better :(

Thank you :) I'll be fine once I've gotten through tonight and talked to my uni course lecturer tomorrow and gotten everything sorted out.

have a hug. hope you're ok sweetie?

*calms down and offers blankets and hugs round to Alexx, Hunni and Hiceskater. Then settles down in a corner with cushions and my teddy*

*takes the pillow offered, curls up in the corner and starts to suck my thumb*

Thank you for the blanket and hugs. Offers you hugs and a blanket if you want it. Also an ear to listen and unlimited hugs to anyone who needs/wants.

I'm feeling quite lowww again now :-(

*clutches teddy close*

Alexx, what's wrong hun?

*hugs Alexx and all in need*

Last night....I dreamt I was back with my Ex, except in the dream he kept hitting me, but he didnt do that in real life...everyone thought we would last for ages..everyone liked him...but I sabotaged it because i dont deserve anything good...i deserve every cut..every scar...

and now...im alone...and have been for over a year now...and im finding it difficult...I want to feel loved....i want someone to hold me when i cry...someone to make me smile again...someone to call me baby...someone who will make me feel specail and lift me up out of the dark and....*cries*
I dont wanna be alone anymore

hugs you sweetie. You know I believe there's one person for everyone in the world, and you've just got to look for them. Eventually you'll find them sweetie. Seems like you're wanting to hurt yourself is manifesting itself in your dreams because you're not letting it? And it really does suck to be alone sweetie, but it won't be forever.
I'm sorry, I don't know how much of this makes sense. I'm slightly drunk right now.

*hugs* You'll find someone, sweetie. Seriously. You will find someone who will treat you like a princess. It just takes a while to find one worth having.

I want to cry, but I can't...

Sup carole? I'm around if you wanna chat, just let me know

wow..that was odd :blink:

whats up Carole?:(

what was odd alexx?

i feel scared and lost...not sure why

*clutches teddy even closer*

Well...my mum keeps checking my arms for cuts....and I hate cutting anywhere else...but its odd how much a pinprick bleeds...

I feel comfortably numb right now...

I'm here with you Carole...you arent lost hun...I've found you and you're safe in here...*hugs tight*

I should sleep...I want to sleep...but I'm scared of leaving here....I'm scared I'll fall out....I wish the Denial Tent was real :crying:

*snuggles Carole and Alexx*
Alexx, your mom checks your arms?!?! :blink: oh hunni that sucks

Carole what's up hun? *huggles*

Me? I'm drinking... Again. Four shots of rum down, working on some sickningly sweet liquore... Got some wine coolers maybe I'll switch to... Hmmm

Yeah...any time she likes....she just demands to see my arms...so i have to roll my sleeves up to the elbow...last time i said no i got a slap. But my new way works just fine.

You guys dont need this right now...but im really scared...I have all sorts of ideas..plans...I could...just take some sleeping pills....ive already taken my meds...but i want to take more....

Thank you *hugs Alexx tightly*
I'm sorry your mum keeps checking your arms. I know how humiliating that is.

*hugs Ally*
It's not the best thing for you to be doing hun. But you know that. Just take care. How was church?

I'm being haunted by things and my niavity has partially returned. Scared of things repeatung themselves and of new possibilities. Not liking this.

Alexx, please don't. Try to stay as far away from them as you physically can. You don't have to do it. Stay here, chat and play *huggles*

I dont want to hurt anymore...Im tired of it...theres no release anymore..

Awww *snuggles Alexx and Carole*

Alexx I'm sorry your mom is being so awful about this. I made my mom cry (by refusing to talk about it) but now she respects my decision when I tell her I don't want to talk about it.

Carole, I'm sorry you're in such a spot :-( Remember, we're all nieve at some point about some things *hugs* I wish there were more I could give you

As for me and my alcohol... *shrug* c'est la vie