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xxjuliexx 19-05-2010 02:52 AM

ok i no thats a stupid reason to be in a bad mood

taz35 19-05-2010 02:52 AM

Aw crappy :( I've always disliked work, especially shifts in the middle of the day. If it helps, try thinking of the money and the things you can buy with it :) Some days, that's the only thing that keeps me going.

xxjuliexx 19-05-2010 02:54 AM

*curls up* it's only 3 and a half hours so it's hardly even worth it

xxjuliexx 19-05-2010 03:01 AM

i hate wearing wet clothes so i just wanna go sit in the rain and deal with it

lost in dreams 19-05-2010 04:27 AM

Just been left on my own again so would like to come and sit back in herre if thats OK. *crys scilently*

Kahlia1981 19-05-2010 04:51 AM

*huggles/waves at everybody*

Had good session with my psychiatrist. Yay.
Got medications that would normally cost me over $100 for $5.40 as I got them on a Hospital script at the Hospital Pharmacy.
My medications also got altered a bit which will reduce the amount of tablets I'm taking.
Hopefully this will make them easier to take at night.
My psychiatrist believed me about the DID and gave me some tips and some light at the end of the tunnel.

Now I just have to last the rest of the day . . . *sigh*

risenfromperdition 19-05-2010 05:00 AM

*leaves cuddles*
*curls up with teddy and sighs*

wildly insane 19-05-2010 08:09 AM

*huggles to all who want them*

yay kahlia I'm glad the psych appointment went well :)

*sigh* sorry guys the individual replies just aren't happening *feels rotten and selfish*

work is horrible I've just spent the last two days wanting to cry and surrounded by people so I have to pretend that everything's ok.

gotta go to work :(

Kahlia1981 19-05-2010 08:45 AM

*hugs Heather*
*hugs Hannah* - I'm really glad it (the psych appointment) went well too ... was really worried about it. Sorry things haven't been good.

Just watched a movie.
Now got some stuff to do.

Meh.

*hugs/waves at everyone*

xxjuliexx 19-05-2010 08:55 AM

*curls up small*

Doikers 19-05-2010 09:44 AM

* Hags Ward mates good morning , afternoon , night wherever they are*

My housing support worker is here in 17 minutes , Maybe he'll stop the power company sending debt recovery agency's after me :S

xxjuliexx 19-05-2010 10:14 AM

*sniffles*

Doikers 19-05-2010 11:25 AM

Hey Julie :) How are you this evening ?

xxjuliexx 19-05-2010 11:48 AM

i'm fine... mhmm

Doikers 19-05-2010 12:16 PM

Sure you're fine? Hmmm Have a *Hug* from me if ok :)

MammaMia 19-05-2010 12:19 PM

*pops in, gives everyone hugs & then hides*

Ahhh, finally got my letter for JSA!!! Ugh, bastards won't backdate it but least I'm getting it?? :)

Doikers 19-05-2010 12:28 PM

So my Houseing support worker came today , rang E-on , they said they were waiting for some readings so they could estimate a bill for me and to ignore the threatening letter ( Can't ignore the scar it made me do ) . then 30 minutes afteer my hsw left and a New bill drops onto my floor from e-on saying it's the estimated one for 1378.05 . What the Crap! , I'm so sickof this now it's been going on too long , I'm triggered and shaking , need to go out get away from tools ....:(

Doikers 19-05-2010 12:29 PM

*Hugs Helen* I'm glad you got your JSA letter , hopefully you can quickly get your pills for dizzyness now ?

xxjuliexx 19-05-2010 12:33 PM

*snuggles into mark*

katnovia 19-05-2010 12:40 PM

*huggles all then jumps down one the holes left in the floor by other wardies and hides under a pile of earth*

xxjuliexx 19-05-2010 01:08 PM

so quiet in here

Doikers 19-05-2010 01:12 PM

Hi Owen*Waves*

xxjuliexx 19-05-2010 01:16 PM

it's 19 past midnight

Scarletdreamer 19-05-2010 01:18 PM

Good morning everyone...

*waves to Owen* Heya love, how are you? and how's Julie?

*cuddles Mark* I'm sorry to hear about the bill, that's utter bullshit. Especially after it seemed they'd gotten it sorted!! But maybe they hadn't time to enter it into their system or whatever before the post went out? I'm glad that you're going on a walk... enjoy the fresh air and try not to fantasize about SI. (Easier said than done, I know!! *hugs tight*)

*cuddles Hels* YEY for the JSA letter!! (although I haven't a clue what "JSA" stands for, lol) I'm glad that it came, finally. I know you've been waiting for that for awhile. Can't you get the iron pills in a pharmacy without a script? because that's how it is over here, they're just another supplement. But I don't know about the UK, things are oddly different over there... lol. :) Hope you're feeling a bit better... sending more cuddles your way!! :D

*cuddles Kat* What's up, sweetie?

I'm really tired... urgh. It's just past 8am here and I have stuff I need to do but I don't want to do any of it. I slept fitfully from 4am-6am so yeah... am pretty sleepy at the mo. Yuck. And I need to be awake/alert to get this stuff done... don't want to do a sloppy job of it all!! :(

I have a dentist's appt tomorrow morning, am worried about that - it's that filling that needs to get done, the one that the anaesthetic wouldn't work on. I'm scare.d It's with a different dentist, the more experienced one, so I hope that he will have better luck with the Novocaine. :-S I don't want to even THINK about going through all of that pain for this filling and another one. :'(

Am thinking about calling the res places today where I'm thinking of going (to one of course, not all three, lol) to see how long their waiting lists are. If they're long enough then I'll start applying or say that I can't come until July anyway... I don't know... feel so stupid. :'( And I hate making phone calls!!!!

Feeling like ****... per usual. Make it stop, make it go away........... :'(

katnovia 19-05-2010 01:25 PM

*pokes a note up through the soil* wrote a thread: http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum...30#post2304930 contains adult and triggers. don't want to talk. just want to hide.

Doikers 19-05-2010 01:30 PM

*Giant HUGS April* Things aren't oddly different over hehe they're oddly different over there Heh:) I Hate making official phone calls to but look at it this way , it'll take 5 minutes and then you know how long their waiting lists are and you can make a more informed decision . Make Sense , my mind is so not helping me today , SO Confused , Freaked out by this power company **** and I am making so many typos I'm having to re-type almost every 3-4th word grrr.

I Hope your dentist appointment goes well and the more experianced dentist get the job done without pain :)

*Hugs Julie* Perhaps you should consider getting some sleep ? are you tired?

Doikers 19-05-2010 01:37 PM

*Hugs Kat* I read your post Kat , I'm sorry you are having such an ordeal , I don't know what to say to help , sorry , I wish I could magic it all better for you

katnovia 19-05-2010 01:39 PM

*crawls out of hole* im trapped *cries* i need help but i cant get it *sobs*

taz35 19-05-2010 01:45 PM

*runs out from her corner, gives BIG hugs to everybody, then goes back into hiding*

Doikers 19-05-2010 01:47 PM

I've gotta go out or I'll harm again , :( I've jsut gotta make sure I'm back for my SW appointment at 3.30pm should be easy ,

*Huggles Kat*
*Hugs Taz*

katnovia 19-05-2010 01:48 PM

nspcc advert got me. *heart lurches* why when I do feel, does it have to be so strong and overwhelming?

katnovia 19-05-2010 01:49 PM

*huggles mark* take care of yourself
*sniffles* I need to take care of babbit
I'll be back later.

taz35 19-05-2010 01:58 PM

*hugs Mark* Please don't SI <3 Go out and distract yourself. You can fight it.
*hugs Kat* Sometimes it's easy to wish we didn't feel anything. Hang in there :( <333

katnovia 19-05-2010 02:07 PM

I never do feel anything. When i eventually do, it generally hurts like hell, or makes me very angry. I'm so tired and confused. But i have to get on and do the domestic shop now. have to keep my manic spending urges under control though.

Scarletdreamer 19-05-2010 03:00 PM

*peeks in*

updated r/v....

*hides in hole again* :(

Doikers 19-05-2010 03:10 PM

*SUPERHUG for April*

Grr My SW called a half hour before our appoinment, changed it to 24hours later said I sounded chilled ( Anything but ) commented that I had music on and left me all psyched up for our meeting with no meeting to be psyched up for at least today .Grr

PoisonedApple 19-05-2010 05:46 PM

*huggles all*
*gathers hugs from the people that left some on the ward table*
*sits in the corner and blends in with the wall*

Doikers 19-05-2010 05:58 PM

*Spots Crimson blending into the wall and Huggles her*

How are things going for you Crimson?

MammaMia 19-05-2010 06:00 PM

*sneaks in, cuddles everyone who wants hugs and curls up*

Doikers 19-05-2010 06:18 PM

*Huggles Helen*

MammaMia 19-05-2010 06:20 PM

*hugs Mark* Sorry to hear about another bill :( They're really ****ing taking their time to fix their mistake :/

PoisonedApple 19-05-2010 06:20 PM

*shrugs* I dunno, Mark. So far today I've manage to not have a total break down. Though I've also been pretending G is out of my house. Kinda the see no evil concept... I can't see or hear her... so far it's worked. I didn't even speak to her when cleaning up the bathroom this morning. As I was leaving it I simply kicked her dirty clothes out of the bathroom into the hall and kept walking. (Told her repeatedly for weeks on end to keep her dirty laundry somewhere other than a heap taking up half of my bathroom floor) I'm exhausted but it's probably because I cried myself to sleep and it took me forever to fall asleep... dunno how I feel about that either. First time I've cried (actually cried not that 1-2 tears total crap) in forever... and D doesn't see that he tells me not to let people walk all over me but then basically just put up n shut up if its his family. Says he never said that. He didn't in those words I'll give him that, but even when C and I fought a while back cuz I was talking to V about a situation they were both involved in and she thought I was just talking **** about her, after she spazzed what did D say? You shouldn't have even been talking to V about the situation. V had apologized not understanding what had upset me so I'd been telling her it wasn't about what she thought and telling her what it was. He's like that with all 4 of his sisters and his mother. But back to last night/ this morning... After I told him he didn't get it and I'm tired of the put up n shut up crap and it's not just with G, he said his usual (this martyrdom crap I know he gets from his mother and if I could I would get rid of it but I can't) "Well what do you want me to do? Kick everyone out?" As if everyone is the current problem. With M and V I can tell them when they **** up and they listen. As long as it's not in front of D I don't get a lecture, look or sigh and attitude. On the upside D asked V while I was at work about what G said about doing this **** to me on purpose and at least now he believes me on that (though when told he knew she lied to him about saying it anyway).
The following content has been hidden - Reason : poss trigger
Had a hard time walking away from the bathroom last night without SI or Sui. And right now I think I feel empty. Like I took all of me that matters and could be hurt and hid it away somewhere outside of me. But I've gone through a few emotional states this morning.


*sigh* It feels like all I do in here anymore is whine and complain. I'm sorry guys.

MammaMia 19-05-2010 06:29 PM

You're not whining or complaining you're just talking about what's going on for you sweetheart. *big massive cuddles*

Doikers 19-05-2010 06:38 PM

*Hugs Crimson*
You're not whineing and it seems to me that you have valid cause to complain , and this is why the ward exists , for wardies to listen to other wardies and help if possible and to empathise and show some understanding . It's good for you to get these things out rather than bottle them up inside and I know I'm bad at advice but I'm always willing to listen ,anytime :)

"They're really ****ing taking their time to fix their mistake "

Yes Helen ,It's just infuriating , and it triggers me , who woulden't be freaked out to get a letter saying that if they don't pay an unbeleiveable ammount of money that you don't even owe them the they'll get a debt collection agency to collet it . Sorry , I'm sure you are all sick of me complaining about these bills , I'll sick of getting them . I have scars that are never going way as a result of their constant harrassment , do yuo think harrassment is too strong a word ?

*Hugs Helen*

MammaMia 19-05-2010 06:41 PM

Harassment is probably the right word :) I'm not surprised it's affecting you so much emotionally. Anyone would find it hard to cope with, I know my sister did when she had a similar situation to you. No, we're not sick of you talking about it, we just wish they'd stop ****ing round & fix their mistake. Hopefully they won't send them round. I've been threatened with them before a couple of times over a mobile phone bill & stuff, it's pretty **** :( *hugs tight*

Doikers 19-05-2010 06:47 PM

Thanks for the hugs Helen , My sister and brother in law and baby neice are coming over for lunch tommorow , my brother in law want's to use my P.C. as the laptops atmy parents house don't work with this program thats a training program for an exam he is taking this weekend coming so I'll let him use it for a couple of hours while a play with my neice , she's about 19 - 20 weeks old , really very cute ,I just have to focus on getting though tonight with no further S.I. today . I have eaten a HUGE ammount of food but thats what I do when I'm stressed , eat and cut , today both :( *hugs ya back*

MammaMia 19-05-2010 06:51 PM

You're welcome :) Tomorrow sounds like a nice wonderful distraction for you. Bet your niece is a real cutie!! Most babies are :D Try not to cut anymore sweetheart, but I know how hard it is.

Forgot to mention I gave myself a blister today, NOT impressed >.> My foot was just getting all nicely healed, as been having problems with shoes rubbing it etc. Really hurts >.> But it was a good afternoon with my friend ^_^ Having another video call with my best friend tonight, yay. Am getting worried (well MORE worried) about my other best friend. She's not texted for hours, her daughter's been really unwell, hope it's just that & not because she had to take to her hospital in the end. Hmm!! Probably worrying unnecessarily.

Doikers 19-05-2010 07:00 PM

A child being unwell can take up a lot of time and attention Helen , I wouldn't worry too much about that friend not texting you she is probably all caught up with looking after her daughter :) and have a good time on your video call tonight too. Hmmm sorry to hear about your blister :( I don't know what to recommend , just to put a big plaster over it to protect it from dirt and stuff and wait for it to heal up :s

Doikers 19-05-2010 07:01 PM

Oh just so you know I'm going to play WoW for a bit so sorry if I don't reply to your posts very fast :) It's a good distraction sometimes.

MammaMia 19-05-2010 07:06 PM

Yes, you're quite right. I'm sure she is just caught up in looking after her & stuff. I've got a big plaster over my blister, just hope it helps it. Already dreading taking it off. Haha, I hate plasters with a passion, well the taking it off bit. >.> Ugh, even more so after last summer when I had a huge dressing (for a smallish cut LOL, don't ask me why, nurse thought it was best?) and that made me sick nearly. I also remember when I was a little girl & my parents bribed me with sweets in the actual bath so they could rip it off. Ugh. I'm just a wimp LOL!! So yeah, always been scared having them taken off. LOL, even though I know the pain won't last forever. On another occasion, well after that one, I think it was, I fell over & hurt my knee which needed a plaster, but instead I refused & it got stuck to the cut. That was SO horrible, it made my Mum cry (aswell) in the car and everything when I was trying to get my tights off the cut =( Wish the nurse forced a plaster on me, but never mind. Okay, random & probably triggering, sorry :(

Enjoy playing WoW, maybe I should join in the craze :P


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