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:( thanks for the help anyways. i'm just so scared of whats gonna happen cause i havent SIed in 2 weeks, but ive been back here for like an hour, and i REALLY need to cut. but i dont wanna ruin it...
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*Huggles Nicole* Please try not to cut mate , and if you do it would be just a blip , I know the urges can be horrible
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*huggles mark* i know. but it wont be, cause it will be everywhere, i can feel it, if i cut, i wont be able to stop.
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*Hugs Nicole* Please try hard not to start in that case , play the 15 minute game with yourself maybe ?
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whats the 15 minuite game? :/ i just know im failing everything and dont see why im even bothering to keep living :(
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The 15 minute game is:-
you look at how you're feeling wanting to cut and say "in 15 minutes if still feel the same I'll do it " then in 15 minutes you check to see how you're feeling and if you still need to cut put it off for 15 more minutes , and repeat the process until you get distracted , stop getting urges , fall asleep , generally don't need to cut anymore Hmm I hope I made that make sence . |
oh, right, yeah you did lol. i might try it, at the moment, im thinking-is there any point in stopping, i love my self harm, i love the way it makes me feel, its all ive got.
and at the same time thinking-its stupid and you dont need it, youre past that now, forget about it. and i dont know what to listen to :( |
You are worth so much more than S.I. Nicole , You should tell yourself that . Do you really want to start again if you KNOW you won't be able to stop?
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*cuddles Nicole*
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yes. im sorry but yes, i need it, i cant live without it, its my life!
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:( im sorry about that post ^^ i dont mean that, i'm just struggling with the urges, i cant control it, im not strong enough to.
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It's okay to struggle with the urges , it shows you are trying to beat it *HUGS*
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*hugs* my sisters picking on me already :'( i've been home 2 hours. and shes saying that i dont deserve anything cause the way i act. i dont DO anything, and even if i did, ive not been here!
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Don't let your sister picking on you get to you , rise above it if you can and keep your distanse from her
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i cant :(
i need a fag :( |
*Hugs Nicole TONS*
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My Mums Taken All My ****ing Blades!!! Thats It! I Cant Live Here, I Cant!
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*Makes Nicolle Some calming Camomille tea*
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i can't cope, i can't handle this...
...i just want to curl up and die. i'm so ****ing sick of being triggered... can't cope with it all. need to cut, still, again, always. i want to be rid of it, but i can't... i just can't give it up... but i have to... :crying: pitiful wreck. and so fat, too. looking at my bestie... and her little sister... they are tiny and healthily so, too. blessedly skinny. i wish i could be small... :'( so sick of this life. |
updated r/v... :crying:
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