why are you anxious Mors? *Huggles*

Too many people, too much noise, no where to hide from it. Took my emergency mess and they are not helping.

*Huggles* I'm sorry. just think, it will all be over in a few hours. can you ggo outside for a few minutes?

Tried outside, helped a little, thank you

anytime darliin :)

Well, made it home, the anxiety symptoms are still there, but hopefully they will pass soon. Thank you for the help. I sure do hope my doctor starts to believe me about this soon, can't take much more of this feeling.

ugh I know! anxiety is the WORST!!! just sit and have some tea or cider (I say cider because I dont really like tea) you just need to stick it to the man

i am not okay... i just thought someone should know that.

*Hugs Mors Certa*

*Hugs Megz*

*Hugs Laura* Whats up hun?

How is everyone today?

*hugs everyone*

Hi one_step_closer how are you ?
Hi mark
Am not doing so good at the moment .. feel numb and want to cut a lot
just getting over the aftermath of Easter and trying to deal with that at the moment
unsure what to do to keep busy ...maybe just hang out on the forum for a while.

*Hugs Angel*

*Hugs Lindsay*

I'm struggling with urges to self harm too, but I think I can fight them.

I sit at the office, headphones in, trying to block the noise, trying to get the day to pass more quickly, knowing that my time here is very limited makes it very difficult to care if anything gets done. I made it through my first anxiety attack of the day, wonder how many more will happen today. Sorry for the ramble, I just needed to get it out, it is eating away at my insides.

*Hugs all that will accept them*

*Leaves a tray of goodies on the table and heads for quiet, dark corner*

*Hugs Jeff* Is it okay I call you Jeff?

It is okay to call me Jeff, caught me off guard, but still not a problem at all.

Cool Jeff, I hope I didn't worry you man ? :/

hugs everyone

Oliver, how did your move go? Have the crisis team been helpful?*hugs*
*hugs Angel, Mors, Lindsay*
*hugs Mark* How was your holiday/ visit to your parents? Sorry your worker is still being such an ass...
*hugs Louise too* missed you :)

~and now for my selfish ramble...~
...I seem to have developed seasonal allergies to the only season I like to live up here for... **unimpressed**
Easter went ok at my place... Minimal fighting of the in laws (might have been because we told them our new zero tolerance policy and they feared actually getting thrown out), the kids went to their first easter egg hunt (after an indoor test run at our house so they understood how it worked) and I am proud to say my 4 yr old kicked ass! She beat all of the other kids and was one of the youngest and the only little one that hadn't done an egg hunt before lol. Dinner was delicious even if I do say so myself. Then I got bored/stircrazy/fidgety/whatever you wanna call it while everyone else was sitting around watching tv, playing games and doing nothing so I cleaned the animal cages out and gave them their easter treats and then I resumed packing... after clearing out the junk the closet is about half empty and what is left is boxes (what came out that was kept went back in boxed) and clothes that we wear frequently (my work clothes and 2 sets of weekend clothes and a set of workout clothes is my portion) and a set of sheets so we can change them while we're still living in the apartment. ...and the stuff on the shelf - photos, and some collectibles.
today started out interestingly... I remembered all of my drinks, lunch, snacks so that was good. got to work and got a voice mail of a guy ranting about this fantastic, no? but on the upside staff appreciation week has begun and thus my boss brought in bagels of all kinds for us to enjoy. A nice buttered blueberry bagel with my nice mint tea? Yes, thank you.

*Hugs Louise*

*Hugs Crimson*

How are you girls ?, You through out your in laws crimson and best of luck with the move!

*hugs Mark* I'm sneezing quite a lot but swiped a box of tissues from the area outside my office... aside from that though, not bad at all. *eats ears off a white chocolate bunny*

Poor bunny Wabbit!

I feel sorry for the bunny too. :-((

*hugs everyone*

*Hugs Felicia*

*hugs everyone* how are you all?
sorry i wasn't around in the last 3/4 days... I didn't really have access to the internet because I was visiting some friends.

hehe Awwwww but bunny is delicious!
*hugs Mark, Jeff, Felicia and Laura*

cries...

*sigh*

Felicia,I need you ,I would bedead without you. <3

*hugs Mark* Thank you :). I wish I knew what to say <3

*hugs mark and felicia*
I'm feeling the same way sometimes.

hugs laura

*Hugs Mark* Sorry your struggling mate

*Hugs Serenity* Are you?

*Hugs Louise* Whats up louise are you ok?

*Hugs Felicia* I'm sorry your not feeling great :(

*Hugs Laura* I'm doing well thanks. Im sorry that your not doing great

*Hugs Jeff* I'm sorry your struggling, hope you feel better soon

*Hugs Megz*

*Hugs Mor certa*

*Hugs Crimson*

I am going to hide in a corner, maybe this will pass

*Huggles wardies* how is everyone today?

*hugs those who can accept*

In serious pain, facing a future of bankruptcy through no fault of our own. Combined we get less assistance than a single mother with one kid at school. We've got maybe two months before we have to stop eating, taking meds and pretty much everything else so we can pay the bills. Unless my fiance can find work. But no-one wants to give him a go so far.

Sorry, just really stressed.

Laura (Fallinstar): Sending you a message hun. Just wanted to let you know I'm thinking of you.

*Hugs Felicia*

*Hugs Megz*

*Hugs Louise*

*Hugs Ian*

*Hugs Jeff*

*Hugs Kahlia*

Well My Social Worker Beth showed up, I was actually honest with her and she is going to get me a Dr's Appointment I think.

Well done, Mark.

Thanks Lindsay *Hugs* How are you?

well done mark that takes a lot of courage.

*hugs all who want hugs*

I'm all moved into my new flat and its really nice, I have lots of space.
The crisis team came to see me yesterday, they said we hae a kind of contract where I don't OD while I'm with them, sort of gives me more pressure, but I have a plan to OD next week when I am home from my parents house.

I still don't have internet in my flat yet, I'm in uni atm, but shall be sorting it ASAP.

*Hugs Oliver*

*Hugs Louise*

*Spots and Hugs Laura*

cuddles all, curls up into a ball.

*hugs mark back*

*hugs everyone else*

*Squishes Jill Hard*

*Massive Hugs Laura*

How are you girls?

*sits in the corner and picks at bits of paper*

I have been fantasizing pushing blades right into me for a few days I worked up the nerve , lost the plot last night and tried it twice , :( I Told my Social worker and now am waiting on a cancellation to meet the Psych....

*Hugs Crimson* Whats up hun?