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im really scared/triggered/tearful. Its just been a bad day having bad memories trying hard to achieve something thats never going to happen. What small things are you struggling with? this world is for everyone and you should be here. Your supporting me even when your struggling which is a credit to you. Maybe just try and do little things each day and see it as an achievement once its done. |
*hugs happiness* sometimes with bad memories it can help to write about them, read over what you've written, and then destroy what you've written like you're getting rid of the memories. Allow yourself some space and time to focus on positive things.
I struggle from the moment I wake up because I dread the day ahead and find it hard to get out of bed. I don't do anything that is meaningful to me but I don't even know what would be meaningful because i've lost interest in everything. |
Maybe you could find something meaningful to do-make a card for someones birthday? go for a walk? set a small target for each day and gradually build maybe?
Im going to try that i dont know whats brought it all on just one of those days i guess. Im a bit less triggered but still upset. |
That's understandable. Is there something you could do to lift your mood?
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Nothing i can think of, ive just got into bed i think ill end up sleeping its the only thing that stops me crying etc and im on my own so if i stay up then thoughts etc take over.
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Sleep is good. I hope you manage to get some distance from your negative thoughts and feelings and feel better soon.
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*Hugs Happieness*
*Hugs Lindsay* How are we all today? |
*hugs Mark*
I'm feeling like i'm dying. Are you doing any better? |
*leaves hugs for all* hope everyones ok xx
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I think I hate both -- that he is right and that I know in my heart that I should be back on APs. I don't think he was patronizing, I think it was more I hate hearing those words and sentences cause I hate feeling or knowing that I need help. Its a heart vs mind battle sort of... in my heart I know that I should be back on AP meds, but in my mind I fight back and say that I don't and the voices compound that. I didn't tell him i ended up back SHing again. I know it was not a good idea to do, but it was the only way to break the emotional stranglehold of pain and stress I was going through. I have done it twice since I have seen him last week -- much of it is because I am overwhelmed with everything that is going on at work and at home. |
*hugs Lindsay* -- I laugh each time I see your sig because I find it hilarious - and yes, I do READ ALL THE BOOKS! LOL
*hugs Mark* -- I hope you are feeling better today *hugs happiness* *leaves some goodies (brownies/cookies/candy) on the table* |
I need somewhere to hide for a while....
Nomophobia - what tattoo are you getting done? I hope your appointment goes ok. You'll be fine. |
*hugs Twisted* (if okay)
How are you doing? |
Matt, I also read ALL the books (except boring ones :-p) How are you today?
Emily, how are you? |
Hugs are always welcome :) thank you.
I'm not doing so well to be honest. How're you? |
*hugs Lindsay and Twisted again*
I am doing okay I guess for right now... kinda like sitting on a neutral plane... but I would say I am liable to slip up depending on if something happens -- and that can even be a small tiny thing Would you like to talk about it Twisted? If you feel comfortable with doing that. |
Emily, i'm here if you need to talk.
Matt, hold on to that ok feeling and see if you can do things to build on it. I'm just trying to forget about everything and focus on my online life. |
Matt - I know the feeling, like Lindsey said hold on to that feeling and build upon it. Here if you need to chat. And I should talk about it really, but I wouldn't even know where to begin. I've done somethings that make me hate myself this weekend and I can't take it back or make it go away and so I'm left with this all consuming guilt...
Lindsey - Thank you. =) and the same to you I know what you mean about just concentrating on your online life....you can pretend that real life doesn't exist. |
*hugs* how is everyone?
*sits down to watch tv* im very tired but quite happy today :) |
I'm glad you're feeling quite happy.
I'm just watching a TV programme about extreme weather. |
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