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psychadelicflowergirl 29-11-2016 04:35 AM

i think i need to come hide in here for bit, everything is really overwhelming me and making me think bad things tonight. have spoken to crisis team who are passing a message on to psychiatrist in the morning, until then i feel like i'm stuck in limbo not knowing what to do with myself to be honest.
i'm also in a lot of physical pain with my fibromyalgia. so not having a great time of it at the mo.. can i hide here from everything for just a little bit?

xxjuliexx 30-11-2016 09:12 PM

Hi everyone! :)

Eir 01-12-2016 02:52 AM

Feeling so fragile today. At work anyway.
Hi everyone * curls up under a bed*

Eir 01-12-2016 12:04 PM

Work didn't work out. Feel pathetic and low and I just don't want to do this any more.

Eir 16-02-2017 08:49 AM

*lurks* I hope that the reason the board is quiet is that everyone else is doing ok.

Kahlia1981 16-02-2017 10:21 AM

2.5 months in hospital with another 2/3 to go is becoming unbearable...
*curls up and cries*

Doikers 17-02-2017 10:57 PM

*Leaves a Jar of Hugs*

Eir 18-02-2017 10:53 AM

Hi Kahlia and Mark.
*Hugs if people want them*
I'm really down.

Kahlia1981 18-02-2017 11:36 PM

Annie - *safe hugs*

*curls up in pillow fort*

*hugs* for anyone who wants/needs them

Eir 27-02-2017 10:08 PM

*hugs back* I'm struggling.

Kahlia1981 28-02-2017 07:20 AM

*hugs* for anyone who wants them.

Annie: Hang in there chicky. I believe in you no matter what. *hugs*

*curls up in a corner with her bear*

Eir 28-02-2017 07:51 PM

Thank you Kahlia.

Eir 06-03-2017 04:24 PM

Argh!!! Work is doing my head in. Just ******* over it. Don't listen to me then. Ignore policy. Screw it.

Kahlia1981 07-03-2017 07:31 AM

Annie: *hugs* I wish I could do more for you, but I'm always around if you need something.

*hugs* for anyone who wants/needs them.

For a change I'm sharing some positive news, but I still feel like ****...
I'm going to have overnight leave on Saturday and only have about a week left in hospital.
Now I'm going to go cry in a corner

Eir 09-03-2017 10:02 PM

Yay for you Kahlia!!!
i think im in a mixed episode. impulsivity. disturbed sleep. whispers. intrusive thoughts, specifically about how im worthless. more SI.
every so often tho, like right now, i get clarity without emotion. i have insight into how im thinking and behaving. its crystal clear that im unwell, despite the fact i am being good with my meds. there just is no motivation to do anything about it.
*cookies and hugs for those who want them*

Kahlia1981 11-03-2017 09:57 AM

Annie: I totally get you there. A lack of motivation can be a real pain to deal with. For me it's getting harder and harder to turn up to the physio gym twice every day, but I keep going because I have so few left.

I'm out on my (first) overnight leave with only one more week to go - providing tonight goes well. We went to see a play my parents were in and got Thai food for dinner. Mum even told me to audition for the local production of Wicked.

Now we wait to see how the night goes...

Eir 30-03-2017 01:32 PM

Struggling with constant urges, failing at resisting them. When I'm not consumed with those my mind turns darker. Not coping.
I have one positive thing. I want a platonic real life snuggle buddy. I don't want sex or a relationship. I just want someone to snuggle with on a regular basis. So yeah I have a positive thing that I want. Doubt I'll get it, but I want it.

Kathryn_Anna 31-03-2017 02:33 AM

I'm sorry I haven't kept up here. Life has just seemed to get in the way. I hope everyone is doing alright. <3

Just coming by to crash for a bit. I need a safe place to stay and try to get some (hopefully restful) sleep. *curls up with her blanket*

Kahlia1981 31-03-2017 10:20 AM

On the positive side I've been home from hospital for 2 weeks, I've had support workers since leaving hospital and cyclone Debbie skipped us by heading to the south.

Unfortunately the GP is bei a prickelnd, my pain is completely uncontrolled, the heat is unbearable, our air-conditioning unit broke and my mobility is going downhill.

Right now it'd be so easy to just throw everything away so I'm just going to curl up in a corner and cry.

Eir 31-03-2017 12:59 PM

*hugs for Kat and Kahlia*
I'm considering making a doctor's appointment. Dont see a counsellor until the 11th.

Kahlia1981 04-04-2017 09:46 AM

Annie: *hugs*

After Easter I'm dumping my GP - as in not ever going back to see him. Now I just have to find a replacement. Preferably before I need a new referral to my psychiatrist...

Between now and then I'm just going to curl up and cry.

one_step_closer 06-04-2017 06:27 PM

Hi everyone. Would anyone like some purrs as my cats seem to be full of them right now?

Kemicalwarfare 15-04-2017 01:43 AM

i need to hide here please?
i cant deal with anything... to be fair all i need is a really tight hug,
i feel so ****ing useless.

Kathryn_Anna 28-04-2017 11:46 PM

*hugs* to all who need one <3

Life is beyond chaotic. I'm so stressed out I'm getting sick over it. Things just seem so overwhelming right now. I watched a movie last night, which I'd seen before, but for some reason it triggered me. Just a bunch of ugh.

I'll just color in the corner and wait for summer to pass and the cooler weather to come back around. Maybe then I'll be ready to adult again.

Kemicalwarfare 29-04-2017 12:24 AM

*big Hugs for those folks who need them*

I am checking in now,
i can't explain how i feel but i just need a safer place,
i am gonna hide here and just drink tea and eat chicken :P

Kahlia1981 29-04-2017 05:37 AM

Kemicalwarfare: Do you mind if I call you Kazimierz? *hugs* I hope you are safe, or in a safe place, at the moment. Enjoy your tea and chicken. :)

Kat: I hate it when life just wants to throw everything it has at you. I'm hoping you have managed to get some peace and/or rest from the chaos. I might be ready to adult again when the weather warms up over here. *safe hugs if you want/need/can accept them*

*hugs to anyone who wants/ needs them*

So much is happening right now that I'm struggling to keep up. Between pain, life and my head I need a break. If anyone wants me I'll be hiding in my pillow fort.

Kemicalwarfare 30-04-2017 12:43 AM

i don't mind at all :) still busy enjoying my food... i kind of have too, but could i possibly join you in your pillow fort i need somewhere squishy to sleep tonight?

Eir 30-04-2017 03:47 PM

*waves* in general, feeling better. Some down days, Lotsa irritability. Hey, is it normal that after a long term relationship, you go through a stage of contemplating how many things you overlooked or put up with that were really irritating, and just go through rage at yourself for doing so? I've never been so angry about an ex before, or at myself for being such a doormat. I've had long term relationships before, but never have I just sat there and gone, "well, normally, if anyone did that to me, I'd yell at them, so why'd I let it go?"
So with all this irritability, I'm wondering if it's related to the meds, valdoxan being typed as an antidepressant with the normal warning of be careful with bipolar cos it might tip them to mania, or if it's genuine irritability caused by the frustrations abundant in my life right now.

Kahlia1981 01-05-2017 07:04 AM

Kazimierz: My pillow fort is your pillow fort. Feel free to drop in any time.

Annie: It probably is quite normal, especially if it's a long-term relationship or you invested a lot of emotion/yourself into it. With regards to the irritability, obviously I can't say it's one or the other but keep in mind they could both be contributing. Regardless of the cause I hope it settles down soon. Here if you need a chat hun.

My husband was loving and caring so decided to give me his cold. I'm going to curl up with a cup of tea until I feel better...

Eir 06-05-2017 03:09 PM

*opens the door to the padded room, steps in holding a heavy blanket and shuts it behind her*
Im So mad at everyone and everything. I can't help it.

Margo 09-05-2017 11:11 PM

You know when you want to write stuff and then you don't and then you just think what's the point and so you disappear and come back and hover and then bugger off again and la la la la.


I'm lonely

Really lonely

Margo 09-05-2017 11:14 PM

Sorry. Hello everyone. It's gonna be ok. Ok

Eir 10-05-2017 02:53 AM

*huggles for you Matthew *

Kahlia1981 10-05-2017 08:32 AM

Between the pain, the almost constant headaches and the depression I need a break.

*slips back into pillow fort*

Eir 11-05-2017 03:04 PM

I shouldn't be at work. If I had equivalent physical symptoms to how I feel I'd at least be home, if not presenting to hospital. But because it is mental health related I just force myself to power through.

Kathryn_Anna 11-05-2017 11:39 PM

I'm done. I am tired of trying, fighting, pushing through. I think I see the light at the end of the tunnel and then it's as if it all goes black again. I'm so tired. My head hurts. Giving up is seeming like a viable option. Meh.

*hugs* to all who need one!

Eir 12-05-2017 11:14 AM

*hugs for Kat and Kahlia*
Forcing myself back to work. I think I pinned the trigger. Mother's Day. I don't feel like a mother. I'm also a terrible daughter. And a useless granddaughter.
Can't do anything about the trigger. So just have to ignore everything until passes.

Kathryn_Anna 12-05-2017 07:38 PM

*bakes some goodies*

I just want to curl up and maybe color. What's the point of having friends if they aren't there for you when you need them? And it's not even like I need them to meet me or come to my house. Just reply to my text. Give me a few minutes of your time. *sigh*

Kahlia1981 18-05-2017 04:50 AM

*safe hugs Kat, Annie, anyone else who wants/needs some*

Annie: I hope things settle down quickly.

My sleep and my mood are both going down the drain right now. I'm sick of crying myself to sleep, and getting up every hour. *sigh*

Kathryn_Anna 13-06-2017 09:03 PM

Who needs sleep? Apparently not me. I'm so exhausted. Everything seems like an uphill battle these days. I just can't seem to get out of feeling so down and out. This sucks. ☹

YodaBearInterrupted 14-06-2017 05:37 AM


Originally Posted by Kathryn_Anna (Post 4114744)
Who needs sleep? Apparently not me. I'm so exhausted. Everything seems like an uphill battle these days. I just can't seem to get out of feeling so down and out. This sucks. ☹

What's sleep? I feel the same way you do... tired but not able to get sleep.

*hugs* I hope you feel better

Kathryn_Anna 14-06-2017 11:32 PM

Thanks Matt. *hugs* I hope you get some sleep.

Yesterday was exhausting. I may be adding 2 more therapies a week to my kids' schedule. Ugh. I am trying to write out everything going through my mind with everything going on right now but it just makes me feel like a shitty parent. It's perfectly ok to eat my feelings, right?

Eir 10-07-2017 11:27 AM

Hi everybody. Just a quick stop by. I'm alive and generally well. Hope things are improving for evevyone.

Kathryn_Anna 12-07-2017 03:15 AM

Hope everyone is doing alright. *offers hugs to those who need it*

Is life always so hard? Do we ever see the light at the end of the tunnel? Life is just really dragging me down. It's stressing me out even in my dreams and I'm on edge 24/7. People ask me how I manage, how I do it. I don't know but I'm hanging on by a very thin thread. I have no time for me and when I make time for me, it's hours after I should be in bed. If running away was an option I would do it...like yesterday.

Destabilised 13-07-2017 01:37 AM

Taking a holiday was probably one of the best things I did, but I forgot that when I get back, all my life issues are waiting for me. Hahaha. Oh life, you so fickle.

Kahlia1981 13-07-2017 10:06 AM

The last couple of weeks have been crazy with the start of the university term. Last Thursday was Orientation all day and both Tuesday and Wednesday this week were lectures/tutorials/workshops....

Can I collapse now and sleep for a few days? Between the pain situation and my having to deal with people I'm exhausted.

*safe hugs for anyone who wants/needs them*
*crawls into my pillow fort to curl up and get some sleep*

Kathryn_Anna 16-07-2017 04:10 PM

I don't know when I last felt this low. It's all so overwhelming and I feel so done with it all. The thoughts creeping into my head are not safe.

*curls up with her blanket* I want to just stay like this for a little while...or forever. Haven't decided yet.

YodaBearInterrupted 29-07-2017 11:47 PM

Hi everyone, hope you are all doing okies *hugs to all*

Haven't been in here for awhile... but really struggling right now with everything and not being safe

*hides in the corner* I hope things get better :(

Kathryn_Anna 17-08-2017 03:21 AM

Hey Matt.

*hugs to anyone who needs one*

Life is just so crazy. I'm so overwhelmed. I don't know how I'm going to make it through. Just want to break down and cry.

Eir 20-08-2017 03:52 PM

Hi people. Hope the reason it's quiet is cos everyone's doing well. I on the other hand, am teetering. Not quite unwell yet, but if one more thing happens, I think I may become unstable.
I just don't fit anywhere anymore.
Hugs for those who want them

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