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shadowedsoul 19-01-2009 09:10 PM

hmm i have got no idea what iam doing anymore. i want to cut, hmm trying not to, struggleing, wish people would just let me be, okay iam up in my room alone, and yes aim loney, but its safe, but they cant see that no they try and change me run my life. and like a muppet i just go along with it, because i cant say no. i am sick and tired of it, i want it all to stop. sorry being a whiney baby, just had enough, and want it all to end. =/

Damnation. 19-01-2009 09:11 PM

WE GOT SNOW! Preston actually got a weeeeeeeeeeeny leeeetle bit of snow today o_o;. Twas weeiiirdddd.

Oh, and hyper Däyna is hyper. So scuse me while I talk **** =D.

Mein housemate couldn't get through to el CAB today ._.;; but she spoke to Mr Housing Association bloke, and he said he's gonna send us a pamphlet about who the council are obliged to help blah blah, and I think we can put a request in to be helped or summat.

Granzilla was all 'OMGWTF' when she heard the news and is gonna speak to the people who deals with housing for people like one of my uncles (he's a long term Schitzophrenia sufferer) cos they has social workers n the like, so she's gonna see what the council's obligation is, if owt at all. Daddypoos is worried, apparently ._.;; and the only other thing I can think of that I needed to mention was Mr Doctor.

It went okay, methinks =D. Was nervous and triggered waiting, and the triggeredness actually got worse when I got into the office, so I sort of ended up clawing at the back of my hand <__<;; and then I just sort of told him bout the ole depression getting worse, mentioned the eviction, unstable moods blah blah and all that.

He gave me a depression sheet assessment jobbit to fill in, asked me questions like, have I been on medication in the past (no), would I like to try it (yes), how do I self harm, cutting (yes), have I made plans to kill myself (no), do I know how I'd do it (yes) etc etc. And he prescribed me 10 miligrams of Citolpram, I think it was called. Sticking me on 10 instead of the usual 20 cos he dun wanna run the risk of making me worse =B so I has to get down to the chemist with mah prescription tomorrows, and report back to the quack in two weeks. If I'm still in the area. Aside from that, he just said that if I ain't, I needs to get to a local doc soon as poss, and if I have stroooong suicidal thoughts, I needs to go to A&E o.o;;.

*Glomples all*

Mary Anne 19-01-2009 09:40 PM

Dayna - is is escitalopram? That is what I am on, it takes about a week to really start working and it can make you nauseous whilst it enters your system but I can say that it does work for me. I was on 20 when I was really bad, serious self harm, attempted suicide, drinking etc and am on 10 just now, not so near the edge. (My doctor who first put me on it also said it depends how big you are as such, at 5'11 and well built & even if not fat, my system needs a higher dose than some other people to get round). 10 apparently is the standard dose and will help most 'normal' size people (i.e. I am a giant!).

Hope the housing people are of help
Yay - you got snow :)
*sending you lots of hugs*

Shadowedsoul - glad you were able to tell us a bit and you are not whining. I assume you live with your parents, never easy. Not sure I have anything to say to help but sending you lots of hugs and hope the triggered feeling passes soon. Always here to chat to it you need/want.

*hugs to everyone*

Damnation. 19-01-2009 09:45 PM

Mary Anne: Citalopram, I just went and had a look xD. Uhh, I think the doc said that 20 was usual but he was gonna give me 10 cos I ain't been on meds before. He didn't say owt about how 'big' a person is either o.o. Andlolmycomputer'sbeinganarse.

Not a lot of snow, but some =D! *Hugs back* ^__^

Tears of Solitude 19-01-2009 09:56 PM

Checks self in.

I need to be protected from her, the voice.
Most of all protected from me


MammaMia 19-01-2009 10:02 PM

Welcome Jade :)

We didn't have any snow :( Mary Anne, I'm in first year so my marks this year won't count to my final degree marks but I still need to pass all my modules to move into second year, not sure how that's going to happen but asking for help now may just come to the recuse in time, we'll see.

Apprantly the most depressing day of the year is on Thursday and not today? Well that's what I've heard....

Mary Anne 19-01-2009 10:16 PM

Dayna - guess your med is probably the same 'family' as mine, only one doc ever talked about size relating to dose, maybe she was trying to make me feel better! One good thing - the pharmacist never even blinks an eye giving them out (I was totally paranoid the first time I got my perscription that they would be judging me). *hugs*

I want snow and lots of it (enough to stop me going to work and so being forced to stay in and watch DVDs!)

Helen, keep going sweetie, uni gets easier as time goes on, I hated first year and wanted to leave the whole time, i don't think i settled until easter time, many teary visits to my head of year. Well done asking for help - that is a huge step and once they know you need help they will be there for you (I remember various dispensations are available that they don;t tell you about - i only found out cause I became partially deaf in my final year and the shock of that caused me upset so I spoke to my tutors who told me that exam results can be looked at in light of problems so do not despair) *hugs*

Welcome Jade *offers hugs*

Well, I think it is bedtime for me (it takes me about an hour to get to sleep at the moment so if i want a decent amount of sleep I have to go bed at about the same time as a 10 year old!

*leaves hugs for those coming in during the night (well it is here)*

Tears of Solitude 19-01-2009 10:23 PM

Thank you for making me feel welcome <hugs back>

<grabs blanket> Settles down for the night.

I was in need of some hugs and company, so thank you


Eclectica 19-01-2009 10:25 PM

Woohoo. Triggered for several days now and depressed... and giving in to a bit of drink. And switchy with my 'imaginary friends' as the psych said. ****ing idiot. I#ll smack him.

Tears of Solitude 19-01-2009 10:31 PM

My thoughts are with you, Im a little lost of words right now

Jade xxx

Pomegranate 19-01-2009 10:45 PM

*sits with Jade to guard from the voice* Hope you are ok there.

Well done on seeing the doctor Dayna, very proud of you. I have been on Citalopram before and it was ok. If it makes you a bit nauseous I found taking it before food helped.

*hugs Katrica, Mary Anne, Kahlia, Nicole, Ravyn, Jem, Ileana, Helen and anyone else has forgotten* I'm sorry, my mind is playing games at the moment. Thinking of you all though.

Damnation. 19-01-2009 11:00 PM

Mary Anne: Ooohh dear, I have a lot to learn lmao. Same sort of 'family'? Like, you're on something similar? *Hugs back and gives lots of snow*

Jade: Hey, welcome *hugs tightly*

Kat: x__O He seems a bit of a prick tbh *hugs as well*

Emma: Thankies ^__^ and ooh, thanks for the advice as well. I'll keep that in mind

Helen: Fingers crossed for you <3

*Glomps all*

MammaMia 19-01-2009 11:08 PM

Mary Anne, I am trying to keep going. I was going to drop out but I'm still trying. Starting new modules which will help hopfully. But yeah, am hoping these people will help. It was hard asking for someone else for help- but it was needing doing. I have moderate hearing loss in both ears :( So I can only imagine how upsetting it was for you *cuddles* I want lots of snow too, but I also want to go for a long long long walk tomorrow (and to maybe never return?)...*sighs* Hope you sleep well xxxxxx

Jade, you're welcome hunni, hope you sleep well.

MammaMia 19-01-2009 11:09 PM

Emma, cuddles in return hun, don't forget we're here for you hun. x

Dayna, thanks for the good luck, I need it :) x

Damnation. 19-01-2009 11:11 PM

I'm sure everything'll go fiiine <3

Kahlia1981 19-01-2009 11:40 PM

Hi all. Just dropping in quickly while hogging an ethernet port out at uni. First point of interest : it's not raining today. Well so far anyway . . . it is only 08:30. Secondly, I'm sitting in the HX (general computer lab) building and so far 5 students (or potential students . . . it's impossible to tell) and 3 staff have walked into the entrance door instead of opening it first. I'm not sure, but I think that says something about the general intelligence of those attending this university.

I feel like **** at the moment. My moods are seriously all over the place. My uni schedule for this semester presently looks like someone was deliberately trying to make it as annoying as possible. One day 8am and 4pm classes and nothing else on that day in any of the other subjects. Blech. I'm hoping to find out today which subjects I have as possibilities . . . but I won't hold my breath.

Good news (sort of) : I see my pdoc today. A little apprehensive regarding that one but, as always, it has to be faced and now is as good a time as any to do so.

Also, we should be getting our internet restored today. Our landlady is supposed to come home at some point today in order to start work again tomorrow. (And I say thank-you to any gods that happen to be listening for that small mercy - she is a royal pain in the neck when she is home all day.)

*leaves hugs for everyone and wishes that she was currently able to reply to everyone individually. . . she does wish to let you all know that she has read all posts since her last post however*

Damnation. 19-01-2009 11:42 PM

Kahlia: *Giggles* Ohhh dear. I would've been super embarrassed if I was one of those smart people who walked into the door. I hope things go well with your pdoc, and yaay, glad to hear that you're getting internetz back soon ^__^ *hugs*

Eclectica 20-01-2009 12:15 AM

Who the **** would want imaginary friends that are there just to **** you off and send you to hospital?

shadowedsoul 20-01-2009 12:43 AM

hmm thanks for your support, hmm think i just curl up, and sleep, feeling kind off low. hmm =/

wildly insane 20-01-2009 01:03 AM

One of bracelets flew off whilst dancing and I lost it for a while which meant I got paranoid about people seeing the bandage on my wrist, can't wear long sleeves dancing, get too hot and smelly :-p but I think it was okay, and got the bracelet back. I do modern jive on a monday and ballroom and latin on a tuesday and I want to start something else on another day, maybe pole dancing or burlesque? but have to get a job so I can afford it, arrgghh an tying myself in knots about thursday because I want this job so very much and it's only monday (just) - must go to bed - one day I will actually make it to bed at a reasonable hour - yeah right. oh and I have to get somebody to check whether my stitches should come out yet, it always takes so much effort to see anyone I almost walked out before I got them done, but I guess I just have to find the courage, I hope whoever it is is nice....

*hugs Mary Anne* I'm tall as well - somewhere between 5ft10 and 11, but haven't been a 10 since I was 18 (am a 12) and people call me skinny so I'm sure you're fine just the way you are :-)

*hugs shadowedsoul* hope you feel better tomorrow
*hugs Dayna*
*hugs Jade, offers a hot water bottle and tucks her in*

*Hugs Helen* honestly tutors are usually very understanding when it comes to "extenuating circumstances" it took me until my third year before telling my tutor and she was so lovely, and actually told me afterwards that I gained my grade without her having to use the aforementioned "extenuating circumstances" which I thought was really nice of her. keep going and hopefully you will find the new subjects interesting and good luck again with your tutor, it's worth it in the end.

*hugs Emma* hope you are okay

*hugs Kahlia* images of those people walking into the doors is ace :-D

*hugs Katricia* hope things get better hun

*think I've left some people out if I have am sorry, please, if you want a hug, feel free, I give hugs in abundance as you may have already guessed*

am very tired now, I was a completely scatty pea-brained airhead today which was quite amusing but not really good at work.........dozing off....am cold again..........

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