Ty for those hugs..

How r u doing atm? any better?

Emily, who sweetie? And no ones perfect,we all know that far too well I think...it's mostly just appearances...
DanceDance...I don't think they ever go away hun. I wish they did. But you've done so well, seems to me you're a pretty strong person...keep it up.
Jetforce, sorry you felt like you belonged in a padded room...how's it now? Stay safe friend.
*pulls out her ever present pot of tea and offers it around*
Something y'all who are English/Scottish/Irish know well...tea is goog for just about anything...
*returns to corner, wraps her arms around her knees and just...sits...*

Prepare a strightjacket! I'm going out tonight!

I think they've gone. Until next time....

Mine usually go away & end up coming back at times. :crying: But I think they've gone until the next time

DanceDance, glad to hear the urges seem to have gone for the time being...here's hoping they stay away for a while.
*hugs*

Ugh, I feel like sh*t...not fair...not fair at all...have to go to work...need the money...but if they suggest I leave early (they really don't need me right now) I don't know if I'll be able to tell them I need to stay (they're pretty good about allowing you to stay if you need the hours)...
I don't think my meds are where they need to be...but I also think this is partly my fault...after all I'm allowing myself to feel like this...not doing anything to fix it...
*curls up in her corner with her blanket and stuffed lamb and sobs*

*hugs* I dunno what to say =(

*hugs Ally*

*leaves some more hugs*

i wish i was dead

im sorry

*hugs Jo*
What makes you say that hun?
xxx

Welcome to RYL yvonne, how are you doing?

everyone be better off-which the od had worked then people wouldnt be able to hurt and use me

*hugs*
Hunni, you have so much to give. We would not be better off without you. You've been there for me when I needed to chat, helped a lot tbh. You are a special person Jo x

i'm worth nothing-everything is my fault

*curls up and sobs*

*wraps Jo up in a blanket and huggles her*
It's not all your fault hun

*hugs Jo*
Aw hunni, not true...I'm sorry you're feeling so lousy.
*super big snuggles*

Thanks for the hugs all...
Gosh I feel awful...
*curls up in her corner and sobs again*

*offers Ally a hot drink - I have hot chocolate, tea, coffee - take your pick*
Do you want to chat?

I need company =( I don't trust myself, I'm worrying about too much **** and I can't process certain things *le sigh* Bring on sleep & tomorrow..but til Ive gone to sleep...

*accepts some tea*
Bless you, I don't know what it is about tea...
As for talking, thanks, but there's not a lot to say...I think I need my meds upped but the campus health center doesn't open for another week and a half...in the mean time, I guess I just feel awful...
Maybe some vodka will help...
Thanks again :)

I'm here if you want to chat about anything dance!dance!4eva

I've never liked tea myself, but for many it seems comforting or whatever! lol.
Is there nowhere else you can go to sort your meds out?
Hang on in there x

My moms attempt to keep us kids from becoming alcoholics...when things are bad, drink tea :)
As to my meds...unfortunatly no, I don't have insurance so it's the health center or nothing...
Thanks again
X

That's apparently drinking tea in a crisis is a typically british thing to do! lol. My mum seems to swear by it! lol
Can you get support from somewhere other than the center? Just wondering x

Thanks I just wish I could get to sleep dead easy :-(

Well...technically we're English...and Scottish...and Irish...and...lol let's face it I'm just a mutt. A true American, product of the 'melting pot' :)
I wouldn't know where else to go... I don't want to burden my friends...and when they ask about it I feel stupid and don't want to talk about it...it's just me being difficult I guess :s

DanceDance, I'm sorry you can't sleep

What would happen if you decided to do something active like cook or run or clean when you can't sleep? Do you think you may be able to sleep then?

Heh, too bad we seem to think we're a bother...maybe that's part of the problem...
Dang, only two shots of vodka...guess it's gonna have to be one screw driver and then on to the tea ;) strong enough to knock out an elephant...that ought to do it...TB it really works for stressful, nondepressive things...if it took care of depression I'd have been doing better long ago...ah well.

*sigh* Have spent WAY too much time online this summer.

Well Carole, I think you're lovely...
Yeaha,I've noticed that I tend to drink too much and then feel worse...doesn't keep me from drinking...*shrug* anyway, it was only two (very full) shots so while I'm pleasntly muzzy I think that's about it this time...good thing too cause I've come out with some nasty cuts after a bad night...
So how are you doing Carole?

Carole is such a pretty name. I think I'm going to go to sleep soonish. Or read....

:) You're lovely too Ally.

:) thanks...yea I'm off to bed too soon. Gotta be up washed and ready for breakfast in about 6 and a half hours - that includes time to sober up a bit!

Awwwwwwwww bless ye, I've got the hairdressers sometime in the morning I think, and my hair will need freaking washing before I go & then probs get washed there too, haha mega clean then ;)

Do either you two have msn and/or myspace? Add me if you want *hugs*

I'm off

Lol, yea. You'll hair will be squeaky clean by the end of tomorrow! lol.
I'm off to take a peek at my uni campus - we are under time pressure as dad wants to see at least one of the rugby mathces tomorrow as well!

Will add you in a sec! x

Will add DanceDance...though I'm not on much...

I gotta call it quits too, my eyes are heavy and I still need to get a drink to take to bed with me! lol. Hope you sleep well Ally. x

Carole, I hope you get enough sleep...
I'm sorry you're walking around in a haze these days...it's no way to live life and yet it makes it feel a wee bit more barable doesn't it..?
*sigh*
Sleep well hun

*hugs all in the room*

Hope ur looking after urself there ppl :)

I sorta of am...but still feel unsafe :(

Just checking myself into the ward. I need to find a place that I can be safe and actually sleep (unlike the past 7 days). I hate being manic!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*curl up in darkest room

**hugs blujan2002**

Welcome in!! Hope u stay safe in the psych ward :)
Look after urself there

i'm a mess, i've got a question when is the right time to ring the emergency duty service?

*hugs*

Um...when ever u feel unsafe or u've done somethig stupid

Does that help a tad?

yes thanks :P im just scared of calling them

Why is it that the instant that you feel like you are ready to stop ED and Si. Stuff comes along and really pushes you back into it harder

I agree. You say "I going to stop now!" and then you panic and go of the edge. Like that I have to clean the house before mom comes and checks up on me. Or that I was so drunk last night I told a guy that was in love with him. Or that I had to be saved by the police when a strange guy tried to pick me up and did not understand the word no. Or that I'm to depressed to put on a t-shirt...
God, I need some cookies...