I bought a lot of horror movies. I'm gonna spend all day in bed tomorrow.

I like horror movies, which ones did you get?

I never watched a horror movie. Except once I saw a few minutes and got bad dreams from it. lol.
Mark: they take in people with all kinds of problems here. I know someone who had burn out syndrome or something and he was there for 4 weeks. Someone told me that it usually takes 6 months to get a place, but it seems like i'll get a place a lot faster. That kind of worries me. What if I'm worse than I think? If I'm not seeing myself clear enough to notice how bad I've got.

Wow, never watched a horror movie? You need to at least watch one so that you can say that you've done it.

right. which one should I watch?

Hey guys *waves* not hanging around just wanted to say hey

I've never watched a horror movie either. I'm too much of a wimp too!

*hugs Laura* I hope your appt on monday goes well.

*hugs Heidi, Mark, Laura, Laura, Lindsay, Mara and everyone else*

*waves to Kim* Hi I'm Oliver

I saw my GP yesterday, well a different one to usual cos my normal one is away, but she said when it comes up to the date of my plan they will put in place things to stop me, I don't want them to stop me, I have to go through with my plan.

*hugs Mara*
*hugs Oliver*

I bought... Dead Girl, Let Me In, the Exorcist, the Grudge, the Grudge Two and Haunting in Connecticut.

*hugs everyone*

I love horror movies. They are delightful.

even those titles sound horrible to me! I could never watch one.

is Thirteen a horror movie? I watched almost the whole movie but then the power went out... urgh.

Heidi are this the spectular Japanese film or the sub standard U.S. remakkes? Grudge file I mean

Japanese :) I have to support my people!

cool Heidi !!

*waves back at Oliver*

I love horror films! Although The Shining triggered me. Jack Torrance reminded me of the ex...

Hi Kim. How are you?

*hugs Oliver* When I see you've posted it makes my heart light up!

Kim, I've never seen that one. How are you?

Mark! *offers cookie* I thought of you this afternoon cause my friend was discussing bunnies taking over the world. :)

*hugs Heidi* how are you?

Surviving. How about you both?

meh, guess I'm surviving too, trying to resist the urges to OD.

Oliver - I'm getting by. Each day starts so good and then seems to go downhill. I'm just waiting to be good enough for someone.

Kim - see above :) also, glad to hear you're surviving. You should tell me something fascinating about yourself

Heidi- I'm glad your getting by, but sorry things keep going downhill *hugs* by the way I really like the name Heidi, one of my favourite names :)

Oliver, I don't doubt how awful and desperate you feel but I nevertheless need to ask....why tell them you have a date if you are so sure you want to end it all? Why not just do it?

Why thank you, Oliver *hugs* You made me smile

pomegranate- I honestly don't know, I said to myself I wouldn't tell them and I'm angry at myself for telling them, I havn't told them the exact date, just a rough time, but they got it out of me. I feel stupid and angry for telling them though.

Oliver, I adore you and I would be so sad if anything happened to you. You know I'm always here if you need to talk, right?

Thanks Heidi *hugs*

Anytime lovely. I mean it.

same for you and all the lovely wardies, my PM box is always open.

Oliver, glad you're resisting the urges. :) It's difficult, isn't it?

Heidi, I really don't think there's anything fascinating about me. I suck at things like that. I guess the best thing I can think of is I'm a single mum, and a student. I'm **** at saying "I'm good at this" and "ahh, there's this that's fascinating about me" Is that odd?

My niece is getting hassle off her ex again. Little toerag :/

Kim, I think that is fascinating though. You're a really strong person. I admire that!

nor me! I tried watching Haunting in Connecticut once & I cried so much in the first half hour my gf had to switch it off - I didn't sleep for ages. Same when I tried to watch the ring & the girl was called Samara I freaked out & thought the TV was talking to me - it got messy.


*hugs everyone* hope you're all doing well? x

*waves to Kim Hey :)

*Hugs Oliver*

*Hugs Heidi*

*Hugs Emma if okay?*

*Hugs Mara*

Hi everyone.

I really need to cut my grass but I just can't get motivated. I'd rather stay on here with you lovely people.

*Hugs Lindsay*If you buy a goat it will eat the grass short :)

I am feeling pretty sodding triggered. Popped Diaz, they took the edge off ,sigh, I really want there to be no fresh injurys on me when Felicia and I meet in 5 days and 22 minutes .

You can do this, Mark.

I'm trying Lindsay hun :) *Hugs* How are you?

*Spots and hugs Heidi*

I'm desperate to get out of this world but know that I can't until my brother has settled down. I'm going to overdose soon to help me to have a break from the world.

*Hugs Lindsay* I'm sorry you feel rough hun *Holds hand*

*hugs Lindsay* I'm so sorry that you're hurting right now.

*hugs Mark* I'm sad that you're hurting to. I wish I could make it all better. Just think, 5 more days!

Homework is stupid and I freaking hate it. I need it to be Thursday already so I will be completely and utterly done.

Thanks, Mark. How are you doing now?

Have you got a lot of homework to do, Heidi?

The crisis team phoned at a different time than I expected them to so I didn't have time to prepare something to say to them and just told them that I was ok. It's so hard to vocalise how I am feeling.

Not a lot, so much as I can't seem to find what should be right in front of my face. I get super frustrated. I'm ready to turn it in without doing anymore.

I'm happy to hear that you talked to them at least. Have you thought about trying to write your feelings out in a letter?

*Hugs Lindsay* Went out and bought alcohol, not going to drink it tonight , it's so weird but I feel better just having it in.....

*Hugs Heidi*

I finished my homework, so that's good news. I also wrote out my suicide note today. Still not sure on when, but the note is ready to go.

I wish the yelling would stop. It's always so loud. I don't know how much more I can take.

*hugs Mark* I guess that's kind of the same as having blades about but not using them.

*hugs Heidi* Does anyone know how you are feeling? Please don't be alone with this.

I write down my feelings and show them to my psychologist, who seems to be the only person who listens to me, but I only have one more appoitment with him before he leaves to work in another area.

I Do that with blades too Lindsay *Hugs*

*Hugs Heidi* You aren't alone in this hun , Is there anyone you can talk to? I will listen hun , and am pretty sure the whole ward will too.

*hugs Lindsay, Mark and Heidi*

I'm only a PM away if anyone wants to talk

*hugs Lindsay, Mark and Oliver* I feel like no one is listening. It doesn't matter though, cause I don't have anything to say anymore.

*shuffles in and sits in a corner to think*

hope everyone is doing well. I know I haven't been 'round in a long while. Been focusing on my marriage, which is doing better... makes it easier to resist the urge to SI. Tonight... really hard though...

*hugs everyone*

Sorry guys, didn't get time to make some foodage... been a really depressing evening into overnight :( I actually feel like crying.. haven't done that in a long time... I am trying to resist but its hard