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frenchhorn 01-07-2011 09:52 PM

*cursl up* ************

Doikers 01-07-2011 09:55 PM

*Hugs Crimson* How are you?

*Hugs Louise* How are you also?

*Hugs Oliver* Whats up Mate?

PoisonedApple 01-07-2011 10:00 PM

*hugs Mark* I'm doing okay today. You?

*sits and offers Oliver a plushie* Wanna talk about it?

frenchhorn 01-07-2011 10:09 PM

*hugs Mark and Crimson*

basically I went to my GP today and we talked about a lot of things and it came up about me going back to uni in september and I have told her in the past that I was unsure about going back this year and hadn't made a decision. Now though I have made the decision to go back this september, but the decision wasn't made about me, I said to myself I'll go back because everyone expects me to (my family, teachers, the odd friend, fellow students) basically I said yes to please others. and I told my GP this today and she asked what I really feel, which is I don't think I can go back because I'm not coping now how am I going to cope with essays, practice, rehearsals etc and she said she would speak to my psych's consultant about assessing me and saying i am medically unfit to go back and she said I need to think about it from my perspective and be honest with myself about how I'm not ok. but I know I HAVE to go back this sept cos everyone thinks i am, especially my mum who thinks i am ok now and i cant let her down again.

sorry rambled on there

Doikers 01-07-2011 10:19 PM

*Squishes Oliver Tight*

PoisonedApple 01-07-2011 10:32 PM

*hugs Oliver* If you do in fact go back to uni this September, how about doing the work in bite size pieces? Do 15 minutes of an essay then doing something else for 15 minutes then 15 more minutes of the essay, etc, etc for example? I find working in small bits makes it less over whelming.
Though I would also like to point out what your doc is probably thinking... If you are trying not to let her down and then you try when you aren't ready to go back and you get worse that would let her down more than if you were to be sure you were ready before hand. Have you talked to your mom about it?

Louise 01-07-2011 10:48 PM


Originally Posted by PoisonedApple (Post 2872377)
*hugs Louise* How are you?

*hugs back* how are you?


Originally Posted by frenchhorn (Post 2872403)
*cursl up* ************



Originally Posted by Doikers (Post 2872408)
Hugs Louise* How are you also?

*hugs back* How are you?

I am feeling so so been distracting myself, trying to keep busy.

Doikers 01-07-2011 11:02 PM

*Hugs Crimson*

*Hugs Louise*

risenfromperdition 01-07-2011 11:32 PM

*curls up sleepily*

PoisonedApple 01-07-2011 11:33 PM

*hugs Louise, Mark and Heather*

PoisonedApple 02-07-2011 02:26 AM

*pops and to leave hugs, plushies, duvets, tea and chocolates*
Good night everyone! And a good weekend too... I'll be back in Tuesday. :)

xxjuliexx 02-07-2011 02:39 AM

*peeps outta my tent* hello.. havent been here in ages

Doikers 02-07-2011 10:43 AM

*Hugs Heather*

*Hugs Crimson**

*Waves to Amy*

frenchhorn 02-07-2011 11:14 PM

*hugs all who want hugs*

one_step_closer 03-07-2011 01:01 AM

*hugs Oliver*

I overdosed on Friday. I went to hospital and was kept in overnight and put on various drips. There was a patient in the bed next to me who went over to the patient in the bed oposite me and whispered "I think she self harms herself." Then she went on to tell her visitor and also told him about a 'boat trip' that I had taken during the night. I was hallucinating and thought the beds were boats and the nurses were walking about in the sea so were going to drown. So I pressed my buzzer for a nurse to come and I told her that everyone needed to get in the boats or they would drown. She simply told me that I wasn't on a boat but was in hospital and I think I then realised that was the truth and said "oh, ok."

The doctor I saw on the ward insisted that I speak to a psychiatrist to make sure that this wasn't a suicide attempt and that it wouldn't happen again. The psychiatrist was nice but he worked on the basis of my old psychiatrist's management plan so didn't consider hospital even when I told him that I have now met the three men in my head and i'm worried that they may be planning on killing my brother. He said that he'll get in touch with my psychiatrist and suggest that I see a CPN.

So, the three men. They are younger than I thought they were. They seem to be in their late twenties. I only saw the first one out of the corner of my eye, he was sitting on a chair at the end of the ward. The next one showed himself to me on a wall and the next one on a blanket. They haven't spoken to me yet, just sent me the feeling that they are going to kill my brother. The psychiatrist and a nurse told me that they won't kill my brother because they are in my head. They don't get it. The men came close to killing me but I suppose that it is my body and I can hopefully have some control over it. If they try to kill my brother maybe my love for him will be able to stop them. This all sounds like a sick fairytale.

Well, here I am back to normality. I'll start gradually saving up my medication again though but I might not go to hospital the next time seen as I don't seem to require any proper treatment. I don't think I can move forward away from overdosing. I'm too obsessed with hospitals and the emergency services. I'm reading The Blood of Strangers and I watch so many TV programmes about paramedics and people who practice medicine; 24 Hours in A&E, the Real A&E, Real Rescues, London Ambulance, Medical Emergency, Casualty, Holby City, Emergency Bikers...I also crave attention and care. I like that in hospital all you have to do is press a button and someone will come and help you with whatever you need help with.

Sorry this was so long.

frenchhorn 03-07-2011 01:16 AM

*hugs Lindsay* I'm really sorry you OD'd, but I'm glad you went and got help.

Cazki 03-07-2011 01:27 AM

*Hugs Oliver* How are you?

*Hugs Hugs Lindsay* I'm sorry you od lovely

one_step_closer 03-07-2011 02:01 AM

How are you, Ian?

Cazki 03-07-2011 02:07 AM

I'm not bad thanks Lindsay. How are you feeling?

one_step_closer 03-07-2011 02:43 AM

I'm glad you're not bad. I'm feeling like I want to OD again.

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