I would like to give up, but I can't. This really sucks right now...

its ok to hug me...


* Leaves Hugs And Flowers And Bears For those that need them*


I Feel Like Crap yep yep oh well forget it i will live

*Hugs Matt* How are you today?

*Hugs Smurfette* How are you ?

How is everyone?

*hugs everyone*

The day goes okay. Just being, um, for lack of better word, ravaged? I hate feeling this way, but I guess it comes with the territory

:( I'm supposed to be going out tonight to watch films with friends but I can't face it..would rather hide here and play on the ps3

*hugs Heather* <3
*hugs Lindsay*
*hugs Matt*
*hugs Smurfette*
*hugs Georgia*
*hugs Mark*

how are you all??

It's great weather here... have to think about something to do outside.

Cool Laura! *Hugs*

*Hugs Georgia* How are you?

*Glomps Matt* How are you doing today?

I'm soooo tired. Hope you're all ok.

*hugs Mark*
*hugs Lindsay*

I was starting to feel better yesterday. I really thought I could make it without hospital. Then my dad called and mom told me that the horse is sold and they already moved it (mom was on the phone). I didn't even get to say goodbye. Dad promised that he would let me know before they move the horse so I could say goodbye but he didn't.

Gahhh, today is going to be odd...got psych appointment and tattoo :/ I'm...scared

I know I've been MIA for a while and prolly will be for a bit longer... the brakes are going out on my van ... AGAIN! :( and I took a fall last Thursday and screwed up my ankle and my knee... getting that checked out now to make sure I didn't break anything. I thought it was just a sprain, but it's been 6 days now and it's still swollen and painful so I'm really not sure anymore.

I haven't gotten a chance to read most of the posts, but I have read a few and Laura, that really sucks about not getting to say good bye. *hugs* I wish I knew how to make you feel better.

I hope everyone else is doing okay. I hope to catch up again as soon as I can...

*hugs Georgia*

*hugs Kelly* sorry about your ankle and the van.

I can't talk about certain things because I feel that if I tell someone about certain things that things become real. Like... if I don't tell anyone it never happened. Can anyone relate to this?

*hugs Laura* I can totally relate.

*hugs Kelly*

*Hugs Kellys ankle*

*Hugs Georgia*

*Hugs Laura* Yes , I can relate to that :/

*hugs Mark*
*hugs Georgia*

There is this huge part of me that really wants to tell my therapist all the things that happened. But then there is this other huge part that is stealing the words and I can't say things.
Both have the same goal: they want me to get better
But they want it in different ways: one part wants me to talk about things and do therapy and all, the other part wants me to forget things and move on with life.

*hugs Laura*
I guess what you need to decide is which option you think is more likely to work, talking and therapy or forgetting.

*hugs Georgia*

therapist said that I have to make a compromise. Cause the 'not talking' part wants to protect me and the other part just wants to talk about everything at once. I guess I'll have to experiment to find a way where I can talk about one thing at a time.

*hugs* good luck <3

*hugs Laura*
*hugs Mark*
*hugs Georgia*
*hugs Kelly*

Gah, please someone just hold my hand for today so I don't do anything silly. I am tired, frustrated, and overwhelmed trying to take care of everyone.

*hugs Georgia*
*sits with Matt*