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frenchhorn 29-07-2011 10:48 PM

*hugs laura and Crimson*

they know a bit, cos I had to tell them I was in a psych ward last year and they know I have BPD, depression and anxiety, but they think I'm ok and they don't know how bad it is, like the fact I've been ODing and self harming a lot and they don't know about the paranoia and voices.
sorry rambling now, shall shut up sorry


Laura2.0 29-07-2011 10:51 PM

*cuddles Oliver* do you have to tell them all or could you just tell them that you are not feeling well and that there is a lot of stuff going on for you?

frenchhorn 29-07-2011 10:53 PM

I could, but my mum would want to know everything, she is like that and in a way I want her to know everything, but I'm scared I don't want to worry her.

PoisonedApple 29-07-2011 11:41 PM

*hugs Oliver* As a parent I can tell you that she worries anyway. Maybe knowing would make worry less so to speak... Know what you're against rather than worrying about everything?

Hmmm... not sure I typed that out right... Sorry
*curls up*

frenchhorn 29-07-2011 11:58 PM

*hugs Crimson* thanks for the advice.

shadowedsoul 30-07-2011 12:01 AM

erm nevermind.

PoisonedApple 30-07-2011 12:25 AM

*hugs Jill*
You can PM if you need sweets...

*hugs Oliver*

frenchhorn 30-07-2011 12:28 AM

*hugs Jill and Crimson* I'm here if anyone needs to talk

shadowedsoul 30-07-2011 12:44 AM

thank you both, but i dont even know were to begin. my heads a mess tonight really loud and wont shut up. hugs both oliver and crimson back

PoisonedApple 30-07-2011 12:55 AM

have you tried an r/v thread? mine doesn't always make sense or have an order to it but it's a place to let things out whichever way they want to come out... not really used for ranting or venting so much as letting go...

PoisonedApple 30-07-2011 01:13 AM

*hugs all*
I'm off for home for now...
Luv you guys!

one_step_closer 30-07-2011 12:21 PM

*hugs everyone*

flutterby butterfly 30-07-2011 09:39 PM

hey guys, how's everyone doing?

one_step_closer 30-07-2011 09:45 PM

Not so good :( I'm feeling very suicidal and annoyed that I can't overdose tomorrow because people are coming to tile my kitchen. Then I have something on every day until next Sunday so i'm just going to have to wait.

How are you, Mara?

flutterby butterfly 30-07-2011 10:17 PM

:sad: I suppose that's a good thing technically? Though I do understand why/how it's annoying. **huggles** Anything in particular getting you down or you just feel crap? I'm around for a bit if you need to talk m'love.

I'm ok I suppose, struggling with some rather severe thoughts, but think I'll be ok. I'm really pissed off because one of my rats got out of the cage last night - some are fine & will be ok out of the cage & go back when they want to, but this one's a new rescue & I can't catch him & it's really stressing me out. That, coupled with 2 very ill rats is leading me to a total break down. I feel a bit sad, I've been off sick for a while now & my team (only 5 of us) invited my ex-manager (who's on maternity) to a bbq on Friday on facebook, but they didn't ask me & it makes me feel really shitty, is that bad/weird? I probably wouldn't have gone anyway as I'm crap with people atm, but I feel forgotten. Nothing new there I suppose... (sorry for the rant, didn't realize so much was bothering me!)

shadowedsoul 30-07-2011 11:05 PM

hugs all and curls up

frenchhorn 30-07-2011 11:26 PM

*hugs Jill, Mara, Lindsay and Crimson*

I'm feeling really suicidal, but can't OD as my mum and sister are coming on monday for the week then I'm going home with them for a few days after. I wish I was dead more than anything, while cycling to the gym I kept wishing a car would hit me and kill me and this isn't the first time I have thought of something like that, I think about it a lot, but havn't told any medical professionals about it, cos I'm scared of how they will react.
sorry guys I'll shut up now


Cazki 30-07-2011 11:41 PM

*Hugs Jill*

*Hugs Oliver* im sorry your feeling that way, you really should tell the proffessionals, you need to be honest with them. I realise you are scared but if you dont tell them they cant help you.

*Hugs Lindsay*

*Hugs Mara if ok?*

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Crimson*

frenchhorn 30-07-2011 11:45 PM

*hugs Ian* how are you?

risenfromperdition 31-07-2011 06:54 AM

*hugs everyone*

one_step_closer 31-07-2011 09:08 AM

*giant hugs*

Laura2.0 31-07-2011 11:17 AM

*hugs all*

I'm visiting Moni for 3 weeks and I dunno if I have the time to come online a lot.
Hope you are all ok.

one_step_closer 31-07-2011 11:22 AM

I hope you have a good time, Laura. Take care.

frenchhorn 31-07-2011 03:04 PM

*hugs all*

one_step_closer 31-07-2011 03:36 PM

How are you, Oliver?

frenchhorn 31-07-2011 05:54 PM

I'm feeling stressed cos I can't OD, I feel like I'm addicted to ODing, which is bad.
how are you Lindsay?

Louise 31-07-2011 06:00 PM

hugs oliver and lindsay.

frenchhorn 31-07-2011 06:14 PM

*hugs Louise* how are you?

Louise 31-07-2011 06:16 PM

*hugs oliver* I could be better :(

frenchhorn 31-07-2011 06:24 PM

*hugs Louise* I'm here if you want to talk

Louise 31-07-2011 06:28 PM

Hugs oliver thanks, same goes for you.

I think I am stressed a lot at the moment. which is making me run down.

frenchhorn 31-07-2011 06:29 PM

I'm sorry your feeling stressed, is there something you can do which isn't very stressful and can take your mind off it

Louise 31-07-2011 06:33 PM

been making jewellery and being on here trying to distract though it is hard it just scares me sometimes.

frenchhorn 31-07-2011 06:35 PM

making jewellery sounds like a good distraction. I like making models, crafty stuff is fun.

Louise 31-07-2011 06:37 PM

i have disability trouble problem so i find it hard to work. but i make jewellery to raise money for charities.

frenchhorn 31-07-2011 06:39 PM

thats a really good thing to do, I'm sure your jewellery is great :)

Louise 31-07-2011 06:42 PM

i am not sure. what kind of models do you make.

frenchhorn 31-07-2011 06:44 PM

I make aeroplanes and have made one of the Mary Rose, a Tudor ship.

Louise 31-07-2011 06:53 PM

that sounds really cool. :)

one_step_closer 31-07-2011 07:18 PM

I'm useless at crafty things. I hope you both feel better soon. I know what you mean about feeling like you're addicted to overdosing, Oliver. I feel that way too. I'm constantly planning when I can take my next overdose and am now having to be sneaky because i'm prescribed my medication daily to stop me from overdosing.

frenchhorn 31-07-2011 07:30 PM

*hugs Lindsay*

one_step_closer 31-07-2011 08:29 PM

I think that I won't go to my voluntary work on Thursday so that I can overdose. Hopefully my OT won't find out.

frenchhorn 31-07-2011 08:31 PM

*hugs Lindsay* please be careful with the overdosing. I'm always here if you need to talk. *cuddles*

Doikers 01-08-2011 04:54 PM

*Hugs all My Wardies*
I have returned from my long weekend with Felicia , it was AMAZING , I Watched her onto her train today and Our hearts both broke a little ,
I'll be back later . A little overwhelmed.
How have you all been?

one_step_closer 01-08-2011 07:31 PM

*hugs Mark* I'm glad you had a good time.

Doikers 01-08-2011 08:26 PM

*Hugs Lindsay* Good? is was fan ****ing tastic and we get 3 nights only , I can't fight tears much longer

frenchhorn 01-08-2011 08:40 PM

*hugs mark* I'm so glad you both had a geat time

*hugs Lindsay*

I won't be on much over the next few days as my mum and sister are here so I'm doing stuff with them.

Doikers 01-08-2011 09:21 PM

*Hugs Oliver* I missed you dude :)

one_step_closer 01-08-2011 09:30 PM


Hope you get on ok with your Mum and Sister, Oliver.

The crisis team were supposed to phone me last night but didn't, yet again.

Doikers 01-08-2011 09:40 PM

*Squishes Lindsay*

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