it is 7pm and I am just now gettin out of bed... ugh

I don't think of it as being strength. I think of it as being doing what i have to do no matter what.

I so don't feel strong today. I'm not doing what has to be done, i'm asking my husband to do it.

*hugs Blondie*
no one can be strong all the time...

been just over a week *sighs*

*huddles in corner*

*cuddles manda*

I feel so... I don't know.... numb, depressed, sad, afraid, lonely, hurt, confused, etc, etc, etc (any and all negative emotions) right now...... and the worst part is: I don't know why I feel like this!!!!!
It's like I want to cry but I have no tears, and I want to scream, but nothing happens when I try to let it out...

maybe dont try and it will just happen? *hugs*

I don't know what's wrong with me... I feel like such a loser for feeling this way and not knowing why

your not a loser *hugs*

thanks... I just feel stupid when people ask me "what's wrong?" and all I can tell them is, "honestly, I don't know" HOW CAN I NOT KNOW???!!!!

easily. i rarely know how i feel or whats wrong or anything. you're not alone sweet *hugs*

*hugs back*
Thanks Sophie
it is comforting to know I'm not the only one...

honey you are far from the only one that feels like that here.

*sighs*
I guess the "not knowing" (or at least not being able to figure it out) is a by-product of nasty old depression :-(

that it is *hugs*

Ugh... STUPID DEPRESSION!!!!
made me get up at like 12:30 this morning, eat breakfast, then get back in the bed around 1-ish and sleep til like 8:30 or so... and it is now almost 11 and I am having to fight to keep my eyes open...

I understand. All I have wanted to do today is either sit at the computer or curl up on the sofa. It is not quite 8pm, and i plan to go to bed in an hour or so. I know what is wrong. There is nothing at all to do but wait it out.

Oh yeah, as of 5pm pacific time, 7 months no Self Injury. It feels hollow. I'll likely redo the bracelet sometime, dig the loose beads out of the drawer, but it is like I don't care. Damn me.

*hugs* maybe have a nap?

*nods* Congrats on 7 months free!!