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Hi Laura, *hugs back* Thanks! I'm havin a hard time too. Sorry I'm not more chipper for our first meetin.
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*hugs nicole* its alright :-) I go back in 11 days. I'm going to try to stay busy though b/c if i don't things are going to get rough for me... I just hate my family's little nitpicking of things and its always loud here.. which sounds stupid i know, but everyone is always yelling about something.
And yes that makes sense, but you know that urges might go away on their own over the course of minutes-hours. I dont think you should SI. The fact that you made this goal in the first place shows how strong you are and how strong you want to be, and if you can go into this beating an urge then I think thats a great starting point! (I hope that none of this sounds condescending, that is truly not my intention, sorry if it has) *hugs solo* Its alright, i'm not extremely chipper either right now. Sorry that you are having a hard time. Here if you need to talk. *spies felicia and hugs tight* |
hi all *hugs*
I feel so un-motivated, although waiting with baited breathe for the 60th anniversary year episode of the Archers, in 15 mins, apparently something is going to happen which will change it for years to come, usually the most exciting thing that happens is that hay gets stolen. |
*Hugs Laura* Glad it's not too long till you get to go back (although I understand that it probably feels like it) And don't worry, my familys the same, and i'm stuck with them for another year and a half at the least :/
And no, that doesn't sound condescending. I know I shouldn't cut, I just wish these urges weren't so strong :( |
*hugs everyone*
I still feel like I have to overdose and I can't get away from it. I have to overdose to make the feeling go away. It will be a horrible experience but good at the same time. |
Lindsey please don't overdose. I know that feeling far to well, but overdosing won't make it btter in the long run, please stay safe *big hugs*
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I don't know what else to do, i'm so desperate. I'll regret it if I don't go through with it.
How are you, Oliver? |
*Hugs Lindsay*
*Hugs Oliver* *Hugs Nicole* *Hugs Solo* *Hugs Laura* I thought he ward could use some hugs :) |
*Hugs Mark* Yeah, we probably could, thanks Mark :)
i'm so friggen cold! but the urges are starting to go because the cold is painful, so I suppose thats something.... |
Thanks Mark! I need lots of em today! *hugs back*
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*Hugs Mark, Elaine, Nicole, Lindsey, Oliver and Laura*
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*Hugs Lia* Hey :) How are you feeling?
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Slightly ill. I have a headache and I'm sooo tired. I don't know.
How's everyone else? |
*Hugs Lia* How are you tonight?
Sorry, typing at the same time. Do you wanna chat hun? |
I have a headache too. In fact, I'm pretty sure my head's gonna explode!
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Hey Nicole and Elaine :) I now have a paracetomol lodged in my throat. Great.
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No Problem Lia, I'll do the himelick on ya!
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*Pats Lia on the back to dislodge the pill*
*puts on burning lavender oil to relax everyone* |
Ya ready? We'll shoot that thing right outta there! Just be careful where ya aim, depending on wether you want to hit someone or not.
Thanks Mark! The lavender oil is nice. |
Lol, cheers guys, my pill is now gone. I could breathe and stuff, it was just annoying. It just took me four attempts to type 'stuff'.
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-walks into the main ward- hi everyone
-hugs mark and spots lia and hugs her too and solo and anyone else that would like a hug and waves to everyone else- |
hugs everybody, curls up in a corner
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*Hugs Kitty* How're you?
*Hugs Jill* Are you okay hun? |
-hugs jill- hi. you okies?
I'm ok I suppose, Mark. Numb though. But not triggered or anything at the moment so that's good. Just kinda here I guess. -smiles- How you be? |
Well I'm Triggered , and in a position were I MAY not get caught (Upstairs at my parents) but then again I MAY get caught , I may bleed onto bed linen in my sleep a little . I am conflicted , I want to but I don't *Sigh* I'm getting tired :S
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hugs mark and kitty back
feeeling really low tonight, want to hurt so badly, just want it to end. sorry |
-snuggles and squishes mark- I'm sorry you are so triggered. I hope you can make it through the night without SI'ing. But if you can't, please be sure to look after and take good care of your wound(s). -hands mark a protective teddy-
I'm sorry you feel that way, jill. Don't be sorry, though. There's nothing to apologize for hun. -hugs again- Is there anything I can do to help? Anything you can do that would distract you and/or make you feel better? |
thanks kitty, just trying to keep myself busy on facebook. i really wish my mum and dad would hurry up and get home, i almost went ahead with a plan of mine. cries
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Thanks Kitty for the protective teddy :) *Takes and puts beside him on his bed*
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-hugs jill- can you call your mom and dad?
Edit: No problem mark -smiles and hugs mark and sits next to him and puts another protective teddy in front of him- there now you are protected all around. -smiles- |
Heee Thanks Kitty :)
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Hey guys, feeling really low today. Endoscopy went well but I accidentally came off my meds and I feel awful. I just want to curl up and cry. Being called fat whilst everyone eats chippy food and I'm being told I'm not allowed any because I'm too fat. ¬_¬ And they're making me go on a run to the chinese for my sister later. :/ Hope you all had a good new year x
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*hugs Sarah*
I have a headache. gr. |
-hugs Sarah- Sorry you are so low, love. Your family sounds awfully mean. Can you get away from them? Also about the meds...can you take them (the recommended dose) now?
No problem Mark. Here if you need me. That goes for everyone. -smiles- |
-hugs and squishes felicia and rubs her temples to make her headache go away- I'm sorry you have a headache.
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hum and dad are home now, feel a little bit safer. even if i wanted to do something now i cant. curls up
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I got emergency meds from a local doctor to last me until Thursday, I was just real ill yesterday but as soon as I took one I was fine.
Not yet, going out for about an hour soon. My sister is going on about my weight, but she told me she was drinking all new years eve and asked me not to tell my mum. Now she's being really cruel and I don't know if not telling my mum is right or not. :( |
*Hugs Sarah* I'm glad the endoscopy went okay but am sorry your family is being mean to you :(
*Night time hugs my Wardies* |
-hugs mark goodnight- Night night Mark. Be safe.
-snuggles sarah- I'm sorry. You could come hang out with me but you are a tad bit far away. :( Wish there was something I could do to help hun. -hugs jill- Good that you are safe now. Is there anyone you can call and talk to or text or anything? Someone who knows and understands and can help you feel better? |
*pops into ward and plops on couch* just taking a small break before I get back to cleaning... I'm currently shaving soap to make home made laundry soap (a first for me o.O) ... I'm going green and saving money at the same time... lol (call it the inspiration of being totally broke)... lol
What'd I miss today? How is everyone? |
hugs kitty, nope dont have anyone i can talk to. not anyone i wouldn't worry if i told them how i was feeling.
hugs kelly, how are you today? |
I'm sorry, Jill.
-hugs kelly- how you be? |
hugs kitty, its okay, no sorry needed. hugs again
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-hugs jill- I just wish there was somethin I could do or say that would help you feel better.
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Laura! Solo!
-spots laura and solo and tackles and hugs them- how you be? |
Havin a rough day Kitty, but that your tacklin hug made me smile. Thanks! *tackles n hugs ya back*
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I'm doing ok. Actually feeling pretty damn energized... so I've finished shaving soap to make laundry soap and now I'm off to scrub permenate marker off my kids' wall. Then I have more dishes to do... more laundry and so on... lol
*hugs all her wardies* Well I'm off again... I'll pop in again soon :) sorry you're struggling, Solo... I'll say a little prayer for you. |
*Hugs everyone* That's all I seem to be doing today. Sozzle.
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That's ok Lia. We appreciate your hugs!
Thanks Kelly! I could really use it! I'm glad you're energized. |
RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWR RRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!
I was in an ok mood. My niece went and ruined it for me. She called me dumb. Might sound pathetic but it's extremely disrespectful for someone to call anyone dumb, let alone your aunt. I just gave her a nice gift for xmas too. Wtf! -smacks her head against the wall- Now thanks to her I am not ok. I am so pissed off and upset and anxious now. I am far from ok thanks to her. -scoots self into corner and glares off into the distance- I should just become non existent.. |
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