*Hugs Lia* Why are you at your wits end Hun?

*Hugs Josh* Sorry , I just saw your signature of Matt Tuck and thought "Matt" :P

Hey Josh, how ya doin?

yeah its alright =]

And honestly, im not doing too great. but im holding up. Im just feeling rather lonely.

Sorry Josh, I called you Matt because Mark did. Blame him :P I'm Lia. Hey :) Glad you're holding up, you can hang here if you're feeling lonely :)

Lots of things...I'm worried about my friends. One of them is always...well, not good. She keeps texting me, all of the time and I don't feel she actually wants my friendship, more of me as a counsellor and I can't just ditch her, but she's dragging me down, I spend most nights talking her out of things and I'm just so tired. And my other friend's really ill...it might be serious and she's just split up with her fiance and she's really on edge too... I just don't know what to do. My 'auntie' who I have known for my whole life has breat cancer...she's got kids and they have no one else. I'm in the middle of my drama practical exam, but I can't do it, I can't act, I don't know what's wrong with me because I've done this before, I just can't get into it and I'm so worried that everyone is going to fail because of me as the whole group's marks are effected by each person. I can't even explain myself right. Being so busy stressing about everything else isn't helping me to pass these darn exams...

My rock's leaving me and I have no one else to turn to. My family just get at me, my friends get pissed when I'm snappy...no one gets it.

*Hugs Lia* I'm sorry hun , you sound like you have much on your plate . I have the same deal where I feel someone is using me more for counselling/someone to bitch at and I don't want to say , "Hey , TRY and help YOURSELF" because I don't want to push them over the edge and I don't want to come over as a horrible person.

Oh Liaa *Hugs* My PM box is open for you hun, You want to become Facbook buddies? That way I may be able to help . I am having an early night tonight though :S

Sure :) Is my fb on my profile? I think it is. I know how it feels, I can't tell her where to go in case it makes her do something stupid.

*Night time hugs my Wardies*
Catch up with you tomorrow :)

Lia hun, don't be hard on yourself. You're just spreadin yourself too thin. You need a break to catch your breath. You have to take care of yourself first. Even then, you can't be everything to everyone.

its alright dont worry about it =]

*huggles all*

Had a bad night last night. Woke up twice with panic attacks. Feeling quite fragile this morning. Meh. Also still extremely tired because the sleep quality was so poor. :-(

Oh well.

*Hugs Kahlia* I'm sorry, I don't know what to say right now. But I hope you can get better sleep tonight. I'm thinking of you.

I'm glad we didn't get on your nerves Josh :)

*Hugs Solo* Thanks :) I find it really hard to put myself first though.

*cuddles ward* my counsellor saw what I've been like over the past 2 weeks, my fiance kept it well documented and had me fill out a questionnare and she looked at it all and she's worried and my goal for this week is to get my gp to give me a refferal to the mental health team in my area :( I'm so worn out, sorry for the lack of individuals today, I'm thinking of you all x

I understand Lia. It sounds good, but I can't do it either. Seems to be the common theme with all of us!

We'll need to work on that Solo. All of you guys matter to me, no matter how long your stay here.

*Hugs Sarah* It's alright my dear, not everyone can always support others. It's enough to know you care :) I hope all goes well for you and you can get things sorted. I really admire your courage you know.

*hugs ward* I so wanted to be super on top of things with individuals and such, then life hit me... again.

I can't keep doing this.

*cuddles everyone* you're all amazing, I know you can do this. I know you'll beat it, because you're all truly wonderful. <3

It's ok Felicia! Life happens hun.

*cuddles everyone*

Two hours until my online meeting. Nervous as hell. Taken 1/2mg of xanax because I need to stay sharp. Hopefully it will kick in and be just enough. *sigh* Why am I such a stress-bucket? It would be so much easier to do this group assignment if I was studying on-campus. :-(