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shadow13 14-01-2011 01:28 AM

*sits and rocks back and forth in the corner, singing quietly* 'Am I dieing inside? All my memories leaving me... All my pain flooding. Before. My Eyes. Are you leaving me? Giving up? Losing faith? All your pain. Scattered. To. The wind. YOU gave up! Now I feel I'm about to, you left me - In this recovery; all ALONE!'

I just wrote this. A lot has been on my mind lately. My recovery partner - who was free for a year - couldn't handle it anymore and decided to... Y'know... She showed them me and I'd already been having a LOT of trouble with the urges and now... Now I want to give up too. I'm over 3 months into my recovery but I don't care. Not anymore. My arm is aching, I feel like clawing at it. My nails are long enough to do some damage but I'm so DAMNED conficted about it.

AND on top of all that, I have the flu, my head is spinning and my fever raging. Help.

PsychoKitty2010 14-01-2011 01:33 AM

-hugs shadow if ok- I don't really know what to say to help. I'm useless right now. In fact, I'm always useless. But you can message me if you'd like. I checked out your profile (not in a creepy way) and noticed you have msn messenger. I do too. You can add me and we can chat if you'd like..

sdixon 14-01-2011 01:34 AM


PsychoKitty2010 14-01-2011 01:38 AM

-waves to shannon- hi...how you be?

sdixon 14-01-2011 01:44 AM

*hugs kitty* Not the best, not well at all really. How are you?

PsychoKitty2010 14-01-2011 01:56 AM

I'm not doing well at all, either. -hugs- Sorry you are struggling as well.

ljmeep 14-01-2011 02:16 AM

*walks in and curls up in a ball in the corner*

PsychoKitty2010 14-01-2011 02:23 AM

-hugs kelly- you ok?

ljmeep 14-01-2011 02:28 AM

not really.. rough evening/night... hubby and i got into it :(

PsychoKitty2010 14-01-2011 02:32 AM

I'm sorry. :( I wish I knew what to say to make it better. -hugs kelly-

ljmeep 14-01-2011 02:36 AM

-hugs back- it's ok... he's just bein an ass... kinda used to it by now ...

I SIed and it took the pain away, but now i'm just numb and kind spacey :/

PsychoKitty2010 14-01-2011 02:47 AM

I'm sorry. :( -offers protective teddy-

PsychoKitty2010 14-01-2011 03:48 AM

Anyone here?

Disturbia 14-01-2011 03:57 AM

Am here .... how are you ?

PsychoKitty2010 14-01-2011 03:59 AM

Not doing well. Like, at all. Have a plan and the tools. Lied to my counselor today. Feel horrible. Sorry.

How are you?

Disturbia 14-01-2011 04:15 AM

Sorry you aren't feeling good... i can understand how you feel i feel the same at the moment .
Planing on doing something to myself as soon as i can eg. when my husband is out the house and my none of my nieces or nephew are around.( the some times come up at the weekends )

PsychoKitty2010 14-01-2011 04:21 AM

Something temporary or...?

I know we don't know each other that well, but I do care. I care about others more than I care about myself. I would be upset if anything happened to you...especially since I am here now. I can't really say anything to make it better because I am in the same boat. :(

Disturbia 14-01-2011 04:26 AM

Something permanent .... just have to sort a few things out first
Thanks for caring ...it means a lot ...i care about you too

PsychoKitty2010 14-01-2011 04:38 AM

Can you talk to someone, or go to the hospital...?

Disturbia 14-01-2011 04:43 AM

I can call a crisis line and talk to some one there ...i cant go to the hospital because i have my nephew over this weekend and am safe until Sunday when my husband takes my nephew back home.

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