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wildly insane 24-05-2010 08:12 AM

Go Kahlia, 21 months is awesome, we should throw a ward party for you :o)
gotta go catch a plane
take care everyone

katnovia 24-05-2010 08:38 AM

*sniffles and hides in a corner* I hate being alone. *rubs head* stupid headaches won't go away. Miss you all because I havn't managed to get on and spend some time here with you all.
take care everyone. I'll be about later, maybe, depends on family.

EDIT: congratulations on 21 months Kahlia! Go you!

Doikers 24-05-2010 08:58 AM

Way to go Kahlia ,21 Months is great!! :-D

Also Thankyou for everyone who said grats to me for my weekend S.I. free , it means tons :)
I'm back at my flat now and am all hot and it's not yet 9am hmmm hot day ahead methinks.


one_step_closer 24-05-2010 09:58 AM

*hugs everyone*

Doikers 24-05-2010 10:05 AM

*Hugs Lindsay*

MammaMia 24-05-2010 10:24 AM

*hugs everyone*

I feel sooooo ****. In every single way. Fantastic.

shadowedsoul 24-05-2010 10:46 AM

*Sneaks in and hides under a pile of blankets* I have had
enough really have. Can't do this anymore,can't go on
pretending this is okay any more.just want to break away
so badly,just wish it was possible to do right now,screw
waiting for a couple of months,feel very traped and I'm
sufocating. =\

one_step_closer 24-05-2010 10:56 AM

I'm sorry you're both struggling. I'm here if you need anything.

Scarletdreamer 24-05-2010 11:02 AM

Congratulations on 21 months SI-free (close enough right now anyway!!), Kahlia!!! *does the happy dance just for you* lol... and also for the advocate meeting going so well!! *tosses confetti in the air* And I agree with Hannah, we should have a ward party. :D *cuddles*

And Mark, congratulations again on the SI-free weekend, you did better than I did. *dances with* Am proud of you, if that means anything at all to you. :) *cuddles*

Kat, I'm sorry that you've such a headache and can't focus much. Hope you feel better soon. *huggles gently*

Laura, what's up, sweetie? what's got you so angry? *hands you some old newspapers to shred* It's okay to post angrily in the ward, I know that I have; the ward's a safe place for you to talk about what's going on in your life. I mean, obviously if you've got a problem with a member (minus those who cause trouble on purpose in here, like the fight awhile ago) then talk about it to them via PM or whatever, but that's pretty much common sense. :) Anyway. *cuddles gently after you've calmed down some*

Heather, how're you doing this morning? *cuddles*

Julie, what's up, love? *squishes*

Hels, I'm sorry you feel so ****. :( Also sorry I disappeared last night without saying g'night... *cuddles*

Lindsay, how are you doing now? *huggles*

Jill, love, I'm sorry that you're feeling trapped/suffocated. :( Those are not fun feelings to have and I can definitely relate!! *cuddles gently* Want to talk about it at all?

Hannah, I hope you enjoy your trip!! :) *cuddles* Have fun with your boyfriend, you're going to meet up with him, right? Sorry if I got that wrong... :-S

I think I got everyone who's recently replied... if not I'm sorry & I didn't leave you out intentionally!!

*hides back in her hole* :(

one_step_closer 24-05-2010 11:04 AM

I'm doing ok thanks.

How are you? *hugs*

Scarletdreamer 24-05-2010 12:00 PM

Glad you're doing okay. :) And also glad that you didn't use the "f word" ... hehe.

I'm alright, I guess. Still sick. Still exhausted. Really don't want to go to work. :-S Hate going to work (internship, not really work, but easier to call it that). Ughhh... :'( I don't mind the job really but I have to revise my goals statement form so they are more psychology oriented... my current goals statement was "insufficient" according to my campus supervisor. So yeah. Am NOT happy about that. :'(

*sigh* :'(

Just want to curl up in a ball and cry. Really don't want to go anywhere today. :'(

jonikd 24-05-2010 12:29 PM

Oliver seeing someone new is scary, it means change and letting go of some of your beliefs to make room for more healthy ones. Its understandable that you're reacting the way you are, just enjoy it for what it is and try not to overthink it OK? Its nice to see you back here,I missed you.

April, honey, I read your RV *cuddles gently* I don't have any words of wisom for you but I understand and I care. There will come a day when you don't feel the need to hide so often, you need to believe that. Hope work goes ok and you feel a bit better. Get out there and do it hun, you can do this 'k?

Laura - keep doing everything right babe, it will happen. I can totally relate to what you're saying, its so frustrating at times...rahh..but you are a special person that deserves happiness and I know you will reach it with some patience and continuation of the hard work you're putting in. Noone said it would be easy, just that it would be worth it *hugs*

Helen, sweetie, there's just so much still happening for you, I wish for a stable time for you so you can continue to make progress where you have before.

Kahlia 21 months is outstanding, and gives me such hope that makes me believe maybe I'll get back to those kind of timeframes. The meeting outcome sounds like a good one for you, fingers crossed, you're a smart caring person who deserves some help finally.

Jill, hope you're feeling a little better. That suffocating feeling is horrible hun and I truly hope its lifted for you.

Mark! You've been a bit quiet hun. It is a big achievement getting through the weekend SI free,I find the weekends the hardest, and haven't managed one without SI for a while, so I understand what a big feat it is. Congratulations *hugs proudly*

Julie,honey, please eat a wee bit love, it's OK *cuddles gently*

*whispers* Kat hopefully you're fast asleep and tomorrow will dawn rosier with more hope for you.

Hugs Louise & Hannah & Heather & Lindsay & Emma

Wonders where Crimson, Hayley & Nicole are at.

I am off to bed, ni night everyone

MammaMia 24-05-2010 01:15 PM

:'( :'( I'm such a ****. She lost her baby & her best friend walks on out on her. :'( :'( :'(

Scarletdreamer 24-05-2010 01:22 PM

*holds Hels* What happened, sweetie? And you are not that, you're a sweet person who's going through a hell of a lot of stuff right now. :(

JK, pleasant dreams, sweetheart. *tucks you up into your cosy ward bed* :) Hope tomorrow goes okay for you... and thank you for doing individual replies, I know how much energy that takes!! (you didn't say how you were doing though *frown* hehe...)

So I found out that my bestie didn't go to church yesterday because she WAS avoiding me. She said so in a text. :'( I texted her back and said "Didn't you think that I would be glad to see you since we didn't get to hang out on Sat.? am I really that fearsome/annoying?" since she had said that she didn't come to church because she knew she'd "be in trouble for working on Saturday," which is when we had had plans to hang out all day. Instead, she agreed to work at an auction last minute, and told me, so our plans got cancelled and I had a crappy day. :( But seriously, am I REALLY that annoying?! :'( That hurt.

I don't know. See, this just goes to show that I really am NOT a nice person. :crying:

MammaMia 24-05-2010 01:38 PM

I'm giving her one final chance, she's already had too many. I must be a fool :'( Why isn't leaving simple :'( :'( :'(

Doikers 24-05-2010 01:39 PM

*Hugs Helen*

*Hugs April* you are so a nice person ! And it means tons to me that you are proud of me :)

Scarletdreamer 24-05-2010 02:13 PM

*cuddles Hels* I'm sorry you're feeling so awful... is there anything I can do to help?? (probably not as usual but worth asking anyhow!!) *holds you gently*

*cuddles Mark* I'm glad that it means a lot that I'm proud of you. :) And I am NOT a nice person, I may come across as one but apparently my wrath is to be feared... heh. :'( And she still hasn't responded to my last text............ :crying: I feel so damn FULL OF FAIL!!!!!! :'(

MammaMia 24-05-2010 03:13 PM

Make today end or re-start but certain things don't happen? :'( :'(

JMy best friend thinks my body's going into shock or somethng..

Scarletdreamer 24-05-2010 03:41 PM

*holds Hels some more* I wish I could do more... :(

I came home from work because I'm so sick. There's a "germophobe" there which I can't blame as she has a very young child (dunno how young, must be pretty young yet though, not in school). I feel "shitastic" as I told Jarrod when I walked in the door... :'( Still have to get stuff done but at least I'm at home...


MammaMia 24-05-2010 03:43 PM

*holds april* hope you feel better soon

Scarletdreamer 24-05-2010 03:47 PM

*cuddles* And I hope that you feel better soon, too. :( Sorry, I didn't mean for that post to be all about me...

MammaMia 24-05-2010 04:06 PM

It's okay sweetie, I would make more of my posts about myself too, but I can't talk for crying so much atm.

I really miss my daughter :(

shadowedsoul 24-05-2010 04:37 PM

Thanks for the hugs guys, hmm it's hard to explain I was
off for a week from work.went to vist some freinds had a
brilliant time,it's was crazy drinking taking drugs just
having a blast. Now I'm home and I feel trapped and feel
like I'm suffocating,noithing feels worth it I'm just going
throught the actions not really giving a sh*t.if that makes
sence at all.I just want to dissapear of back there,don't
want to deal with this crap anymore.

Doikers 24-05-2010 04:45 PM

*Hugs Shadowedsoul*

PoisonedApple 24-05-2010 04:58 PM


Yeah, Crimson, I'm Eastern timezone... what timezone is Runetotem in, do you know?
i'm not sure... i think it's 3 hrs ahead of me... will check later and see... sorry i wasn't there much this weekend.


want chinchillas but dont they like wreak ur house lil i love them i think there the cutest
wreak or wreck? either way no. i have mine litter box trained and i change their boxes every week. they're caged and only have out time when in areas they can't get into stuff that could hurt em. etc etc. i'm not up for telling more right now but chinchillaclub has a good forum with a lot of nice people with lots of exp with chins.


*hugs Crimson* glad I turned it into slightly plainer English, I did try but genetics is notoriously difficult to explain :P how are the kits today?
Houdini died this weekend. He'd been eating well and gaining good, filling out his frame better and i fed him his extra at 430 am then when i went out at 10 to get him he was gone. Explained it to the kids, G took it the worst. She cried for a long time. A's first answer to burying him was 'we can't leave him outside!' then asking when he'll wake up for her to play with him... she's 3 and he fit in one of her hands. she loved him most because "he's my size". We buried him and G wrote him a memorial on a <3 shaped paper and buried it with him. The other two are good though.

*sigh* I feel like **** today. I wanna just lay down and die. Gotta run down to cover the front desk. Oh yay... I think the sarcasm is palpable.

*edit* sorry so short... too many pages since i was here last

CrazyHayley 24-05-2010 06:11 PM

*goes around the ward catching up with everyone, giving appropriate huggles/waves/snacks/tuck-up in beds type things depending on the wardies needs!*

Wow, so much can happen in just under 36hours! So forgive me for not doing individual replies, but thanks to those who sent me hugs/cuddles/messages etc.

Anyhoo, luckily yesterday wasn't as bad as I had feared it would be, thank goodness, and so feeling slightly less stressed out but drained from it all, I decided it would be good for me to go to my Spiritualist church service and leave Eoghan at the pub! Church was uplifting and I get a message which was very positive, so it really helped.

I've been busy today, with a doctors appointment for a medication review - which I swear is just a waste of time - they asked me if I was still taking the same meds.."yes"...are you happy on them (and not as in asking if I'm emotionally happy if you get my meaning) ..."yes" ....there you go, I'll see you in another 6months. Oh well. Then I had to go and get my meds. I've cleaned my kitchen today and now I'm all caught up here and need to get my arse in gear as its Development circle at my spiritualist church tonight. I'm hoping for no tears again as I'm 'sane' but its been such an emotional past few days that I'm not too sure how it'll go..hey ho...

If I'm not back in here tonight, I'll make sure I log on in the morning to join in the party for Kahlia's 21month free milestone. Oly a few more hours to go for you Kahlia! yay!

SoMuchMore 24-05-2010 06:33 PM

*cuddles everyone*

I am totally flat today after i a very bad night. I'll catch up with individual replies later. Hope everyone is at least okay-ish.

xxjuliexx 24-05-2010 06:43 PM

*yawns and curls up* i gotta get up i have to go to aqua robics *yawns* have to get up

Doikers 24-05-2010 06:44 PM

*Hugs Crimson* I'm sorry Houdini died :(

*Hugs Hayley*Sounds like your Dr appointment was a waste of time . I hate that :S

*Hugs Laura*mmm I'm sorry you're so flat , look after yourself ok.

My Social worker DID come today , 3rd time lucky , he is coming with me on Thursday to my benefits medical I HAVE to have , it's to find out who's cheating the system and claiming benefits their not entitled too . I am Bricking it :S so anxious , and feel pre-judged , like someone is saying I'm conning the benfits grrr
My 2nd appointment with the volunteer buero went ok , her name is Anne , she is Super-nice and I was so anxious I was shaking and telling her all details of my life heh what I did on the weekend etc. When I get anxious I chatter , I hate uncomfy silences hmmm

Doikers 24-05-2010 06:45 PM

*Hugs Julie * Hi how are you ?

Pnuemonia[Blue] 24-05-2010 07:00 PM

*hides down a hole and cries*

Why? Why don't i have someone that can tell me what really happened? Why did I have to remember?

Scarletdreamer 24-05-2010 07:14 PM

Emma, sweet, what's up? *holds you gently and offers you some chamomile tea to help calm you* We're here if you want to talk...

Crimson, sorry Houdini died. :( That's so sad. A pet dying, especially a baby and one that you've taken such good care of, can be so painful. *cuddles* And dunno if you read, but my pally on Runetotem is level 20 now.

*cuddles Mark* I'm sorry you got so nervous with your volunteer bureau worker, but at least the appt went well and your SW showed up to!! Third time's lucky indeed... lol. How are you feeling now?

*cuddles Julie and Laura*

*cuddles/waves to everyone else*

I'm so beat. I am utterly exhausted and feel so bad and don't want to have to go in to work tomorrow, I have 35 surveys yet to enter and I'm so ****ing tired that I don't know I'll be able to do them or not. I really WANT today to count as a day of work but all I want to do is sleep. :'(

So damn over this. All of it. :'(

Doikers 24-05-2010 07:25 PM

How am I feeling ?, I took off my shirt (Wearing a T-shirt) and my arms are all exposed , I SO want to add scars , the urges are building :( looking at my own arms is triggering me for crying out loud :( sorry

Scarletdreamer 24-05-2010 07:52 PM

*cuddles Emma gently* I'm sorry, hon. I wish I knew something that would help... :(

Mark, love, don't cut if you can help it, you've gone a couple of days without... maybe put your shirt back on and then drink something cold or sit in front of a fan or something if you're really warm? I understand your own arms triggering you though, I'm triggered by mine and also by something that someone said a little while ago... :-S I really want to cut and know that I can get away with it when Jarrod's home because I did yesterday. :'( *holds both your hands so neither of us can cut* :)


PoisonedApple 24-05-2010 08:01 PM


Crimson, sorry Houdini died. :( That's so sad. A pet dying, especially a baby and one that you've taken such good care of, can be so painful. *cuddles* And dunno if you read, but my pally on Runetotem is level 20 now.
i missed that page. congrats. i'll have to try to get on runetotem soon. my silvermoon toon is lvl 21. dunno if i let ya know before. *sigh* gotta go do the court run since r is out again today.

Doikers 24-05-2010 08:02 PM

*Holds Aprils Hands* Thankyou April :)

MammaMia 24-05-2010 08:09 PM

*offers cuddles to all*

I feel so low, it's unreal, today's been really awful :( Thankfully my best friend is coming online at 9, need her so ,uch

Doikers 24-05-2010 08:10 PM

*Lets go of Aprils hands long enough to HUG Helen and re-holds Aprils hands*

Pnuemonia[Blue] 24-05-2010 08:11 PM

Tried to phone my bestfriend but her phone is off, really need to speak to her. Need her voice of reason and then how she turns the situation around to her - need my head to be focused on someone else.

Kitkat :) 24-05-2010 08:31 PM

Still in pain. This is ridiculous now.

Doikers 24-05-2010 08:37 PM

*Hugs for Emma and Kitkat if ok?*

Kitkat :) 24-05-2010 08:39 PM

Yeah that's fine (:
It's just my stomach is still hurting after those pills went missing... But its okay to hug me (:

MammaMia 24-05-2010 08:42 PM

Kat, I really think you should seek medical advice sweetheart =( Even if you did overdose on the pills, they will have long left your body now.

Kitkat :) 24-05-2010 08:44 PM

I don't know what to say though... Yeah, they would've left my system now, think it was on Wednesday or Tuesday that it happened but I'm still getting stomach pain...

MammaMia 24-05-2010 08:44 PM

Just explain that you think you may have taken an od & your stomach's been hurting since it happened?

Kitkat :) 24-05-2010 08:46 PM

Yeah... But I can't go without my Mum knowing, and she doesn't know that I may have taken them... She'd go nuts.

MammaMia 24-05-2010 08:46 PM

#You need to go swertie, even if's a nurse at college.

Kitkat :) 24-05-2010 08:51 PM

... I'll go after my exam tomorrow... Don't know if I'd need an appointment though.

Scarletdreamer 24-05-2010 08:53 PM

*is hurting, mentally/emotionally and physically* But so is everyone else...

*cuddles KitKat* I think you should seek medical advice as well... sorry I've not supported you throughout this, but just did not know what to say.

*cuddles Mark and keeps holding his hands so he can't SI* Feeling any better? or still triggered? (I'm still triggered :'( this whole business with my best friend is really messing with me...)

*cuddles Crimson* Grats on Lurial getting to 21!! That rocks. :D She's almost high enough level for my mage to play with her (my mage is level 30 :D). Hehe. WoW is such a good distraction - maybe we can play together on some server or another next weekend? or sometime soon anyway...

*cuddles Emma* I wish that I could help you feel better, love. :( Keep posting in here if you can... or maybe start an r/v thread if you don't already have one?

Damnit, itchy SI place... :(

Tried to take a nap but it didn't work. I don't know what I'll do now. I think I'm going to end up telling my supervisor that in all honesty I can't count today as a workday, as I haven't done and don't feel up to doing any work. :'( Stupid stupid me.

I need to make some phonecalls - to res and to that therapist - but I'm scared. :'( Terrified actually........... pathetically. :'(

*hides in a hole*

katnovia 24-05-2010 09:03 PM

*sneaks on, lurks reading and then buries self deeply in a hole, pulling a concrete slab over the top*

I wish I could help.

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