bye byes <3

I'm off to bed. The alarm clock goes off an hour early so i can be ready for the construction crew that is coming to fix our bathroom ceiling.
Oh, and we only have one bathroom.

O.o 's only 9 there eh?
lol

night =)

Just wanted to drop some huge *hugs* off for everyone!

Don;t know what to do with myself, feeling suicidal. Would OD if I was in charge of my meds.

Im glad you arent in charge of the Zowie hun...
I know how awful it feels....but we'd hate for you to do anything that will hurt you :(

alexxxxxx <3
hows you?

well i'm officially back from weekend working.. blah. glad i dont have to do anything for a while but annoyed at myself again - ended up scratching my arm on 2 occasions, no lasting marks (as long as the most recent goes soon which i think it will) but this now brings it up to 3 times in the last couple of weeks :( i think i know i'd feel better if i did cut properly but i dont want to start it off again and i dont need it enough, i just want it. *sigh* oddly enough, the rest of me seems ok and calm enough. *hugs to all*

*just checkin in*

Bad so bad right now its really bad...but why cant I do it? I want to and need to but i cant. Hate myself, all alone they all hate me. Sorry guys i am no use.

Awww Marc
*hugs*

I wish it was real...I need someone i can open up to someone i can say help to, my mind keeps screaming to ask for help (from certain friends) but i wont...i dont want to bother one, one doesnt care and they all hate me behind my back.

well I know you don't know me...
but I'll listen if ya need to talk.

Too messed up, dont knwo the words to type need to talk...prompt. So sorry hoping i will be happy soon. But dont want to ride in car with friend who talks about me badly when i am not there...she thinks about me badly too.

Thank you for thiking kindly, I just hope your not laghing at me really.

*not laughing... is just concerned about you*

Sorry struggling with what is true and what isnt, am scared and want the thinking to stop. Am sorry i should stop posting and come back when i am in a better frame

*cuddles everyone*

*pounces on jess*

*hides in the corner*