i'd like to be sedated right about now....
*hugs everyone who wants a hug*

*hugs imaginary_friend*
me too... me too.

*cuddles everyone and sets out some hot chocolate*

curls into ball and hides, i hurt so much. want to dissapear please ?

no dissapearing.

*curls up in corner and sleeps*
should be happy cuz can stay but meh.

Wish I could sleep.

Sleep?? What is this sleep thing??

*hugs everyone*

*cuddles ppl in the psych_ward*

to scarlett dreamer, there too much to say as to why, i just had enough.
I can't make this alone anymore, i have tried so hard and failed so often, i just can't anymore, all i want is a quiet place to curl up in where for once i can feel safe. A place with no mirrors, no nightmares, no nothing. Just a place to rest in peace

Wish me luck. Court tomorrow. Should be okay, just very scary. I feel dead. I don't want to feel anymore.

*hugs everyone*

good luck sweetie <3

Good luck sweet <3

Thanks guys, that means so much to me x

good luck, joc. i know you'll be ok :)
*hugs*

Urgh, I am in a crap position right now with a friend.

Oh well.

I really don't feel good. Mentally.

:(

*hugs april* you okay? sorry ur not feeling well.

*walks over to corner and collapses* i quit.

Hugs to Kiera.

I CAN'T F'ING STUDY. My brain won't work and the Voices are talking again....

*cuddles Laura* What's up, sweetie?

I'm home alone right now and I really want to cut & b/p. There's a ton - a TON - of food in the fridge that we made last night and they wouldn't notice if a bit was gone, would they? And there are knives in the kitchen, too, and food in our room (the one that we "borrowed" from our friend's daughter - we're still at his house). AAHHHH!!!! *wants to cry*

Last night was so tough. Vince wanted to know why I looked down and when he guessed that someone did something to me that made me hate myself so much, it all unraveled. Didn't cry but it feels like I have a PTSD hangover right now... hate the memories, hate the thoughts, hate them!!!! I want to die... I am so sick of my life right now. It's so hard to think positive thoughts, so difficult to control the urges, so so difficult!!!! :(

Hugs? support? :'(

*cuddles kiera*

*hugs steel maiden* Sorry you cant study and about the voices.

*hugs april* things sound really hard for you right now :-( I know its hard to control urges but keep fighting them. You are a great person hun. Stay strong.

I'm fine i guess... kinda numb today... Things are just getting harder and harder instead of easier.. and i'm kicking myself, b/c i was just starting to feel like i could figure things out. I can feel a relapse is on the way...