ooh distraction, where and when are you going to america then 1ofmany? Lets try and think about something positive....

thanks for hollering....I was wondering if i'd be safer in there but I don't want to get in your way if you need the space and stuff.....I'll get back to you once half seven has been and gone and see how I'm feeling then.

In october! We are already preparing (its with some people from my martial arts group) its going to be fun but training is hard.
I am going to partner lots of people for self defence routines (i attack and they do a technique but its done to look "real") i partnered three in the europene tournement and 2 got golds! I just like jumping and spinning and flipping around :P

cool, sounds good. I did Karate when i was little....well not that little, about 10 or 11, but then my physical health problems became too much and I had to give up. It was good at getting out frustration.
Anyway, sounds good to combine travelling with an activity that you enjoy and are obviously very good at. Go you!

*is amazed at self for actually sounding normal for a brief moment*

6minutes......
*stares at phone*

hmmm, just seen my clock is different to the clock when posting....so 9minutes? *goes back to staring at phone*

*offers hugs while ur waitng*
sorry not postin much.. stuff in my head

do you wanna talk about stuff in your head? it might make the time pass quicker for me? Though you'll have to excuse me if i don't reply promptly just incase the phone does ring.

Nah i am just good and being thrown around. This will be the first time i actulay compete and i am very nervous as its a world tourniment on an anaversary year!:blink:

same old stuff in my head just trying to get me to do things i shouldnt. same old. same old. same old. if he doesnt ring he might ring tomorrow, it doesnt mean anything, they might just not be able to cos of where they are staying or something.

ahh, well when I used to act and teach drama, I always used to say that nerves in that type of situation are good, its your adrenaline pupming and will make you perfom better, so its ok to be a bit nervous, I'm sure it'll be a great experience though no matter the outcome of the torniment.....though its always extra nice to be recognised and rewarded for your efforts.

the only other time that we went this long without contact was because he was "dug in" for 3 days under constant enemy fire and was awaiting air support. He said he'd had bullets whizz pass his head and then was "danger close" when they dropped the bombs. So now my mind is racing and imagining all the horrid things that he's going through....I just want to know that he's back at his fob where he is slightly more safe.

yeh...but i think i am most looking forward to shopping and just having a laugh with the other :P i hope i will be ok for the trip...

*cookies all round*

:crying: phones not rung, not got a text, nothing, I'm gutted and worried and all other crazy mixture of emotions....i've got goosebumps....
*goes out to smoking shelter yet again*

lotso assorted hugs and comfort blankets
i cant stay online right now i need to go be safe elswhere sorry

I'm sorry horizon surfer that i couldn't help you stay safe, i hope I'm not too draining on anyone. I really am sorry guys, I just didn't know where else to turn.

:crying: thanks, that made me cry, so glad your shirt will dry. I'm so fed up of crying today, I'm so scared to move away from this computer again incase I cut cos I know i'll only feel better for a little while if I do.

sorry hayley youre not draining or anything i just strugglign atm to *hugs all round* i hope you can feel better soon.
thankyou mors certa and you can have the hugs anytime theyre not mine really theyre anyones. i want a dark soft room at normal termpearate and wish it existed sorry

*does some one handed cartwheals then tries an elbows one and fails* damn need more practise.

If mors certa runs out of shoulders i am hear to be leand on too (no more cartwheals tonight!).
*holds out a box of super soft slightly scented tissues*

*Locks the cuboard and tries to swallow the key...changes mind and throws it in the lack that convinantly appeard out the window*

yes my mind is random i use the portal to get here so wouldnt know about valet!