*hugs Newlife* its oh hon, is there anything we can do?

*checks in and grabs a blanket*

*sighs* Things have been tough and I want to see my friends but nobody seems to want to see me, I wanna be on my hols already!!! *wraps self in blanket*. Have had a BAD headache today :(

*hugs Dance!dance!4eva and hands her some aspirin to quell the headache*
Are you okay hun?

Thanks hun =) *hugs back*. I think I'm ok but I dunno, just feeling a range of emotions. I'm fed up with this headahce, had it for about 12 hours or so now. Happy, just in general. Tired because my sleeping is madness at the moment & its almost 2AM. Annoyed I missed the start of a repeated program. Excited about going on holiday & seeing someone. Bit sad that my friend who says she'll meet me, keeps failing me at the last moment. Stressed with all these emotions & trying to relax after some rough few months & on account of it being summer hols. God I wish I was in Wales now *well sometimes*. Confusing eh? How about you?

i'm very sorry for everything but at the moment im finding everything very hard-i'd like to apologise for being a burden on everyone and im very very sorry

i hope everyone is ok

*curls up*

Urgh.

*Hates being alive*

*hugs charcoalchild* want to talk about it hun?

*offers Jo a blanket and wraps her up* you aren't a burden, you don't need to apologise for anything. How are things today?

Hope you got a decent amount of sleep Dance!4eva. It does sound confusing with all those emotions flying around!

thanks-i just feel that is all i'll ever be to anybody

i feel kind of odd today

you ok?

*hugs anyone who needs it*

hugs help

Well I went offline after 5am, eventually fell asleep & then didn't wake up til 3.30pm woooooooooooops :blush:

*checks is*

ARRRRRGGGG

My BF WAS cheating on me
I've lost my place at college
And i dont know if my work can keep me on

plus after all this ****ing time
i give up and i ****ing SI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

*hugs you so tightly, not good any of that :( *

kisses and hugs 2 everyone because we can xxxx

*hugs everyone*

i want to curl up and cry but i cant

i feel so odd

i dont like this feeling

*sobs*

I feel ok today but feel like I should be happier or something hmmm.

i feel so ill

i need someone to hurt me-im in need of someone physically hurting me at the moment-i cant do it so...

im very sorry

feeling very triggered and being ill doesnt help

im very sorry

head is hurting so much

*curls up in a ball*

*hugs Newlife*

My headache has returned, big style

i'm really sorry-i think the counsellor is trying to contact me-i dont want to answer my phone

im so scared

how is everyone

sorry

hey everyone. Just checking in right now. Sorry for my lack of activity, I've been veeeery busy. I'm around now... so, yea.

Hey tierra, how you doin? Hugzzzz for you and everyone who needs and wants

Im pretty crap. I have to go out tomorrow.. pets need food and i have to go to pet store to buy it.. im scared i'll have a panic attack..
saw the guy who used to abuse me in town yest.. now im seeing him everywhere (even though he isnt reely there..)

eeksa need help.

how is everyone doing?

someone hurt me please someone hit me hard someone kill me

im in such a rubbish place im so worthless

i wish i was dead

id be better off dead

im a waste of space

*curls up*

*hugs Jo* You are not worthless hun!

i am worthless

i cant cope with everyday life

im sorry

i want someone to hurt me physically-its all i deserve

Just because you are struggling at the moment doesn't mean that you are worthless. If that were true, we wouldn't be here to speak with you.
What's causing you problems atm hun? x

i cant cope with life too many things going on and the sudden realisation tha my relationship might be rubbish


im very sorry

*curls up* I miss my dad and normally when we know he wont be coming home, I dont usually care hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

Could I get some hugs or something? Not feeling too good at the moment. Sorry I haven't been around for a while

*hugs hiceskater*

I'm gonna be busy tommorw and i'll be camping until next sunday, so sorry that I won't be around people :(

*sits*
*stares into space*

*hugs all those in need*
Hope you are all doing ok.

Just checking myself out, holiday should be enough to give me the boost I need.

*hugs people*

i dont know what the hell is wrong with me

Guh *hugs everyone* I'm going on hols so will check in next on thurs =)

Checks in.
Thinks of all the self destructive things she can do to herself.

I honestly think that i am dying.

My head is - just broked.

ive been feeling so down. i just want to smash every bone in my body so i dont have to put up with every day life. i have been having flashbacks of anthony again. its like his face is on some random guy, and ill just stop and i cant breathe because im so scared hes coming to get me again. its kinda dumb cause he lives like 12 hours drive away, but it seems so real. ill be somewhere totally safe and quiet, and ill have this sudden urge to slash my skin till theres none left. im so scared ill cut again and i want to but i really really dont at the same time. i need to be gone for a while if you know what i mean...
i wish i could do it and have it all be over

hey just checking i am feeling like i am going to break down

*hugs everyone and offers blankets etc*


i need to hide

hey new life do you need a hug *steals blanket*

yeah please

you can have a blanket its ok

*hugs* o you want to talk bout your problems

no ill be ok *hugs back*

im sorry-you ok?

*curls up*

*runs to the bathroom and vomits*
Sorry...too drunk...bad counseling session...very drunk...feel like ****...
*grabs basin and blanket and cuddles up in the corner and sobs*
Sorry...so sorry...

*throws self in to psych ward head first* wow it was lucky i knew where that mattress was lol

dont try to hurt yourself

*curls up and hides*

why does stuff feel bad

just all the world doesnt want me to follow my dream and its the only thing i do well *sits on the matress* sorry i was trying to land on the bed