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Scarletdreamer 05-08-2010 12:20 AM

Sorry, so sorry... :(

*cuddles Hels* How are you, sweet? how come not in bed yet, not tired anymore?? Just wondering. :)

*hides away where no one can find her* :'(

MammaMia 05-08-2010 12:23 AM

Don't need to be sorry.
*cuddles April* Not that tired, but hoping to sleep soon. It's still 'early' for me =P (well it's 11.21pm)
*finds April and hudes with her*

Kahlia1981 05-08-2010 12:57 AM

*huggles everyone*

Sorry I've been so quiet lately. Been mostly lurking. Have been reading - but not up to replying/posting. So big apologies.

Feeling: edgy, anxious, suicidal, urgy, depressed and F.A.T at the moment

Have started having really strong urges towards: SH, suicide and ED - ana type in a really restrictive type way

I've told my housemate about some of what is going on, but I'm kind of hoping that some of it is just going to pass ... *sigh*

Anyway I'm talking about myself way too much.

*big cuddles to all on the ward who are struggling*

And I just want to say my PM Inbox is always open . . .

Scarletdreamer 05-08-2010 01:39 AM

*cuddles Hels* Early for you, yes, lol, but not for me. I'll be taking a shower & heading to bed shortly.

*cuddles Kahlia* Hon, good to see you posting again. :) I'm sorry that you're feeling so many negative feelings at the moment, and also having a lot of urges. :( I wish that there were something that I could do.

A SQUEE!!! moment of the day was when we decided I could use $25 to buy a virtual "sparklepony" ("celestial steed") from the Blizzard store for WoW. Now ALL of my bajillion toons on WoW have the sparklepony - it's basically a Pegasus made of stars!! XD - and is a flying mount and a ground mount all in one. I am soo happy, lol. I know, nerdish moment, but oh well. :P

But now I'm back down to feeling low as I'm not doing stuff on WoW with Jarrod and "the gang" of guildies that we met in January IRL. I could've, I was invited, it's just that I turned it down cos the toon that would've been doing the instance/dungeon with them was my hunter, and I really didn't want to be a faily-hunter. :(


Sorry, that was like, all WoW. >_<

Oh and Kahlia, are you sure you don't play WoW? :P cos I met someone from Australia on my new server who has "Kah" in all of her toons' names and that's what everyone calls her... so I was just curious if you had a secret identity or something. ;)

Anyway. So sorry for rambling, and sorry for being needy, and just.......... sorry. :(

Kahlia1981 05-08-2010 01:55 AM

April: Nope, definitely not me. Not meaning to sound anti-WoW but I am anti-Wow in a strictly IT sense. I meet a lot of IT students who state that they are good at IT because "I play Wow". Usually they fail everything in 1st Year. It's good for relaxation, meeting new friends in different parts of the world, problem solving, and for the type of things RPGs generally give you, but it definitely doesn't mean you are necessarily good at IT. Oops, sorry that turned into a bit of a rant.

frenchhorn 05-08-2010 01:59 AM

*hugs Hels, April and Kahlia*

god i'm just lying here crying, i can't cope in this body anymore its getting too much, i hate it hate it hate it.
sorry moaning and being pathetic arrggggggg

Scarletdreamer 05-08-2010 02:03 AM

Lol, didn't think it was you, Kahlia, and it's okay that that turned into a bit of a rant. I would in no way say that I'm good at IT... rofl actually, I suck at anything when it comes to computers. Jarrod has gotten better at stats with it though, because it can be a very mathematical game, if you get to level-cap and have to worry about certain things. :) But yeah, I'd be anti-WoW in an IT-sense if I'd run across that as well... in fact, was anti-WoW for a long time because it took up so much of Jarrod's time & I wasn't into it. But anyway, just wanted to check. Thought it was really funny coincedence. :)

Erm yeh... *hides again* :-S

SoMuchMore 05-08-2010 02:18 AM

*hugs everyone*

Sorry its not more... i typed out all these individuals but I see that for some reason it didn't post... idk what happened.

*sets out extra special cuddle box*

*hides invisibly*

misskitty112 05-08-2010 05:01 AM

*hugs everyone*
I would do more, but I just can't.... self harmed today... whooo hooo, now I have to start all over again and come clean with my T and everything =/

mouse in darkness 05-08-2010 07:07 AM

*Gives hugs to everyone who wants needs them waves at others*

I don't know how to react I finally have a job. I miss the people I love and feel just blah! I am confused in my head not just emotionally but my head is playing a dangerous game. To say too much it isn't a nice place to be.

xxjuliexx 05-08-2010 08:02 AM

hi everyone

shadowedsoul 05-08-2010 08:44 AM

Arghh!!!! how can life be so unfair, just waiting for the sh*t to hit the fan now. We got to do somthing that a person will not like, that she fighting us on since this happened now we got no choice. Because she at seen as a danger to herself. Feel so mixed up got way to many thoughts running through my head not all good ones I'm breaking down and I can't need to be strong for my perents sake. Cries and rockes.

Kahlia1981 05-08-2010 09:11 AM

Jill: *offers huggles* Wish I could do more . . .
Julie: Hiya! How are you doing? *offers hugs*
Nicole (MID): Yay! Glad you got the job hun. Sorry to hear you are missing loved ones. I'm sure they are missing you too. Also sorry to hear that your head is not playing nicely. I hope things start to improve. *sends big, calming and supportive hugs*
Felicia: *hugs you* Sorry to hear you sh. Please take care of yourself first, then let the rest take care of itself. Sorry, I know that sounds stupid, but don't stress yourself about having to come clean to your t before your have to.
Laura: *finds you using my special anti-invisibility cloak and gives you a big cuddle* How are you doing sweetness?
April: *finds you with her special "April detector" and huggles you* You would probably (or maybe not) be surprised by how often you find the Wow thing when you're studying IT. Like seriously, it's freaky. Not to mention funny sometimes when you start talking to these supposed "IT specialists" about upgrading their computers. Seriously, sometimes that has me and my housemate in convulsions!! The upgrade their graphics card so that they can get "better resolution" but don't upgrade their monitor . . . so the monitor resolution combined with refresh rate etc is less than the graphics card so they've just wasted their money!! Oops, sorry didn't mean to start that on you. Hope you are doing okay.
Oliver: *hugs Oliver* How are you doing now hun? Any better?
Helen: *huggles you* Hope you are doing okay sweetheart.

To everyone I've missed: *offers hugs* How are you going? Hoping that you are doing okay.

Personally I'm not doing brilliantly. My head is not playing nicely and I'm not quite sure what to do about it. But I guess I'll get through because I always do. I just don't know how. *shrugs*

MammaMia 05-08-2010 12:00 PM

*cuddles everyone lots*

Sorry we're all still struggling =[

Doikers 05-08-2010 12:13 PM

* Hugs Everyone*

Had a phone call this morning , well a message and I rang them back , my Lithium is being put up to 1200mg daily , which , typing it out looks a lot hmmm But I'm already on 1000mg so it's the smallest jump I can do I guess , I hope it knocks me out of this Numb/ low/ depression state. My P Doc didn't write me a perscription out though so I re-rang them to ask for one because I'd run out of Lithium otherwise :S

Sorry for lack of individuals , my head is racing , meds wise ,
Also , now I have to have weekly Lithium bloods taken , hmmm okay.

*Spots Helen and Hugs*

Scarletdreamer 05-08-2010 12:31 PM

*spies Mark & Kahlia & glomps* :D

Sorry no individuals right now. I just got up, practically (well okay, did my morning stuff other than eating breakfast/taking meds, that'll come later), and am still kind of in a sleepy, out-of-it zone. :(

Feel really low. I hope Tegretol comes in the mail today... :-S If not I will have stopped trusting this whole mail-order meds thing cos they emailed me like a week ago saying they'd got my order, and on the order form I marked "next-day mail" - next business day - and so it SHOULD'VE arrived Monday or Tuesday... :'(

*hides invisibly with Laura, after using my detect-Laura sense to tell me where she was*

Doikers 05-08-2010 12:31 PM

*Spots Kahlia(Up late) and April(Up Early) and hugs*

MammaMia 05-08-2010 02:12 PM

I hate the job centre so much, what gives them the right to think they can treat GOOD people **** and like they're timewasters??? *hides, screams and cries* I actually want to cut, but it's not ****ing worth it :'(

Doikers 05-08-2010 02:13 PM

*Spots Jessica and Hugs* How are you ?

Doikers 05-08-2010 02:17 PM

Oh Helen *Hugs* I'm sorry you were treated badly :( they really aren't worth cutting over though like you said , try to stay strong

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