Awwwww (cuddles)

Thanks guys.

Nathan- I got your message but I'm out of credit grrrr. I hope your going ok!

Helen- *cuddles* Sorry I left before too on msn, was pissed off and Trent wanted the comp.

Grrrrr it seems most people are pissing me off lately :@

Welcome back Katie.

*Safe hugs to all and chocolate cookies*

Hope all are doing well. Have been awake now for the last 22 hours. Sooo tired, but can't sleep blah. I think the dream is getting a little out of control or I am. Has anyone got any suggestions to help you sleep? Am driving my best friend nuts with my mania as she is down and I am ricocheing off the walls. I am worried about her.

*Exta safe hugs Kahlia*
You know I love going for walks even when you just start runnig, just wish I didn't slow you down.:-D

Just checking in, he-devil visited today, cried but not as much as usual.

*big hugs for everyone*

x

Helen, that is great news. Congratulations.

Katie! *glomps* Yay, welcome back.

Thank you Nicole. I'm sorry I have been so down. There's something eating at me that I don't know what is. And before you ask, no it's not the engagement (or should that be failed engagement), the breakup or anything like that. It stems from something that is/has been locked away.

Ravyn/Shell, Emma, Dayna, Nathan, Mary Anne, Louise, Hana, Arwen/Zowie, Lucy, Nick, and anyone I may have missed : I hope that things are going well or improving for you. *offers hugs to those who need, want and/or can accept them*

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My internal alarm clock is getting close to being thrown out the window. I just have to work out how the heck to do so. My housemate that I drive to work doesn't start until 06:30 [practically midday lol] today so I told myself that I wanted to sleep as long as possible. I told my internal alarm clock to wake me at 04:30 but was awakened before 3. Meh. And with the day/night I had ....

I almost collapsed in a shopping center yesterday and I don't know why. I mean, I had eaten so there shouldn't be any issues there, the air-conditioning was on in the shop so it shouldn't be an issue with heat. The people were numerous but I didn't feel suffocated or anything in relation to the people. It did hurt to breathe, but that didn't start until after I started feeling faint. I just have no idea what that stems from which is probably not helping my mental state in the slightest.

Hopefully everyone is doing better than me. *offers hugs and drinks that magically turn into whatever you happen to like best, to all*

*Hugs Kahlia*

Still feeling pretty crap. It's like that night was proof that my friends no longer like me.

Saw my baby cousins today, they really cheered me up.

*Sneaks in and gives safe hugs to all*

*sends big hugs & hot chocolate to all* =]

*sends cuddles and food around*

Love you guys.

Kahlia, thank you sweetie, hope you're feeling better soon xxx

Yay cuddles and hugs!! Is it okay if I skip on the drinks and food though ?? Lol.

I have to echo Helen here, love you guys. :D

Helen, no problem hon. I'm okay at the moment ... I'm listening to 4 fairly hot guys singing a mixture of classical and popular music in italian! :D

*sends cuddles, hugs and glomps around the ward*

*sends hugs, and cuddles around to those who want them*

Lucy - *offers lots and lots of hugs* How are you doing?

Welcome back Katie! Good to see you around; how are you doing?

Helen - Congrats on Seven Months!! and on five weeks too!! Thanks for the update :)

Nick - how are you doing, have the strange sensations stopped?

Nathan - Good to see you in here; how are things going?

Nicole - Have you managed to sleep yet? Sometimes a nice warm bath/shower could help or reading something boring? Hope sleep comes soon.

Mary Anne - *hugs*

Zowie - Glad you had a nice visit with your baby cousins! Hope you have a good night.

Kahlia - ohh what are you listening too?? *is quite curious* How did things go with visiting your family? Sorry to hear about your collapsing.. hope things get somewhat settled for you soon.

Dayna - how are things going? Anything get settled between you and your friend?

Emma, Louise, Hana, and anyone else who's been checking in [I'm sorry if I missed someone, I'm not very good at remembering names *blushes and shakes head* ] how are you all doing?

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I went to work today for a few hours -- I've mainly been off for the past 1.5 weeks and I had a really hard time focusing even though I used to love work... I'm starting to think that I must be a lazy self-absorbed person who can't get it together for a few hours... definitely now am not looking forward to next week...

*hides in denial tent where i feel like I used to*

Y'know, the subscription thing is really fail on here. RYL's meant to email me instantaneously when someone replies in this thread. It doesn't =B.

Ravyn: Not yet, no ._.;. He's gone back to being quiet again today, too. One day everything's fine, the next it's not. I don't understand it

*hugs* I'm going back to my old line... guys are stupid! [And I mean no offense to any guys on here... just so you know]

Seriously, though, that's really frustrating, I hope things get sorted out for you soon. How was your day?

*Hugs back* Sounds like a good line to me, lol. And yeah, it is frustrating. Makes me insecure and paranoid as hell x_o. Him aside though, my day's been alright, I guess. What about yours?

Doop de doop.
Hope you're all alright.
*leaves squishes for all*
x

You too, Abstract *squishes back*

Haha, I was listening to Il Divo - the UK group with an Italian name where none of the members come from either of those countries. Visiting my family .... in some ways it was okay, in other ways it was a horror time. My father managed to drop a heavy and sharp piece of equipment on his foot and couldn't get it to stop bleeding which was triggering in some ways ... My mother started bitching at me because I'd changed the colour of my hair "oh I like it so much better when it's that lovely natural golden blonde" - it's now copper on a brown base (which they only had to add because my hair was that lovely natural golden blonde and they weren't sure it would take the colour) with blonde streaks. She also got all disappointed in me because of the cut on my arm and went off at me on that point as well. I absolutely adore hearing how much better than me my sister is and I copped a tonne of that too but meh. Hmmm sorry about that, I'm starting to get into my rant mode. My family just drive me bananas sometimes. Anyway before I forget, sorry to hear about your feelings regarding work ... here's hoping it improves for you in the coming week.

I think I may just disappear into the denial tent for awhile .... it's probably the safest place in the world for me to be realistically speaking.

Hey I wish that the mood display [I am currently : ...] had In Denial as a possibility. Meh.

*disappears into the denial tent*

Dayna - *hugs* My day was okish; went to work for a bit and that unsettled me.. hopefully next week is better... a bit nervous about that.

Lucy - Thanks! *squishes back* How are you?

Kahlia - lol I've heard of them before.

Sorry to hear about your visit with your family *hugs* I think you hair sounds really sweet!! I'm all about dying hair :)

Thanks for encouragement regarding work.. I hope things go better too.. we'll see next week I guess.

I like what you said about the moods:

I think I saw a thread somewhere about updating the moods... we should suggest this as a mood. I think I'll try to find it tomorrow...

Ravyn : Thanks for the support - both on here and on my thread.

Il Divo are great ... well to me anyway. Due to my singing training and my upbringing I tend to look for two things in a group : voices and lyrics. I love their voices.

I love the "new" colour of my hair, but I do miss the old golden blonde. Hmmm just wondering ... should that be 'colours' ?? Lol.

I think if "In Denial" was a mood choice I would never have to change the current mood again lol. I'm always being told that I am in denial about something.

First of all, sorry this is so delayed ... I got side-tracked.

*hugs you right back* I'm glad you got some joy out of seeing your baby cousins. I hope that you aren't feeling so bad now. Thinking of you.

Hmmm I would have to agree with you on this point Dayna. I think it must be "instantaneous" to someone but maybe that should be "instantaneous give or take several hours". I'm regularly getting the "someone posted a reply" message after I have discovered there are several new replies. I'd always put it down to my email client [gmail but through thunderbird]. I'm .... not sure what the correct word to use is, glad I guess ... that someone else has that issue as well as I thought it was only happening to me. Selfish I realise, but in some sad way reassuring.

Perhaps 'instantaneous' if you leave your computer for several hours after making a post <__<;;

Yeah that might work lol. I basically live on my computer but maybe I should start walking away from it after every post I make to see if that makes the "instantaneous" emails come through faster. :p

Yay I slept a wopping 3.5 hours. I am not complaining just wishing it was a tad more.

Kahlia you are not always in denial. I do love your hair colours and I wish I could die mine. And am understanding about family, mine see me when they want something or if I have sone something to upset them..

Zowie hope things improve for you and your mood changes to something positive *hugs*.

Ravyn sorry that you were distracted at work it could be first day back jitters. Hope next week is better.

Accidentaly Abstract *hugs back and enjoys hot chocolate*

Dayna I occasionaly don't get messages from RYL for a few days so it is a long read when I get online.

Lucy hope you feel a bit better soon.

Sorry to any one I have missed *safe hugs and cute teddies to all*

Nicole: O___o;; Daamn. It's not done that to me - yet, thank ****

Kahlia: Lol yeah. I think when it comes to relying on computers, you and me are as bad as each other

Dayna that is a definite possibility. I am studying IT but sometimes I think that the study is just an excuse to allow me to stay attached to my laptop. Oh, and it hasn't instantaneously told me about Nicole's reply yet. I believe that our full reliance on the computers was our reasoning behind the advancement of the possible formation of technoholics anonymous... right
?? :p

XD Sounds about right to me.

And LOL, I know what you mean about studying IT. When I did that at school, it was more my 'check email and play games for an hour' lesson =B

Haha, well apart from playing games you have me bang to rights there. I do study, I love programming and that's what I do when I'm bored and sitting at a computer. I have something like seven email addresses so that takes a little while too. Also, I'm a perfectionist and I absolutely love to study. I think that I might be a freak. Lol.

Whoops. If anyone felt the ground shake, I just belched. Sorry...! :X

Ironically, I'm crap with computers, lol. I don't really do anything productive, unless I'm writing or finishing off a picture. Other than that, it's just games and emails for me <__<;;;

Ravyn - I'm alright thanks. Feeling a bit annoyed at myself & wishing I was tired enough to sleep being that it's 3.35am, grr.
How are you doing?

Glad you're enjoying the hot chocolate Nicole. =]

This thread's nice *nods*.

Cuddles & hugs rock :P Yes you can skip on the drinks & food as long as you eat sometime soon :-D I'm glad you're okay and Il Divo are quite good, I think Emma likes them too, you'll have to ask her ;-)

Thank you :D :D You're welcome for the update =)

There's an explanation about that I think in forums&community questions!

Haha I agree that they're stuipd :wow:

*squishes you lots* You okay hunni?

Your hair sounds lovely Kahlia hunni :) There's a thread from the CT team (which I'm part of :P) askign about moods, so go plonk the denial one in there, you might be able to have it added :hehe:

Sleep/lack of sleep can be so sucky sometimes :pinch:

I'm also studying IT & have been for a few years now and I wonder if the study is an excuse too? :woot:

This thread is sure nice :D Take it from someone who's lived in here since November/December 2007!!!


OMG >.< Yesterday I slept from 9pm-2.15am and had a nap at 3ish and slept for 3 hours..? Then tonight I've slept from 11.30ish-3.45am which is better? Well it feels better.....and I only woke up to cough really and then threw up in my mouth and sallowed it down. Suddenly all my chest is ****ing killing me and my stomach...I think. Damm acid >.< I did drink some water though...? ARRRRGH I want to back to sleep :-(

An explanation? Ooh

*Waddles off to forums and community questions*

Hehe, you might have to do a bit fo searching ;)

Yeah, I see that, lol. Thanks

*Hugs* Helen Yes I definatly agree that lack of sleep sucks, hope you get more soon too.

Dayna I have a similar problem give me a grafics program or photography I can use it but basic use is just beyond me I have difficulty with most prorams. It has taken me over six months to learn internet and email. Shame job.

Lucy I definatly agree that this thread is nice:-D

Ravyn most guys are stupid so I avoid getting involved emotionaly, except with friends [guys].

Hello Jetforce hope you are well

*cuddles everyone*

Sorry... but am feeling down at the moment. Miss my little sister so much =( My other sister.. not so much coz she's a bitch lol. But my other one =( I feel so homesick too =(

Helen : This could take me a while so please bear with me ... Yay, I can skip on the food and drink. I'm actually struggling in that area at the moment, but I'll get over it. I always do. Yeah, Il Divo are quite good. According to the majority of people I know irl I have a weird taste in music.

Also, thanks regarding my hair and the suggestion regarding the potential addition of my "favourite" mood to the list. I'll have to chase up on that one.

Just out of curiousity, how long have you been studying IT ? *is insanely curious* Sorry if that is an impertinent or personal question by the way. I've been studying it at uni since 2006 ... and am only now in second year. Mind you, I have not achieved less than a HD since I have begun. It would appear than studying IT is one of the ultimate excuses for being a technoholic and remaining attached to a computer.

I hope you are feeling a bit better now Helen, and I hope that your sleeping and possibly your internal alarm clock begin to sort themselves out soon. Hey, if you ever work out how to completely reset your internal alarm clock, or alternately to throw it out the window so you can go back to sleep please [pretty please] let me know.

*hugs all*

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I saw an item on one of the news channels tonight about the "radical" surgery that has replaced the ovary of several women who were cancer patients and the like (please excuse the term, I just can't find anything that fits) with one from their twin sister. It appears that the surgery has been successful and allowed these women to bear children. They were talking about the possibilities relating to the surgery and mentioned "women who wished to put their fertility on hold for ten to twenty years". I was pondering on some other uses for the surgery ... but then again my mind usually does have a medical taint to it. I have tried to remove it, but unfortunately it is still there. Anyway, just wondering if anyone else had heard about it ??

I've not heard about it Kahlia. Sounds interesting though!

& MammaMia yeah I'm alright at the moment thanks, how're you?
x

just popping in to say hello *hands out hot drinks and biscuits*

sorry, not read all the posts, brain not functioning, hope everyone is ok (or at least ok-ish)

*hugs*

Just wondering if you are speaking about the surgery ... If you are, I was [selfishly] pondering about it's uses for women like me with PCOS. Following through the logic and wondering if it would give assistance.

To everyone else : *big hugs*

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I'm in a weird place at the moment. I probably seem down to people but in reality I'm neither up nor down. Emotions are just a superficial mask I wear. I know that I'm not down because I react with smiles and laughs, but I literally don't feel anything. I'm probably a little apathetic but I'm not sure that's exactly it either. I am pretty cerebral at present so perhaps I am just over-analysing everything.

*Sneaks in* Rah

Although I know it isn't morning for you, it is for me so : Morning Dayna. How are things going ??

Hey Kahlia. I'm alright atm thanks, got someone to actually talk to this time, lol. You?

Yeah, I don't really know. I'm not really feeling much. I am cerebrally craving human company and hugs but it's kind of .... Have you ever had a moment where your body is really hungry, but your brain interprets that as you feel sick and therefore shouldn't eat ?? It's that kind of mismatch of signals so I'm not quite sure ...

Glad to hear that things are presently okay (or okay-ish) for you.

No, I don't think that's happened to me. Sounds like **** though D: *hugs*

Hmmm I guess so. It's just a weird feeling and one I am beginning to get used to - both the hungry/sick and emotional blackhole lol. *hugs back*

Ugh x_o. The emotional blackhole thing I sort of know what it's like. Been once or twice where I've felt really empty. It's kind of like being on autopilot, isn't it? Or at least, is or me <__<;;

I guess that autopilot is a good analogy lol. Feel ... for me at the moment that's kind of a stretch. I had someone call me a bitch yesterday and I scared them with my reaction. I just tilted my head on the side and looked at them (apparantly as if I could read their mind - though how I managed that I'd like to know as it could be useful lol). They got all panicky and walked away really fast. My face hadn't changed, what had happened didn't matter. When I laugh and smile it's because I'm forcing myself to see "the joke". It's just .... weird.