Afternoon everyone. I hope you are all looking after yourselves.

I have had to put on my heating as I am a bit chesty today.

I hope you feel better soon, Dawn.

Thanks Lindsay. I am already feeling better since I woke up and my cat is sitting on me purring away.

Aw good kitty.

I've got to have a blood test for some reason. First: soup.

Good luck with the blood test tamobhuuta. Enjoy your soup.

Soup achieved, blood test achieved. Apparently the psych wanted a base level? Not sure how that's different from my regular bloods.

I am not sure either. Time I had something to eat.

Hopefully healing purrs, Dawn.

What kind of soup was it today, Tamo? Hope your bloods come back ok.

Minestrone. I expect the bloods will say I'm on a high dose of clozapine, they said that on a lower dose!

Do you think that's maybe what they were checking for?

How is everyone's day going?

Well I had an afternoon nap. Got about 2 hours.

How is everyone?

I sat outside for a while as I felt I needed the fresh air. My head feels much better. I am currently writing a load of postcards as I drew 10 addresses for postcrossing.

Was it a good nap, Jen?

Do you have a box of postcards ready for when you need to send some, Dawn?

It was an ok nap. Kind of wish I was still alseep though

I know that feeling. What are you going to get up to now?

Ordered a kebab from a new place to try it. (My favourite place has sadly closed down so looking for a replacement this one had 4.5/5 stars).

Watching random you tube. Might watch Netflix later where I have been watching a random fantasy show called Fate: The Winx Saga

I have lots of postcards on a variety of themes. Cat cards, book covers, lego, seaside, Halloween, castles, lighthouses, Harry Potter, royals, my nearest unesco site, my nearest city are some of the ones I have Lindsay.

Exciting Dawn. I love a good postcard!

Eventually after over an hour, I have written and posted all my cards.

Well done insig.

New kebab place is super good quality! Salad had mint and coriander in it as well as usual lettuce cucumber tomato which was a nice touch. Chicken shish meat had a nice marinade and was smoky from being grilled. And they made their own pitta breads! I am well chuffed.

Hi Tamo, How are you?

Sounds delicious. I'm ok thanks. Looking forward to sleep.

Sounds lovely jen!

Many apologies for not catching up on anything.
I know it's incredibly rude to just ignore people's posts!

But hello!

Hi Cacoethes, busy day?

Sleep is always to be looked forward to. At least when it's good deep peaceful sleep which is the ideal.

*Waves at Beckie*

Not really busy.
Went to pharmacy then had to get the train to a&e and have just got home.
So not busy, but tiring and frustrating!
I too, am looking forward to sleep!

Hey everyone. Came back to check replies since I last posted and was like.. **** me, how has it been 3 days since then?!

Life is absolutely relentless right now. I had to stop work part way through the day (after literally screaming twice from stress as it was - I was working from home thankfully lol) because my dad needed some stuff taken to hospital. Fine - except that I went there yesterday too and was at the shopping centre deliberately to get him other stuff and he said he was too stressed to think about whether he needed anything so not to worry.. Fine. Except that I then had to go back again today when he decided he did desperately need other things. So I had to take the afternoon off work last minute, go to get the stuff, go to the hospital, then come back - and I've only just got home after leaving not long after 2pm. And now need to sit and study for the evening. I'm so damn tired. Sorry to moan. I've just not got many other places that I feel like I can get this stuff out right now. Very glad I've got therapy tomorrow morning!

Sorry, it's super rude to just barge in and moan and then disappear yet again, but I need to start my studying now and I tried to catch up on replies but then there were pages and pages... So... Thank you to those of you who sent me some love. I hope you're all doing as okay as you can be and I'm leaving some love and hugs for anyone needing them. <3

Oh Luce! Sounds like you're having a time of it!
I hope things get better soon.
The universe needs to give us all a break i think!

How very frustrating Abstract. Go do your studying and look after yourself.

We all do seem to be having a rougher time of late.

Don't sweat not being around Luce. If being here helps when things are too much be here if it doesn't be elsewhere. Take care of yourself!

Sending a box of love and hugs xx

I really am Beckie, life is just too damn much right now. I've barely got time to think - or shower, for that matter. Or eat. You know, the simple things. At least this evening I've got ahead with my studying so that means that hopefully I should have a bit of a break tomorrow evening, thank goodness. And then a chance to work on the book chapter on Thursday afternoon and evening, with any luck. I feel like I'm too stupid for this module though. I don't know if I'm really retaining any information and it's worrying. I'm doing my best, but I'm not sure it's going to be good enough this time.

It does seem as though a number of people are struggling lately - that's why my support network is thin on the ground at the moment. I'm sorry it applies to you lot as well. The universe really does need to give us all a damn break! Thanks for the love and support guys, I appreciate it. I hope you've all had decent enough days (or, at least, that something positive has happened during it) and that you get some decent rest tonight.

Morning everyone

Hope today is a better day for us all!

Morning!

I hope so too. Although I have a psychologist phonecall at 1pm so could go either way for me

How are you this morning Beckie?

I'm ok thanks
Just remembered they're having a professionals meeting about me today with cmht and ed team. Cpn said he'll call today or tomorrow about the outcome. I don't hold out that much hope of him actually calling though XD

I hope your appointment goes ok!

Hope the meeting goes ok / results in an outcome you would be happy with and isn't messed up by your incompetent cpn. And that he actually gets back to you!

Thanks.

Just trying to work out what to have for breakfast etc. Need to do my peak flow before taking my inhaler but I knocked my peak flow meter under the bed and don't have the energy to go searching for it and then clean off the inevitable dust. So trying to get energy to do that first.

Thanks!
They're gonna see what the ED team think about being discharged from cmht.
The cmht all agree i don't need to be under them anymore.

Fair enough. Take it at your own pace!

Possible freedom from incompetent cpn sounds promising. Although if you hadn't a decent con CMHT might be helpful. Will you still get med reviews if you get discharged?

Have eaten and am now drinking coffee. Slow morning this morning

I don't really need them anymore
As long as i take my meds, I'm pretty much fine, psychosis and mood wise.
Every appointment with any of them, not just cpn, is basically 'yeah I'm ok'
I do hear voices most of the day and sometimes see stuff but i have to get on with life. They're always gonna be there!

Will probably have med reviews with GP. They do them every so often anyway.

Sometimes slow is necessary!

Well seeing stuff but being able to cope with it while not ideal sounds manageable and being at a point where you take your meds and can manage is massive progress compared to where you used to be.

Fair.

I have rescued the peak flow meter and done most of my morning meds and my inhaler. Just got nasal spray to do after sinus rinse and iron tablet to take mid morning.

It's still 4 and a half hours until my appointment. Why did I have to wake up so early???!!!

Yeah I'm used to it now!
Can't stay stuck in the house being tormented by them forever!
Work has helped a great deal tbh.
Thank you :)

I feel you on the waking up too early thing!
Hate having to wait for stuff!

Work does sound like it's been really good for you.

I knew you would understand. I feel like I am already stuck in waiting mode and am struggling to focus on things.

It really has!

Totally get that. It's awful!
I'm just listening to music and doing theory mock tests

I might listen some music. Might help me out. Thanks for making me think of it.

Hopefully it helps!

Listening to Linkin Park. It helps.

Excellent choice!

I am listening to Lowborn

How on brand of both of us XD

I hope the appointments go well for you both today, and excellent shout on the music front - I also chose Linkin Park for a while yesterday. :D Agreed that work sounds like it's been a really positive thing for you Beckie, which is lovely to see (as long as you're not running yourself into the ground and looking after yourself enough to be there!).

It only took me 2 hours to convince myself to get up and start working today. I've supposedly been working for an hour and a half but actually just trying to get out of bed. I'm not even dressed, but I am now at my desk and will do a bit of work before therapy in an hour. Hope you all have a decent day.

Morning people.