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Doikers 26-07-2011 09:15 AM

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Crimson*

*Hugs Ian* Thanks!

*Hugs Oliver* Thankyou too*

*Hugs Mara*

*Hugs Laura*

Doikers 26-07-2011 12:45 PM

I am super excited , getting stressed , hating this heat, and basically getting overwhelmed , Not to mention worried sick about my Best Friend Hannah who is staying with her parents as she feels so low and worried about Felicia who is in North Wales and Left her meds in London .... Could use a hug :/

one_step_closer 26-07-2011 01:05 PM

*hugs Mark* That's a lot of emotions.

Doikers 26-07-2011 01:11 PM

*Hugs Lindsay* Thanks for the Hugs , It is , I am struggling , Hopefully when Felicia and I meet it will all melt away , I am not looking forward to travelling. Only once before have I taking a train alone before and that was at a bad time in my life

one_step_closer 26-07-2011 01:23 PM

Is there something you can do to distract yourself on the train? Like listen to some music or read a book?

Doikers 26-07-2011 01:31 PM

I dare not put my Ipod on in case I miss my stop, Might take a easy to focus on book though, might be able to text and stuff too :)

Louise 26-07-2011 01:44 PM

hugs everyone

Doikers 26-07-2011 03:39 PM

*Hugs Louise* How are you?

one_step_closer 26-07-2011 04:55 PM

How are you, Louise?

Louise 26-07-2011 05:27 PM

so so not been great this past couple of days

one_step_closer 26-07-2011 05:30 PM

Do you want to talk about it?

PoisonedApple 26-07-2011 07:15 PM

*hugs everyone*
Hope your trip goes well, Mark. Is there a way Felicia can pick up a new refill on her meds over there?


I have come to the conclusion after having my ex's fiance call me this morning that I am a terrible person... But I can't keep from laughing about the whole thing... O.O

one_step_closer 26-07-2011 07:30 PM

Do you want to talk about what happened? *hugs*

Doikers 26-07-2011 07:35 PM

*Hugs Crimson* You are not a terrible person ! <3

*Hugs Lindsay*

PoisonedApple 26-07-2011 07:58 PM

*hugs Mark and Lindsay*

*shrugs* I think poorly of the fiance... have since before they were engaged. I'll leave that part of it alone, if I elaborated you'd see my point on being horrible.
Long story short... He owes about $18,000 in child support and the state he moved to is prosecuting him for felony level refusal to pay it. He has a court date next month apparently. She called thinking I had sent them after him when I didn't. She threw a fit saying how she was disabled and didn't know if she could live without him for 6 months... (same way ya did before you met him last year maybe?) I filled her in that all the papers he said needed turned in by me he had a copy of and child support up here has 2 copies of. And she called me at work to address her issues. -While I was covering the front desk- CLASSY *insert dripping sarcasm here*
And I think I'm losing it because the whole thing from her, the situation, child support refusing to acknowledge the paper work, etc etc etc is F-ing hilarious to me. Like I burst into giggle fits to where I laugh so hard I'm crying out of no where about all this. And I don't feel bad about their problems being funny to me. But then I feel bad that I don't feel bad...
I am a complicated individual... *sigh*

How are you guys doing?

Laura2.0 26-07-2011 08:06 PM

*hugs Crimson*
*hugs Ian*
*hugs Oliver*
*hugs Mara*
*hugs Laura*
*hugs Mark*
*hugs Lindsay*
*hugs Louise*

one_step_closer 26-07-2011 08:18 PM

*hugs everyone*

The crisis team were supposed to phone me at 7 but they didn't. I'm not going to phone them. If they want to abandon me then that's their choice.

Laura2.0 26-07-2011 08:25 PM

*hugs Lindsay*

one_step_closer 26-07-2011 08:35 PM

How are you, Laura?

Laura2.0 26-07-2011 08:48 PM

I'm trying to wrap my mind around the fact that I'm going inpatient in 4 weeks and that they have me go to the closed ward first. All I know is that I'm scared and I want to injure so badly.

How are you?

Doikers 26-07-2011 08:51 PM

*Hugs Laura* Do you HAVE to go impatient?

*Hugs Crimson* You are lovely , end of.

*Hugs Lindsay*

Laura2.0 26-07-2011 08:57 PM

*hugs Mark* no, it's voluntary. I'm forcing myself. I'm forcing myself to get better, but really I don't know if I want to get better. I'm forcing myself to talk in therapy. I don't think I can force myself to cooperate there the whole day.

one_step_closer 26-07-2011 09:02 PM

Recovery is hard sometimes, i'm glad that you're forcing yourself to do the things that you think might be beneficial for you. What do you think will be difficult about cooperating for the whole day?

I have my voluntary work tomorrow and I really don't want to go. It's so exhausing to put on a face and I feel distracted and like i'm going to cry.

Laura2.0 26-07-2011 09:12 PM

I really want to injure and purge and I don't want to be stopped, or maybe I do want to be stopped but I can't ask for help. I don't want to cooperate and I'm not strong enough to force myself all the time.

Is it the whole day tomorrow?

one_step_closer 26-07-2011 09:31 PM

What do you want to get from injuring and purging?

It's from 11 to 4 tomorrow.

Laura2.0 26-07-2011 09:45 PM

I don't really know what I want to get from it.
I don't know why I injure most of the time. I do know that I purge when I'm feeling full and/or fat.

That's 5 hours. Seems like a long time now, but it is probably going to be over much faster than it seems like now. Don't check your watch too many times, then it wont feel as long. You can do this.

PoisonedApple 26-07-2011 09:51 PM

*cuddles Mark* You make me smile :)
*hugs Lindsay* What kind of volunteer work is it?
*hugs Laura* Proud of you for helping yourself. Is there any way that since it is voluntary you could start on a non closed ward? It seems to be the biggest snag in your... reluctance/willingness/ comfort/whatever word is right cuz I can't find it.

Laura2.0 26-07-2011 09:59 PM

*hugs Crimson* I don't think the closed ward is the thing that bothers me. I guess I kind of prefer it that way, they said that I'm going to have less therapy there, that's relaxter I think. It bothers me that there are people going to watch me all the time.

PoisonedApple 26-07-2011 10:02 PM

True but would they watch you as much in an open ward?or watch you less?
~I could be wrong... kind of a feeling in the dark for the light switch kind of deal for me.

Laura2.0 26-07-2011 10:06 PM

I don't know if they would watch me as much on the open ward. All I know is that I would just quit and go home if they want me to work on some things. I wont be as tempted to leave on the closed ward.

PoisonedApple 26-07-2011 10:08 PM

Ah, I see. Hadn't really thought of that. Good point.

Doikers 26-07-2011 10:11 PM

Hugs Crimson*

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Lindsay*

Thats all I can cope with right now

Laura2.0 26-07-2011 10:16 PM

*hugs Crimson* you are awesome
*hugs Mark* what's going on?

risenfromperdition 26-07-2011 10:16 PM

*sits with mark*
just think, its already almost wednesday there [which i hate you for but nerr :P]

Laura2.0 26-07-2011 10:26 PM

*hugs Heather*

Doikers 26-07-2011 10:46 PM

*Hugs Laura* I'm meeting Felicia on Friday :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :)

*Squishes Heather*

frenchhorn 26-07-2011 11:54 PM

*hugs Crimson* your not horrible at all, your a lovely kind person.

*hugs mark* yay its nearly friday, I bet your super excited.

*hugs Lindsay* I hope the crisis team don't abandon you, although if your one is anything like mine then they probably will abandon you.

*hugs Laura* I hope the inpatient helps when it comes along

*hugs Heather* how are you?

I really, really badly want to OD, I am so close to walking to my local 24hr supermarkt and buying pills right now.

PoisonedApple 27-07-2011 12:21 AM

*hugs Mark, Lindsay, Laura, Heather and Oliver*
Yay! 2 more days Mark! I am so excited for you guys!

The crisis teams by you guys seem like they aren't really there for you so much as to gather a paycheck by doing the least amount of work possible by helping only those that don't need it :(

*cuddles Oliver* Please don't. I don't want anything bad to happen to you.

frenchhorn 27-07-2011 12:34 AM

*hugs Crimson*

Cazki 27-07-2011 12:53 AM

*Hugs Crimson*

*Hugs Mark*

*Hugs Oliver*

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Lindsay*

*Hugs Louise*

*Hugs Heather*

YodaBearInterrupted 27-07-2011 06:07 AM


Being pummeled emotionally this evening... I can't take it

Emo 27-07-2011 06:27 AM

Morning everyone .
Really want drink and drugs at the moment , but instead am drinking coffee.
Thankfully we have no money to get anything , but on Friday we get money and that could cause problems

Doikers 27-07-2011 09:24 AM

*Hugs Oliver*

*Hugs Crimson*

*Hugs Ian*

*Hugs Matt*

*Hugs DarkAsylum if okay*

Laura2.0 27-07-2011 01:57 PM

*hugs Oliver*
*hugs Crimson*
*hugs Ian*
*hugs Mark*
*hugs Matt*
*hugs DarkAsylum*

how are you all?

Doikers 27-07-2011 02:30 PM

*Hugs Laura* I feel okay hun , 2 days Until I meet Felicia!!!!!!!!!!!! *Boings about*

Laura2.0 27-07-2011 02:48 PM

*hugs Mark* that's great!

misskitty112 27-07-2011 02:52 PM

*pops in and leaves hugs*
I love you guys :)

Doikers 27-07-2011 04:59 PM

*Hugs Laura* Yes!

*Hugs Felicia* <3

PoisonedApple 27-07-2011 05:46 PM

*hugs Matt*
*hugs Oliver*
*offers hugs to Angel*
*hugs Mark*
*hugs Felicia*
*hugs Laura*
*hugs Ian*

I am soooooooooo tired this morning. Hopefully my coffee will kick in soon (and if not hopefully my coworkers didn't take my 5 hr energy from the fridge).
How is everyone?

one_step_closer 27-07-2011 07:27 PM

*hugs everyone*

My voluntary work was easier today thankfully. I'm not back in until Monday. Tomorrow i'm seeing my psychologist for the last time because he is moving to a different area :(

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