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hello ~Buttons~
*goes back to hiding*

*wraps arms around knees*

Cousin update: she was released today (woo-hoo), still has quite the headache... Bad news: she went home with her mother :pinch:. The same mother that just six months ago kicked both her and her older sister out and told their grandmother she didn't want any information about them, she didn't need it. My Aunt (her grandma) is a mess... A lot of the family is. This is not a good environment for her. Her mother was the bad influence responsible for the mess this childs life has become... She doesn't want the girls, never did. She used them to get back at their dad when he was alive and to hurt my Aunt... Her older sister (who is of age and so doesn't have to stay where she doesn't want) is going with her for a few days to make sure she is ok and will then return to her grandparents house. That news did help my Aunt some. Still,it is a rather sober group right about now... This was not in the best interests of the child :crying: and she's our baby (16, but still ours)...

*huggs knees and stares vacantly at the floor*

I can't call the hospital, she doesn't live anywhere near to me :(

*checks in*
never ever ever ever EVER....
let me leave ok?
*panics*

what are you panicking about sweetheart?

I cant leave..
Im scaring myself..
I'm gonna do something stupid..
no ones in...
I'll die alone...
no one will know...

*squishes Alex, talk to me on msn hunnie*

My friend is losing her baby, the only chance of it living would be a miracle.

This week really is going wonderfully.....NOT

i dunno what to say though :(
I wanna hideeeeee

This isn't fair =[

aww Alexx honey you can always call a crisis line
or ring ur therapist and ask for an emergency appt with somebody else at the practice?
please be safe and call somebody hun
you dont have to be alone
*squishes Helen* hope you are okay love
aww Alyssa i am sorry to hear that your cousin's mum is such a bitch
but at least she is well and okay and out of the hosp now
*waves to Buttons and Jeremy*
hugs to all
*goes to camp out in Denial Tent*
so nervous about therapy again tomorrow and i feel bad that i havent told work i will need an extra long lunch oops

*hugs Ally, ~Buttons~, Jeremy and Reason[to]believe*

Hope you are all alright.

Ally, I am glad to hear that your cousin's ok and been discharged. I am also sorry to hear that things are not working out in her best interests. Is there nothing anyone can do to improve her lot?

Heya everyone,

I hope your all doing ok, sorry i haven't been around today i haven't been feeling to great, i still don't feel 100% but i'm here if any of you need to talk.
*hugs all round* xxx

*sobs*

It isn't fair.

*hides because feels ignored and misses Em* :(

Feeling really down at the moment.
Worrying all the time. Not feeling safe.
Want to harm myself

:blue:

*hugs blueman and offers him a hot chocolate*

What are you worrying about hun?
Hope you are able to keep yourself safe.

*squishes Emma and Nathan and Helen and Alexx*
everything seems to fall apart at once, doesn't it?
Helen hun you arent being ignored sweetie. what isn't fair?
Emma i'm sorry you still feel bad
Nathan sweetie what are you worried about? i'm sorry you feel unsafe. is there somebody around you can talk to? your wife?
Alexx honey how are you doing now?
*paces around Denial Tent* arghh i feel so like wound up

i still haven't done any work. for like 2 weeks. and im getting so behind. crap crap crap. i have exams just after easter.
and i havent emailed my counsellor telling her how im distracting myself, cos im not actively doing anything, im just.....lethargic. and sinking further into self hatred. and i think theres something wrong with me as well, i dont feel right. i think i should go to the doctor. yay more effort. i really cant be fvcked to do anything. sorry im being self absorbed. callie why are you wound up?

*hugs Chloe*
come rest up in the Denial Tent and its magical powers will give you the courage to call your doc
i think you are right hun you need to see your doc and get better before you sink anymore
you can catch up with your coursework, just do a little at a time
yeah i have no idea why i am so anxious right now
actually i probably do
i am wicked nervous about my appt tomorrow and i feel really bad for not telling work earlier and having to take like an extra hour for lunch to make it
i think i have to lie and pretend i am getting my car fixed or something. i will say i got a flat tire? lol i dunno

*hugs everyone*

Ally, I am glad your cousin has been discharged from hospital and hopefully the situation with her living location will sort itself out soon. I am sorry I have no advise but I'm thinking of you x

*hugs Callie* what's up hun? Is it about your appointment? x

*hugs Alexx* Stay strong hun, and try to keep safe! x

Hey Blueman, sorry you are struggling at the moment, do you want to talk about it?

*hugs Lil-princess again*

Effervesence (sorry, I have forgotten your name d'oh!) *hugs you*- it is ok to be self absorbed sometimes hun, don't be too hard on yourself. I think going to the Doctor may be a good idea and maybe talking to your personal tutor if you have one? They might be able to give you some sort of lee way with exams and essays etc? Take care x

I have PM'd you Helen *hugs*

*hugs and apologies for anyone I have forgotten*