^ what happens then hun?

img eting mre out of it as the mornign goes on and i have to pick up young people and drive them. and two of them are really absuice. lucky that outher youth worker will be there to protect me. want to go home. dont feel well. find out results for blod test tonight. ****.

Hun if you're not well then go home, get some rest. Does anyone know about the two that are abusive?
Try not to panic hun, and I hope the tests come back fine for you xx

15 mins till my boyfriend kills himself
There's nothing I can say or do to make him listen
He makes me feel about an inch high most of the time
I don't know why I fight so hard sometimes you know?

Because you love him?
It wasn't very fair of him to tell you that and just leave you to wait. Do you actually think he'll go through with this hun? Because if you do it may be worth asking whoever he lives with to pop in on him?

I dont..

Love is a strong word
When he makes me feel this way, I'm not sure anymore
It's not fair no, but it's not like him to be fair to me
I don't know, I know he's cut before now, but lied to me about how he got it (as well as flipping at me for it)
I've managed to talk him round, with little time to spare :/
But I don't know how long it will last
Probably not long knowing him

Hun if he doesn't treat you well it may be worth taking a break...you deserve to be treated well.
Well done for talking him round.
*hugs*

Doesn't feel like a victory
It's a cheap win
I feel empty now

i' mtrying. i raly am. i'm sorry eveyrone. i gots to go . wont be on mcuh today at all.

Jess, how come?
<alive> (dunno your name sorry) take care hun xxx

Because its all the time now
Most days I have to convince him why he shouldn't do this
Why this, why that
I didn't mind it at first, because I made it up to him
Now I just feel so small and insignificant again

Sorry for the double post but I'm going to go sleep this off
Have a good day everyone, thank you Ku for listening :-)
Night all xxxx

You're definitely not small or insignificant.
It sounds like he has a lot to work through, but he shouldn't put it all on you, that's not fair.
I hope you sleep well hun.
Night night xx
Oh, and I'll listen anytime =)

is jes. just cnat. work hard. gots to og out now. bey

hun look after yourself, dont work too hard

*cries*

Hi Nancy 91.
*accepts Hayley's cuddles*
I should be sad. I'm not. It hasn't hit me. My friend isn't likely to survive the summer. I've been in the mode of getting info off to others though. Even though I usually don't wear bracelets when I work, i'm wearing the charm bracelet that has her charm on it, holding the charm in my palm when I can.

I can pray and meditate sometimes when I work. Today's stuff is that kind of work. 1 Thessalonians 5:17 pray without ceasing Psalm 51:10-11 Create in me a clean heart O God And renew a steadfast spirit within me.

Hope y'all don't mind the references. That is what I am off to do, and get some sewing done at the same time.

blah :-(

*hugs jermery*

Oh my gwad, it's like nearly 5am, WHY CAN'T I JUST BE NORMAL WHEN IT COMES TO SLEEP =(