Its amazing Helen. I first heard it on the advert too.

Bleh :( feeling down again

*snuggles Sarah*

Someone send me sleeping dust to arrive in about 10 minutes? :P I think I might just drag myself offline, read & sleep. God if I have to watch Finding Nemo at placement today, I will cry (Y) Although I have diary tasks to complete, so might just do that.

*snuggles Helen* I cry at most films like a baby. I don't know what to do with myself right now. Sorry :/

I be back..

-hugs lia, helen, and sarah- how you be?

Rather down today. How are you my lovely?

Meh, same...I cutted :(

-returns to her dark corner-

Oh Kitty its okay. *holds* how is it? You looking after it?

They aren't too bad...don't look like it anyway. I applied pressure for 10 mins and they are still bleeding a bit but not too bad. I think they will be ok without stitches. I bandaged them up. -snuggles sarah-

Oh poor Kitty. I lubbles you. I wish I could help you and keep you safe.

I lubbles you too, Sarah. I am just sick. Amara won't let me be safe. -sighs- I have a feeling I need to be on an anti-psychotic or something of the sort.

Hey Sarah out of curiosity, which version of the Sims 3 do you have?

Mines on the PC darling :) I hope you're okay. Glad Rebecca is so nice, she got really angry last night and made me cry because I told a friend about her and she was scared I was trying to get rid of her... I think these meds are too wierd for me.

-hugs sarah- I'm sorry that Rebecca made you cry, hun. What do you mean you think the meds are too weird for you? What are you taking, and how are they weird?

And Amara is evil. She is never nice. She says she is nice, and only wants the best for me. She says she is advising me to do what is best. When she doesn't get her way, she makes me see bad things until I give in to at least cutting. She leaves me alone for a while when she sees blood. It makes her happy.

And I could kill my husband right about now... (not literally but still...)

Whats happened hun?

I'm on \Citalopram, they initially made me hallucinate and that settled, then about a month ago Rebecca appeared to me in a dream. I've seen her with different hair and makeup and clothes in many many dreams since. I hear her voice occasionally when I'm alone. Sometimes I can physically feel her touch me, like a kiss on the cheek or a hug or a pat on the shoulder. She's lovely, but she gets so angry when she's scared. :/

He just pisses me off so much. He scheduled an appointment for next Wednesday at a time that I have class. The school is a mile and a half away and he will be taking the car. I tried getting him to switch his appointment time and his response was, "I don't want to because I don't want to wait any longer for it." He told me I can walk home. In the ****ing cold snow and ice.

Ugh thats a little unfair. *cuddles* you can't switch your class, he should move his appointment.

Yeah, he should, but he's an ass like that. He never used to be an ass before we got married I don't know what changed. He even likes to argue with me when I tell him my diagnoses.

-spots and hugs solo- how you be?

I always have my fiance present when I see a doctor or specialist or my counsellor because my memory is so terrible and the NHS gives you nothing in writing.

Sarah, I don't want my husband at my appointments with me. He loves to talk. Always. The doctor and counselor would get annoyed with him and I would get pissed. He would sit there and talk the whole time. Then he would argue with the doctor. They don't give me my diagnoses in writing, either, but I remember what they diagnose me with, because I like to do some research on google it.