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Kahlia1981 22-09-2009 07:48 AM

*hugs Helen*
*hugs everyone*

MammaMia 22-09-2009 11:37 AM

I am really struggling and now I'm really angry again (Y)

My two best friends are worried I'm beginning to develop two eating disorders and by telling them they feel even more powerless to help. I guess I have been slowly spiralling. One went far as contacting my mum. But she won't get that message because I've deleted it.

I forgot to tell you, my best who was meant to be in the ED clinic for five months, was taken off section and out of there the other day. Unfortnately she's in hospital again today after fainting, hitting her head and fitting :( She's done that quite a few times, it's not good. Last time it was because of stomach ulcers (which then nearly killed her when they ruptured).

Oh I didn't have my blood test yesterday. They re-made my 'doctors appointment' for Wednesday. Then this morning, I got a letter from a different GP, asking me to have a wee chat about how I'm feeling and after my A&E attendence. HAHAHAHHA. It's taken them FOUR ****ING LONG WEEKS TO FINALLY GIVE A ****????? I don't see why I should ****ing bother. They don't give a **** about me. Even my OWN GP DOESN'T CARE!!!!!

This is all too much. So much **** going down. I just need to die.

Strawberry.Bananas 22-09-2009 04:04 PM

Ok, Ok. I can't cope and I don't know what to do. The anti-depressants aren't working yet and my suicidal urges are stronger than ever. I feel like the only way I can stop all of this is to just finish it off. I don't know what to do. I don't know...

SoMuchMore 22-09-2009 04:28 PM

*gently hugs helen* I'm so sorry to hear about everything that's going on with you. But you don't need to die, we would miss you dearly. Do you think you are going to talk to the GP? I know you are mad but maybe you should anyway....

*hugs strawberry.bananas* Do you have anyone you can call? Maybe a professional? Hang in there hun.

*walks to a dark corner and sits down to watch my life instead of live it*

MammaMia 22-09-2009 05:37 PM

I am possibly going to, we'll see.

Ileana 22-09-2009 07:11 PM

I haven't been here in ages. I missed it.

lolly_x 22-09-2009 07:13 PM

needs a cuddle..x

Ileana 22-09-2009 08:22 PM

I wish I could go to sleep and wake up somewhere else, somwhere better, and realize (to my eternal relief) that this had all been a dream and I hadn't been misplaced but was instead just simply having a nightmare. Sometimes I think this feeling could only be achieved with death's release from this miserable, earthly existence. I don't know why some people are scared of dying, death could not possibly be worse than life.
I wish I was comatose, physically dead yet mentally alive and living in a wonderful fantasy without knowing it isn't real.
How could my inner world be so extremely different and better than the so-called real one? Why does there have to be such a huge gap between what I see and what I can imagine? And why do I have to be aware of this gap? Why do I have to bear the painful truth of its existence and the obvious difference between the two worlds?

Wow, I'm not feeling so hot. I'm sorry I ranted here. I feel exposed, unsafe. I think I just need comfort.

~*Rainbow*~ 23-09-2009 12:17 AM

im dorwning and nobody can save me - i;ve had enough dont want to do this anymore!!!!!!!!!!11

can i give up now please

hate my life
friends backstabbing
keep trying to find the answer at the bottom of the bottle

help me please

SoMuchMore 23-09-2009 03:32 AM

*comes out of corner to hug everyone* sorry to hear that so many of us are having a hard time right now.

Kahlia1981 23-09-2009 05:27 AM

*hugs everyone then tries to disappear into a corner*

Strawberry.Bananas 23-09-2009 09:34 AM

Guys? What's it like to go IP?

Katey-lou 23-09-2009 02:35 PM

*slips in and hides away*

sorry not been around i ended up bk in hosp :( im out on leave for a bit, but theyre talking about trying to get me in to a specialised unit. but im really not sure about it, it was only briefly mentioned t be but theyre going to be talking about it at the complex case panel and then at my CPA tomorrow. eeeuuurrggghhh why cant things just be simple and ok :(

thinking of you all xx

MammaMia 23-09-2009 04:07 PM

Oh Katey sweetheart *cuddles*

Vicki, hopefully someone can answer you soon :)

Kahlia, don't disappear.

Katey-lou 23-09-2009 05:20 PM

Thankyou Helen, *hugsback* hope your ok x

Vicki, sorry i didnt reply earlier was in a bit of a self obsessed mood. i know this might sound a really general reply, but its depends what sort of IP unit it is, and the reasons for going IP, and also how you become IP. (wether your detained or not, no that theres much difference) it can be scary, especially if its a first admission, but even if its not it can still be scary at times. a lot of acute wards are busy places and theres a mix of people on them. being an IP can be helpful in various ways, but each persons expereince is different. hope that helped a little bit. am here if you want to talk more about it. spent an awful lot of time as an IP (unfortuantly) on various units so may be able to help you more. *hugs*

hope evryones doing ok *hugs everyone*

SoMuchMore 24-09-2009 04:52 AM

done.. gone.. given up. The end.

Kahlia1981 24-09-2009 04:53 AM

*hugs everyone then retires to her corner*

zowie 24-09-2009 01:35 PM

*hugs everyone*
I'ma spend the day in the smoking shelter, avoiding all the things I need to get done.

youonlyliveonce 24-09-2009 07:49 PM

needs to hide away this is 2 hard

MammaMia 24-09-2009 08:21 PM

I know how you feel ^ :(

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