*hides face in corner and cries*

I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell...

This is sooo stupid... every other day is like hell, and the days in between are just... blank...

So I am still alive, don't know whether that's a "thankfully" or not...
but despite being ready to do myself in on Wednesday... I'm still here...
I don't know why...
I'm so tired of fighting......

feelin like I'm headed for a breakdown...

I feel so dead inside.
I only feel alive when I'm singing or when I'm with Brittany,
and I can't always sing, and I certainly can't be with Brittany all the time...

*sigh*
I just want to give up.

*looks after Gil*

Some people just aren't happy unless they have something to whine about :3nod:

Goddamn, I'm so tired today. I actually got some sleep last night (three hours, but that's better than nothing), and then went back to bed later, once my housemate had come back, and it hasn't made the slightest bit of difference :/

Triggered to cut and OD again. And I'm alone, I hasten to add. Ugh. I don't know why I bother saying all this; I never have the balls to actually kill myself

Lol Sorry. I get a lot of people say to me "oh you are interested in IT that means you play a lot of computer games". It's become a bit of a ... whatever the right word is ... annoyance because there is a lot more to IT than just gaming. Oh and half the people at my old university were really only into gaming. Sorry for running screaming. *hangs head in shame*

Thanks Hells He's ok - he tried phoning me at half 2 this morning but i was sleeping!!


*hugs to Everyone*

Aw I'm glad he's okay sweetie :)

I... just... feel... so... empty.

*hides in the corner shaking and starts to cry*

It hurts.

*cuddles those in the psych ward*

Hope u guys feel better soon xx

*cuddles Jem*

*leaves hugs for anyone who wants and or needs them*

*cuddles Jem & Kahlia*

How are you both?

I'm surviving thanks Helen. Coming back up a little from the "hole". That's why my GP refers to my depressed state as. Also not as tired as I was yesterday yet which is good - and I spent most of today awake. I'm up a little bit but definitely not manic and not rapid-cycling both of which is good news. Sorry, shouldn't talk about myself so much. How are you?

*offers hugs to everyone*
*walks to all the hidden corners of the ward and the "hidden" places like the denial tent to check on everyone and offer them hugs*
*leaves behind a pile of cushions and some treats for Puppy SinClair*

*Sets up camp in the denial tent*

Hi everyone,

Sorry I've been MIA for a bit, work is crazy just now and I don't want to look at a computer when I get home.

Nevertheless you are all in my thoughts
*hugs everyone tight*

my news - had my first date last night!!!!!!!
told him all about my mental issues and SI and he was very good about it (none of the you can't do that stuff I normally get from people)

*leaves hugs*

x

That's really nice to hear Mary Anne :) x

@__@

And yay Mary-Anne!

Kahlia, I'm glad you're doing a litter better. I'm struggling but having to hide it completlyat the moment. Fun times. For past few days my mum been really nice to me, which means she's more worried about me than usual. But...I think that's settling down, as she doesn't know my state of mind but it's worried about it I bet....Also it seems everywhere has stopped selling the only painkillers I can take, well ok, it's not the ONLY one, but I prefer to not have one type which lots of types have...

Arwen, you okay? Welcome back to the denial tent ;)

Mary Anne, that's great news sweetie *cuddles*

Dayna *massive cuddles* What's up?

*Big cuddles back* Spaaaaaceyyyyy