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*hugs Mrs Pan* hope you sleep ok
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*Hugs Laura*
*Hugs Lia* *Hugs Oliver* *Hugs Mrs Pan* |
*hugs Oliver*
*hugs Lia* *hugs Pan* *hugs mark* how are you all? |
*hugs everyone*
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*Hugs Laura*
*Hugs Lindsay* I don't know how I am yet , How are you gals? |
I'm still feeling suicidal. I'm going to try and contact the voluntary crisis team tonight but they usually just tell me to watch TV.
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*Squishes Lindsay Heaps*
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Thanks, Mark. How are you doing now?
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*hugs*
Watching TV is bloody crap advice in a crisis. Is there nobody else you can contact? |
I might try and phone my OT tomorrow if they don't help, but she never knows what to do either.
I've decided that I have to kill myself to stop the men in my head from killing my brother. This is for the best. He won't have to die and I won't have to suffer any more. |
*Hugs Lindsay extra hard!*
*Hugs Mrs Pan* |
*hugs Mark & Lindsay*
I know this probably isn't the most popular suggestion but have you thought about maybe being an actual impatient? Have you ever spoken to anybody about that? I know that nobody wants you dead and we don't want anybody hurt at all. Maybe you could get help in there and you wouldn't have to suffer either. |
*hugs all*
does anyone have a hungry baby? I've got milk |
*hugs everyone*
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*hugs ward*
I'm still around, I've just been lurking. I'll try to catch up later. <3 |
I'm not allowed to be hospitalised unless my 'circumstances change' whatever that means because my old psychiatrist said that hospital isn't helpful for me.
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hugs everyone,
Lindsay did you think that hospital or not? |
How do they think circumstances are going to change that you will still need hospital, Lindsay? That just doesn't make sense to me... at all.
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That doesn't make sense to me either :/
How do they know hospital wouldn't be helpful for you, have you been in one before? |
Even if she has been, I'd think if one thing didn't work then they could try something else... Eventually something would be helpful.
Do you have a new psych that could determine if it would be helpful and send them new info to go off of? |
I have been in hospital twice before because I was suicidal, it kept me safe and lessened the thoughts but my pychiatrist didn't see it that way. My new psychiatrist is going by what my old one said. She never used to listen to me or take my opinion into account. I feel unheard and unsafe.
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*hugs all*
*special hugs for Linsday* |
*hugs Lindsay lots* please try to stay safe, I would miss you terribly if anything happened to you.
*hugs everyone else* sorry I'm not upto many indiviuals, had a tough counselling session where I had to talk about my suicide plan a lot and got to go out in a minute. |
I don't suppose you can get a new one that does listen and who will look at things freshly rather than going by what the other says...? Even if it were true then doesn't necessarily make it true now, people and circumstances change over time... Going off of old information and not actually listening and helping you is well.... unhelpful. The way I see it there is no reason that even with professional help you should still feel unheard and unsafe.
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*cuddles Oliver*
*hugs Laura* |
*hugs Oliver*
*hugs Crimson* |
*Hugs Mrs Pan*
*Hugs Laura* *Hugs Crimson* *Hugs Felicia * <3 *Hugs Louise* *Hugs Oliver* *Hugs Lindsay* Could you possibly get a 2nd or 3rd opinion? |
Thank you all for your support. I don't think there is any way that my psychiatrist will change his mind and I wouldn't know how to go about getting another opinion. It's ok though. Death is what I want.
*hugs everyone* |
Lindsay hun Please PM me or anyone you trust, Please . *Huge squishes*
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Lindsay, I second what Mark said, please PM someone you trust (my PM box is always open). I would miss you terribly if something were to happen to you. *huge hugs*
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Lindsay *hugs* please talk to someone, a helpline, or go to your local A and E, please reach out, we all care about you here.
I missed my psych appt today cos I completely freaked out and had a panic attack so got to ring the office tomorrow to get another one. |
Do you know why you had a panic attack, Oliver?
If I were to go to A&E they would just send me home. There is no point in reaching out to anyone. |
there is a point in reaching out Lindsay *huge hugs*
I think I had a panic attack cos I got really paranoid that if I went outside the bad people would follow me so I got really scared and panicky |
Lindsay, there is a point in reaching out. *hugs*
I'm sorry you had a panic attack, Oliver. Those suck. I get them semi-frequently. *hugs* |
*leaves hugs*
*sits invisibly in corner* |
*sees Laura and sits with, if okay*
What's going on, dear? |
*hugs Felicia and Laura* how are you both?
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I'm okay, just nervous and a bit down.
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*hugs Felicia* any reason why your feeling nervous and down?
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*hugs felicia* sorry you are feeling down. what is making you nervous?
*hugs oliver* sorry about the panic attacks. they are awful. I feel so useless. I'm not doing anything right now and it feels horrible. I miss uni and work a lot right now. I go from being a full time student who also works 35 hours a week to nothing... nothing until September anyway... *sigh* I know i'm being really whiny. I just hate this. I'm so useless that I'm not even posting on here anymore... I just lurk and think about if I should post or not. Sorry i'm being a bad wardie. |
*Hugs Mrs Pan*
*Hugs Laura* *Hugs Crimson* *Hugs Felicia * *Hugs Louise* *Hugs Oliver* *Hugs Lindsay* *Hugs Laura* |
*hugs ian* how r u doing?
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Hey all. How is everyone? *Hugz all who want and brings assorted cookies* I am feeling really freaked out by my thoughts again....
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*Hugs Lindsay*
*Hugs Felicia* <3 *Hugs Oliver* *Hugs Laura* You're not a bad wardie hun :) *Hugs Ian* *Hugs Megz* |
*hugs all*
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*hugs everyone*
I spoke to my OT this morning and she said that there is nothing that she or anyone else can do for me. I might try phoning the police if I can figure out how to explain this to my brother without terrifying him. |
*cuddles into felicia* <3 loveyouu
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*Hugs Laura* Hows things
*Hugs Lindsay hard* *Hugs Heather* How're you hun? |
*hugs Lindsay massively*
*hugs Heather* *hugs Mark* how are you? I've lost control, or at least that's what it feels like. |
Hello all. *waves*
Sorry I have been away so long from the VPW, but time and life have gotten in my way. I'm not doing so crash hot to be honest. It looks like I'll have to go back to the clinic and have ECT. My psychiatrist and I are trying to work on keeping the hospital trip until the christmas break so that uni isn't affected. We are also counting on uni to lift my mood, but it's difficult to know the outcome of that inference. If anyone is interested in what's been going on since I last entered the VPW, please feel free to visit my support thread. I really don't like repeating myself. *hugs to all* and my apologies for not doing individual replies at this time. |
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