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frenchhorn 05-07-2010 09:04 PM

pops in quickly
Sorry I havn't been around much this past week. Been very stressed with trying to find somewhere to live, it all got too much on thursday and I had a breakdown in the middle of a street.
I don't really know how I feel at the moment, somethings are going ok, things with my gf are really good, btw thanks to all who gave advice when I last mentioned her. My sister apologised for being a bitch and said she realised she was **** and is going to try to be less **** and she asked for my new email address, so is emailing me lots. She is still far from there and doesn't call me a name yet and probably still see's me as her sister, but its a massive improvement.
But the same old **** is going on in my head, the depression, anxiety, suicidal thoughts, insomnia, I wish it would all go away, but I don't know how to get rid of it. I am becoming more open, my counsellor commented on that today, but its so much easier when you are not trying to hide such a big secret as your gender issues, because I always knew if I opened up it would come round to that.

Sorry for lack of replies, its been many, many pages since I last posted, read through most of it though and I'm sorry so many of you are struggling.
*big cuddles to all who can accept and waves to all the others*
I also notice some new people *waves hi to them* I'm Oliver
Not sure how much I will be on in the next two weeks as staying with my gf in Edinburgh, but hopefully will be on a bit, anyway I'm off to practice now and I will catch up with you all after that.

risenfromperdition 05-07-2010 09:48 PM

hey oliver :)

risenfromperdition 05-07-2010 09:48 PM

*offers hugs to becca [and anyone else who wants] :)*

I'mJustMe 05-07-2010 11:15 PM

*Huge hugs to all.*

So sorry for lack of individual replies right now, but I have a question.

How do you completly erase someone from your life who's been your everything for two years if you don't want them gone? Even though it hurts so much to think of them.


Scarletdreamer 05-07-2010 11:29 PM

updated r/v again... sorry for the lack of individual replies and lia, sorry, but i don't have an answer to your question - at the moment anyway, let me try and think about it.

*cuddles all who want*

Kahlia1981 05-07-2010 11:44 PM

*huggles/waves at all*

just dropped in quickly to catch up.
about to write an email to my psychiatrist in preparation for the appointment tomorrow.

*leaves hugs and safe care packages on the table for everyone*

shadowedsoul 06-07-2010 12:08 AM

I really want to do something stuiped right now, if I did not sure I would chicken out this time, only problem is I have got hardly any engery to get of my bed and get myself into my pjs and head to bed right now. Thinking of just sleeping in what I got on as I can't move right now. =[

MammaMia 06-07-2010 12:13 AM

*cuddles everyone*

Tonight's been the happiest I've felt in a while. Even if I've been upset and stuff aswell. Just had a period where I felt happy & at peace. Was talking about seeing my best friend, so that helped.

Dreading Thursday (well part of it). Excited about tomorrow (going to Alton Towers) & Thursday (best friend's birthday). Today's going to be okayish I think.

*offers cuddles to all*

SoMuchMore 06-07-2010 12:42 AM

^ so glad that you are feeling happy hun! You definitely deserve some peace. *hugs*

Sorry about the lack of other replies.

*hides away forever*

MammaMia 06-07-2010 12:44 AM

Thanks darling. Not sure it'll last long but holding onto it tightly all the same. *hugs back tight*

You can't hide away forever honey, what's wrong?? PM me if you'd prefer?

Kahlia1981 06-07-2010 03:11 AM

*hugs/waves at every ward mate*

just went downstairs to get my washing off the line. now my heart feels like it wants to jump out of my chest. i could really do with a smoke to calm down, but that would mean sitting outside . . . kind of like a catch 22.

sorry for the lack of individual replies - i just wanted to say:

hels - i'm so glad you got some well deserved happiness and peace sweetheart. worry not about what the 'morrow will bring, just enjoy the feelings for what they are. it's these moments in life that we need to enjoy and remember when the bad times come. i am so happy for you *big huggles*

*glomps anyone who doesn't mind being glomped*
*huggles those who don't mind being huggled*
*cuddles those who want or need a cuddle*
*leaves safe care packages and stuffed animals on the table*
*steals out into the garden to play with puppy sinclair*

SoMuchMore 06-07-2010 04:32 AM

I can't stay here anymore (not ryl.. my life). Please please please, just let me get out.

xxjuliexx 06-07-2010 08:51 AM

evening all

I'mJustMe 06-07-2010 08:56 AM

Laura and Jill- please hold on both of you, think of what you have held on for this long. There are people who care, we all do. I don't know what else to say right now, but please don't doa anything stupid. You're both strong people and have held on this long.

*Massive hugs*


risenfromperdition 06-07-2010 09:13 AM

hey owen, how're you?
hi lia [?] :)

i spies mark and laura

Doikers 06-07-2010 09:18 AM

*Hugs Helen* I'm so glad you had a happy moment :-)

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Kahlia*

*Waves to Owen*

*Hugs Lia*

*Hugs Heather*

*Hugs April , Oliver, Luke, Hannah,taz,Crimson,Jessica, Julie *

*Hugs To everyone else*(Sorry I missed you)

As for me, after hours of not sleeping the urge finally got too much and I cut last night , not too bad though , I Felt numb after and weird, This morning it's just like MORE scars :( *sigh*

Sorry I didn't do individual replies.

Doikers 06-07-2010 09:36 AM

I have an Appointment at the volunteer buero at 10.15 so I have to leave in 10 minutes , Don't really want to go , I want to sleep , not depressed when I sleep :S sorry

xxjuliexx 06-07-2010 09:39 AM

-gives mark jars of hugs-

Doikers 06-07-2010 09:45 AM

Thankyou Owen , *Takes a Hug out of the Jar and Hugs it*

shadowedsoul 06-07-2010 11:23 AM

Thanks lia, sorry to worry u. Don't worry I'm fine okayish Hun. huggles

Hug Laura tightly but gently lia right we need to hang on, hope your okay.

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