*Nabs a handful of popcorn* Yum :)

Yeah! Cor Mark, I can't believe you've never seen Finding Nemo! *Curls up on the sofa/wherever we are sitting beside the others and nicks some popcorn*

Wow, we're childish.

I know what it's like Laura, but I also know how you can want so much to talk, but you feel you're not worth it, you don't want to burden others and you don't matter enough. You just can't bring yourself to say anything because you're so scared people are going to see you differently and if you dare to tell anyone anything, it's no longer under your control and everything's spiralling away from you. So you wear a mask. You plaster on a smile and pretend like everything's just fine fine fine, because if people knew the real you, they'd hate you as much as you hate yourself.

Eventualy though, they decide you're a hard hearted stone faced, uncaring cow and hate you anyway.

*Hugs Lia* I don't hate you , never will :)
Also.....
It's okay to talk even if others are struggling , you're NOT burdening people at all .

I know you are not hard-hearted Lia... none of us in here think that. *hugs* I can really related to what you said there though. Except a huge part for me is that I don't want to screw people up with my whining. Someday i hope there is no need for you to wear a mask b/c you deserve better than that.

*watches nemo for a little bit before class*

You're alright Owen ;) It's the rest of us who need to go back to primary school. I am 16 years old. Mark is 30. This is bad guys ;)

And thank-you Mark :)

That's a part of it for me too Laura, there's so many reasons which is why I can never define it to people, plus, defining it would mean taking off the mask ;) The same I goes for you too though. You deserve better because I know what a lonely existance this is.

Ah, I hope I never grow up :)

*huggles all and waves at Owen*

Got my psychiatrist appointment this afternoon. Yay // sarcasm intended
No sleep last night and deep depression and massive anxiety. Woot
*sigh*

*hugs lia, mark, and felicia*
*bakes some yummy cookies for owen and everyone else*

sorry guys. i don't know if i can make it through any of this. Another 2 weeks of no SI down the drain. Currently wishing some things i've tried in the past had worked. Wouldn't have to be here now.

EDIT: *hugs kahlia* aw im sorry you didn't get any sleep hun. I hope you psychiatrist appointment goes okay. Can you tell him about what is going on lately? Maybe he/she? will be able to help.

Wow i just realized this took me 15 minutes to type.

*hugs ward*

Have I done something to upset everyone? :S

sorry helen. i didnt mean to miss you earlier, i just kinda jumped in and never caught up with people from before. My bad. Sorry again. *cuddles*

Thanks Mark :) Hey everyone :) anyone around? Hows everyone?

Don't worry about it Laura, everyone's ignored my posts today. Hence me asking if I've upset everyone. *cuddles*

Ian, I'm around?

Hey *Cuddles Helen* how are you?

Oh thank you Mark :) I like butterflies!!

*cuddles Ian* I'm okay, feeling bit sad & really tired though. How you doing?

*Cuddles Helen* I'm ok i guess. Just made a cup of tea!

Oh cup of tea, nice, I'm just sipping on one too :) Heh.

Hi Helen!! :D