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*Hugs Lia* I'm sorry you feel that way Hun :( Anything I can do to help?
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*curls up in a ball* can i die now please?
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*hugs lia* what happened hun? Sorry you are feeling so poorly. Around if you need to talk.
*hugs mark* how r u doing? *hugs crimson* no, hun. you can't die. what's wrong? |
i hurt on a physical and an emotional level. i am now on an rx to block acid production in my stomach and if it doesn't work i'll have ulcers. i can't have caffeine, alcohol, anything (food or drink) that's acidic at all, milk or fruit for 2 weeks. i have to keep going to work and doing my job when all i wanna do is lay here and cry.
*hugs Laura* |
*hugs everyone in here tightly*
*puts some goodies on the table* I give up. Ffs, I don't care. Why should anyone care? All my "friends" now just want and tell me to be back on my meds that I stopped taking long ago. Whatevr. I can handle it. I hope. |
*Hugs Crimson* I'm here if you need me :)
*Hugs Lia* *Hugs Laura* *Hugs Matt* |
*Hugs Laura, Crimson, Matt and Mark*
Nothing happened exactly, I was just sitting in a B&B in Wales with my friend, we were on our laptops and chatting and BAM! I was hit by a bus. I joke. But a really **** mood came on. For no good reason. It's every day. For three years. The best way I can think to describe what it feels like it you know when Ron Weasley wears that horcrux in the Harry Potter books/films, and it makes him see the whole world in such a dark and twisted way. Everything that someone says, every glance is a jeer, a criticism and he just gets so angry, for no rational reason. And at the same time it talks to me, makes him believe all his worst fears and hate himself. And there's a dementor there too, following me around. It's always lurking in the corner, so even when I'm happy I can't fully just BE happy. There's always the weight on my shoulders. Half the time, I feel like I'm being eaten up from the inside out, so I am getting gradually emptier, but it still hurts. And I'm just so tired, of everything. I don't think it's normal. |
Hi how is everyone? I'v not been in here for a while, although i have still been on ryl.
*Hugs Morpheus* *Hugs Mark* *Hugs Lia* *Hugs Matt* *Hugs Laura* *Hugs Jay* *Hugs Crimson* |
*Hugs Ian* Hey, I explained up there ^ How are you? I haven't been here in ages either, I technically left, but I'm crap at leaving. I hate goodbyes too much, I always end up returning. Bodes well for uni. Anyway, ramble over.
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*Squishes Lia* I know the feeling Hun ( although not the HP reference :P ) I'm here should you need to talk :)
*Hugs Matt* |
Feelings so alone n scared...
I knew i was enough so y try n make me feel like i was, just to drop me from a greater height when u decide that im not enough... Scared of myself and what i want to do Sorry |
*cuddles lia and anyone else who wants*
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*Hugs Needhelp*
*Hugs Heather* How're you? |
*shrug*
how're u mark? |
Coping Heather , Just about *Hugs*
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*Hugs Heather, Mark and Needhelp*
Needhelp, I don't know what happened, so I don't know what advice to give, but I do know the feeling. Try and do something distracting that you like. Reading perhaps, or watching something pointless on TV. |
*hugs all*
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*hugs all and puts brownies on the table*
Things haven't gotten any better... in fact they feel like they are getting worse again. I would like to give up, but I can't. Sigh. So everyday I get to go through all of this in my head... oh so fun it is XD |
*Hugs Crimson*
*Hugs Matt* |
*Night Time Hugs My Wardies*
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As the above post *Hugs* :)
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*huggles everyone*
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*Huggles Laura*
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I went on my bike for the first time since the accident yesterday. I only managed 2.5 miles and had to stop for 10 mins as i felt all dizzy. I rode home and almost collapsed. Had to lay down for an hour or so after as i felt so dreadful. Now i didnt sleep, i feel so tired and i cant seem to put my finger on just how i feel but all i can say is its liek a deep exhaustion.
Ive promised to go to the gym twice a week and im suppoosed to go today and i can barely get dressed. Im trying though and its a start i guess. I just wish recovery wasnt so ****ing hard. Its so unfair and painful. I feel the effects of illness so much more now than when i was really bad. I guess it proves just how much it takes over your life. *burps on everyone* http://www.addictinggames.com/life-s...thepenguin.jsp |
*hugs mark* how r u doing?
*hugs matthew (if okay?)* Good for you for getting back on your bike! That's super important. An injury can make the effects of illness a lot worse... you will start feeling better. Just takes time and patience... something I struggle with when it comes to MH issues heh. I hope you can make it to the gym, but if you can't, don't beat yourself up about it. Give yourself a little bit to get back on track. I'm Laura, by the way, I don't think we've ever been introduced :-) |
*Hugs Matt* Hi I'm Mark :) Getting on your bike seems a big step , Thats great!
*Hugs Laura* I'm tired (7am Kick off anyone ? hehe) but feel okay otherwise :) |
I would like to take sanctuary in this virtual ward....
if that is okay... it would be lovely. I have all my own blankets and pillows and I promise I won't cause trouble... *sneaks into the corner and curls up* |
*Waves to Mouise* Hey , I'm Mark :)
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*hugs mousie if ok* welcome I'm Crimson. :)
*burps back on Matthew (always was a bit of a tomboy :D )* I'm proud of you for getting back on your bike and while it may not seem much to you 2.5 miles is nothing to sneeze at! *hugs* you'll get there... babysteps will help! *huggles Mark and Laura* |
Thank. I'm ok with hugs. *waves back to Mark and accepts hug from Crimson*
I just need some place where I can breath... this seems like the right place. Thank you *inhale... exhale* |
*Hugs Crimson*
*Hugs Mouise* |
Right , Sad News I'm afraid :(
Oliver has been put on Section 3 in Hospital . Basically this means they'll hold him for 6 more months :( I'm happy to pass on anything anyone has to say to him , although bear in mind that it's my Sisters 29th today and I'll be at my parents so will be sporadicically online this evening . |
*curls up in corner*
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*Squishes Heather* whats up hun?
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Oliver *Hugs* All The Wardies :)
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just feel all blahhhh
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hugs everyone
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curls up cries. had a really rough day, just want to hurt. ffs really had enough.
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Sorry i havent been around for the last few days ...my dad killed himself and we are dealing with that and the fact my mum needs a lot of support for her cancer treatment.
I should be able to come on line most of the time at my mums and when am going back and forward everyday to feed my cats. I hope that everyone is ok and that you all keep safe |
*Hugs Jill*
*Hugs Heather* *Hugs Louise* *Waves to Ella* I'm sorry to hear about your Dad , PM me if you need . |
going to admit myself here. i need a staight jacket to protect me from myself.
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*Waves to Rain Keeper* Hi , I'm Mark , are hugs okay?
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*feeling a little better today.. so i think i will hand out some free hugs!!!*
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dont think i can hug...i am a little tied up....stupid humor.thanks
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haha.. nice.. took me a bit to get it.
well i can just give you a hug and you can just sit there still if you would prefer... lol |
*Hugs Mousie*
*Hugs Rain Keeper* :) |
*hugs everyone* How are you all today?
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*Hugs Crimson* I'm stressed but feel okay othwise , How're you?
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hugs everyone
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*hugs Mark and Louise*
I'm so many different things all jumbled together that its a bit crazy but mostly okay. |
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